Dealing with the Guilt. (R). 10-22-06.

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Dealing with the Guilt.
Chapter 1

Short lead in summary.
This occurs after the Season Five finale. Clark has been trapped in the Phantom Zone. Zod is loose. What will happen?
I know this is old stuff, but I did want to start with something. It's my first fan-fic.

THIS STORY IS NOT AN R RATED STORY!!!! IT IS PG IN SPITE OF WHAT THE HEADING ABOVE SAYS!!!!!!!!


Disclaimer: I don't own anything in regards to Smallville or any of the characters. I don't have anything to do with the show or Superman. This is just a story. A fanfiction.


Clark, is hurtling through space. He has been trapped inside of a very small, square shaped cubical. The cubical is moving very quickly. While it moves through space, it is turning, twisting and tumbling. Clark is thinking about the events of the past few weeks.
As he ponders the things that have happened, one thought keeps recurring. This one thought has come to him, in the form of a question. How did I get here, what happened?

My life hasn’t been perfect, but it was tolerable. Maybe a little complicated, but certainly ok. So, what happened? What went so wrong, Clark thought to himself? Thinking back he recalled some of the earliest memories of his life. It was a good life and by some standards, it would be considered a great life. The people around Clark felt that he was an exceptional boy. He has special talents, abilities. Like no other person they had seen. These abilities were gifts, talents or if you will, powers.

Clark had always known that he was different from others around him. He often wondered why he alone, had these gifts, but never really had given it much thought. Until, one day when his father, Jonathan Kent decided that it was time to have a serious discussion with his son.

He remembers that day and the things that his dad told him, as if it had happened only yesterday. "Clark, your mother and I love you more than anyone or anything else. Son, it is time you knew. You were adopted. Martha and I have been unable to have any children and we were ecstatic the day that you came into our lives. Yes, we adopted you Clark, but we couldn’t have loved you more if you our very own!"

"So, I was adopted," Clark said with a little bit of nervousness noted in his eyes. “Do you know anything about my biologic parents?" Clark responded. "Maybe they can help me to understand how and why I have these abilities?” He said with a look of hope in his eyes.

Jonathan gave him a nervous look and said, “Son, I don’t think anyone is going to be able to help us with that information. You see we didn’t adopt you through any of the local adoption agencies. Clark, your mother and I found you." Clark turned at that moment and looked directly at the man that he has always looked up to as his father and asked, “ Dad, what do you mean found me?" Jonathan with a nervous smile said, “Son, I want you to listen very closely to what I am about to tell you. He told him about the meteor shower, the ship and everything else that happened on that fateful day which changed all of Smallville and the lives of everyone who lived there forever!"

Clark remembers looking over at his father, after hearing what he told him on that day, hardly believing what he had just heard. "Dad, you can’t be serious. This just can’t be!" I know I am different, but an alien, who landed in a space ship. Dad I don’t think I want to hear anymore."
“Come with me Clark," his father said. “I will show you the ship." Clark recalls being shown the ship. He remembers the lost, hurt, feeling of being completely overwhelmed by this new information. He also began to sense that in this world, he was completely alone and different. But now, he felt a sense of relief momentarily, as he floated in this prison. He remembered that inadvertently many have been hurt, because of who and what he was. At least here he couldn’t hurt anyone and as his prison continued on it journey he remembered a song from of one of his father’s CD’s. He smiled as he thought to himself, how fitting.

A gypsy of a strange and distant time
Traveling in panic all direction blind
Aching for the warmth of a burning sun
Freezing in the emptiness of where he’d come from
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Left without a hope of coming home

Speeding through a shadow of a million years
Darkness is the only sound to reach his ears
Frightening him with the visions of eternity
Screaming for a future than can never be
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Left without a hope of coming home

A gypsy of a strange and distant time
Traveling in panic all direction blind
Aching for the warmth of a burning sun
Freezing in the emptiness of where he’d come from
Oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh
Left without a hope of coming home


Song lyrics – “Gypsy” by The Moody Blues.


Let me know if you like it and I will continue. This is my first time writing, so please don't be too hard on me.

Dealing With the Guilt

Chapter 2




How long have I been here and how far have I traveled," Clark began to wonder? “It’s cold dark and lonely here, but I deserve this, because, I have hurt so many loved ones. I don’t belong anywhere else." As his journey in this prison continued, he remembered various times in his life. Happier moments and special occasions. He also recalled, times that were pivotal to his life. These periods were marked by events. Important events that began to shape him into the man he was to become. He also remembered when after working the farm, he and his dad would go off together. Sometimes they would fish, other times they would hunt. Then there were the times when they would just sit in the shade, drinking lemonade and just talk. Clark remembered these times as being the most special to him.

These were the times that were the dear to him. As Clark listened to his earthly father he learned the most precious lessons about life. Although he was only a farmer, the knowledge that his earthly father possessed was invaluable to him. Through his dad he learned lessons that would help him deal with the important decisions that he would make through, the rest of his life. It was Jonathan who taught him to be human. This is what made him different from any other Kryptonian. Clark had a conscious!

During these talks, Jonathan shared many things with Clark. Clark learned quite a bit from his dad. He thought that his father knew everything. He loved the lectures that his dad would give him. From him he learned that everyone is important and that each life is valuable. There were even times when his dad had to show his son the right way to do things, whenever he was wrong. He did this with love, gentleness and patience. These times helped to shape Clark’s personality and instilled within Clark was distinct knowledge of right from wrong. Not the harshness and arrogance of Jor-el. If you asked Clark, his earthly dad was the most caring, loving and amazing man he had ever met!
But it was because of Clark’s poor judgment and decisions, that man was gone forever.
Clark recalls that night as he held him in his arms. Yes, Jonathan was gone and he was to blame. If only he had gone to Jor-el in the fortress before sunset as he promised. His father would still be alive. He alone was to blame for his father’s death, no matter what anyone tried to tell him to the contrary, he knew that it was his fault.

Knowing that he was the one responsible for his own earthly father’s death was too much for Clark. The guilt was overwhelming!

Although he knew that Jonathan would not want him feeling this way, he couldn’t shake the guilt that he carried. Knowing that he was fully responsible.




If only he had gone to the fortress on time. If only he had let someone else take Lana to the hospital after he trapped the two Kryptonian criminals in The Phantom Zone. But if he hadn’t taken her himself, Lex would have been the one and Clark just could not allow that………………No! Because of those choices. Choices that were his alone, Jonathan was gone forever.

It really was just too much to bear. You could see it wearing him down, in spite of all of his gifts and abilities, it was wearing him down.


Clark realized, he was truly left without any hope. He remembed that he didn’t even try to elude this trap. This trap where Zod had imprisoned him. He recalls, that all the fight had drained out of him. He didn’t use his powers to get away. Yes, he could have flown away and escaped this lonely place. He could have even super- sped away, but his heart wasn’t willing to fight anymore. Nor let him survive. His heart was broken. To Clark death would have been a welcomed release. He of course did not die, but this prison was as welcome a relief as death would have been. Locked away like this he couldn’t hurt anyone, anymore. He could no longer disappoint those he loved. His mother, Lana, Chloe. For that he was happy.

What a sad state of affairs for this one with all of his gifts and talents. What a sad state indeed.

Meanwhile, Zod was wrecking havoc in Metropolis, as well as claiming Lana as his own. Clark was so burdened with guilt and despair, that he had forgotten about what was happening on the Earth.
Little did he know that his planet was in shambles and Zod was to blame. Zod, Krypton’s most notorious criminal was on loose and Krypton’s favorite son imprisoned.



Yes, Clark was left without a hope of going home. Not knowing how long he had been in this lonely prison, he began to look around. So this is The Phantom Zone. I understand that Jor-el designed this prison. It figures that he would come up with a place like this. It’s just like him…………….cold, empty and barren, yes only Jor-el could create a place of hopelessness like this.

With a half chuckle to himself, Clark thought, I‘ve caused so much pain to those around me. I deserved to be here. Like father, like son. See Jor-el. Do you see what all your interference and guidance has done to me. You see that instead of helping me, you have actually destroyed me. Thanks so much dad! I would have been better off staying on Krypton!


But in spite of all the despair, something was stirring deep down inside of Clark. He tried so hard to ignore it, but whatever it was it would not be denied. Whatever it was he knew that he would not be able to ignore it for long.

But he would ignore it for now. He had to forget that no matter how hopeless things appeared, there was still hope. He just had to. Right now he had to forget his friends, family and home. Remembering them only brought back the pain. As he tries to forget, another song from his fathers C.D.’ comes to mind and he tries to lose himself within the song.


Hark listen here he comes
Hark listen here he comes
Turning, spinning, cantering, wheeling
For ever changing
There’s no beginning
Speeding through a charcoal sky
Observe the truth we cannot lie

Traveling eternity road
What will you find there?
Carrying your heavy load
Searching to find a peace of mind.

You’ll see us all around
You’ll see us all around
Turning, spinning, cantering, wheeling
Forever changing
There’s no beginning
You’re so very far from home
And so very much alone

Traveling eternity road
What will you find there?
Carrying your heavy load
Searching to find a peace of mind.

Traveling eternity road
What will you find there?
Carrying your heavy load
Searching to find a peace of mind

This song as well as the song from the previous chapter was from, The Moody Blues album. To Our Children’s Children, Children. An oldie, but goodie. Thanks for reading. Let me know what you think.

P.S. I promise that the story will begin to go in a happy direction soon.

[Smallville4]

good story, but is this his thought??

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Originally posted by Smallville4
good story, but is this his thought??


Thank you very much for the reply! If you mean, are those Clark's thoughts...yes they are. I am really sorry, I don't know how to do italics on this site. If someone can tell me, so I can put a persons thoughts in italics, I would very much appreciate. It is going to take me some time to learn how to use the site correctly.
thanks again.

[happycamper]

This is a Clark filled with guilt and despair.

What will it take for him to escape, and how will he shed himself of these dark thoughts? Is it Lana he needs? ;)


:D :D

[ajfinn]

Originally posted by escout
Thank you very much for the reply! If you mean, are those Clark's thoughts...yes they are. I am really sorry, I don't know how to do italics on this site. If someone can tell me, so I can put a persons thoughts in italics, I would very much appreciate. It is going to take me some time to learn how to use the site correctly.
thanks again.

Italics and bolds are done using brackets, like these [ ]. The problem is, if I put an example, it will just italicize what I write, haha. So, here's what you need to do. Quote my answer here, then it will give you the "Your reply" box. Then you'll see the code I used to make the modifications on this text:

This is how you italicize
This is how you bold something
This is how you make something a different color
This is how you change the font

Hope that helps :D If not, PM me.

And welcome to k-site ..... I've seen you elsewhere ;)

aj

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Originally posted by happycamper
This is a Clark filled with guilt and despair.

What will it take for him to escape, and how will he shed himself of these dark thoughts? Is it Lana he needs? ;)


:D :D

Yes, Clark does need Lana and some help from others. That help will be coming shortly.
Thanks for the reply.

[*#~ ClAnAfAn99210~#*]

ppms!

[mandie16]

PPMS!!

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Chapter 3





The Phantom Zone is a very strange place. Being there Clark had no sense of time. He had no idea where he was drifting. He could see no way of escape. Yes Jor-el had done well. This was the perfect prison. The only thing Clark had was his thoughts.


Thoughts that initially tormented him. Almost to the point of making him scream. But other thoughts began to surface after a time. These thoughts were more subtle at first. They were quite and almost undetectable, but as he carefully focused. They became more pronounced.

As Clark began to focus on these thoughts his despair began to lift. “Wait a minute," he heard himself say. “What am I doing? Why have I allowed myself to get so down?"

Didn’t dad always tell me that there are no hopeless situations. That there is always a silver lining in every dark cloud. More than once he told me that there is a rainbow after a storm. Then there was that really corny line, “when life gives you lemons, make lemonade." That was the worst, but from where I am sitting right now, it’s not bad advice.

I will find a way out of here. This is not a hopeless situation! When I do get out, Zod is in trouble. I will find a way to reverse the damage he has caused. I will!

All of a sudden, Clark noticed a faint light in one of the corners of his prison. This light began to brighten. He looked into it and couldn’t believe his eyes. Standing in front of him was his father! How was that possible?

“Hi son,” he heard Jonathan say. “ Dad," Clark said with a huge smile on his face. “How did you get here?" “I don’t know son? What matters is that I am here," Jonathan replied.

“Dad, it’s great to see you," Clark couldn’t believe it.

“Son, I don’t know how, but I have been able to see what has transpired. You have had a lot happen to you. More than you ever expected to ever face in life. My death, Jor-el, the evil Kryptonians, Dr Fine, your break-up with Lana and of course Zod.”

“This is a lot for anyone to face, but I know you Clark and if anyone can deal with and win against these impossible odds it’s you son. The day that your mom and I found you in that field. When we saw you beginning to develop your powers. We both knew that you were very special. We knew then that you were not here by accident. Clark, you are here for a reason. All those things that your mother and I taught you. The things you had to learn. The trials you had to endure, were for one purpose. To prepare you for today. So that you would be ready to face the struggles you are seeing now. Face then and overcome them.”

“Clark, you may not feel that you can handle all of this now, but I know you can! Son you are ready to defeat these problems. That’s why I am here to tell you this and encourage you. I also need to let you know Clark, that you are not responsible for my death. Son, it was my time. You were not responsible.”

“But dad.” Clark said.

“Son, I have never been more sincere in my life. You were not responsible, no matter how things looked. It was my time Clark.” Jonathan looked Clark right into his eyes as he said this and Clark knew that it was true.

“I have known for some time, that you are here for a reason. We always knew that it wasn’t to run touchdowns or throw long passes. Your purpose in this world is so much more important than that son! I want you to know Clark that I have never been more proud of you, than I am at this moment.” Jonathan stated to Clark as he gave him a huge hug.

“Clark,” his dad said as, his image began to fade. I am so grateful that I had the privilege of being, your earthly father. Always remember, that I love you son. Remember you will be a symbol of truth and justice to this world.”

After saying that, Jonathan was gone.

Clark realized it was time to get back to earth. It was time to end Zod’s reign of terror. It was time to fulfill his destiny!




More to come soon.

[happycamper]

It was almost lucky that Clark was sent to the Zone. It gave him the chance to meet his father, and to hear his words...

Just what Clark needed in order to willingly meet his destiny!:)


:D :D

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Originally posted by happycamper
It was almost lucky that Clark was sent to the Zone. It gave him the chance to meet his father, and to hear his words...

Just what Clark needed in order to willingly meet his destiny!:)


:D :D

It gets even better!! I will post more tonight.
Thank you so very much for the reply!!!:)

[BlackEcho]

This is a very nice story. Would this happen to be a Clana fic? Or will it eventually become a Clana fic?

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Originally posted by BlackEcho
This is a very nice story. Would this happen to be a Clana fic? Or will it eventually become a Clana fic?


Yes, definitely!!!! This is a Clana Fic!!!
But it's kinda slow getting there.
Thank you for the kind reply!

Dealing With the Guilt

Chapter 4


Meanwhile back in Metropolis, things were not going well. The great city was in shambles. The virus that Dr. Fine had released was performing perfectly. All computer function all over the world were disabled.

The virus affected everything. Airports, hospitals, all telecommunications, power- companies, everything was shut down. The only vehicles that were able to function, were older ones that did not rely on computers. But that didn’t help much because every street was blocked off. All roads were hopelessly deadlocked. Blocked by vehicles that could no longer function and by the debris, that was everywhere, because of the rioting and looting that occurred, after all power was shut down.


A major portion of the city was on fire and there was no way to put it out. Fighting and looting were happening everywhere. The authorities were trying to maintain order, but it was impossible. The chaos was just too widespread. There was just no way to bring back order to this city. All was lost.

People were hiding, inside home, buildings, shelters, for safety. Things not only in Metropolis, but worldwide were bad! Yes, Dr. Fine’s Virus had performed perfectly, just perfectly.

But at the top of the Luthorcorp Building, looking out over the city and gloating over all the destruction was Zod. Yes, Zod, Krypoton's most vicious and most dangerous criminal. Zod had at one time been in charge of all of Krypton’s defense systems, but instead of using his position to protect the innocent people of his world, he used his position to bring about the destruction of his whole race, his whole planet.

Genocide, that is what it was called. He wiped out billions of innocent people. People who had trusted and looked up to him. He did this in the quest of his only dream, world domination. He was well on his way to being the ruler, dictator of his world, until something went wrong and a weapon that he planned, to use, to take his world hostage, started a chain reaction deep within Krypton's core. Once started, it was impossible to stop. The planet exploded killing everyone; men, women, children, all were destroyed because of his greed and lust for power.

He survived, but only because his plan was discovered and he was banished to the Phantom Zone. Jor-el had cast the final vote, dooming Zod to that eternal prison. He hated Jor-el for casting the vote that caused him to be exiled, imprisoned in the Phantom Zone. He would have revenge, he swore that he would.

The Phantom Zone, an eternal prison, where one cannot escape. There is no parole, no way out. Once imprisoned, the criminal remains there, for eternity; tormented by their own thoughts and by the knowledge that there is no escape. Tormented by the understanding that they will never again see loved ones or friends. The only people that they will ever see are ruthless criminals, individuals who are just like themselves. People without any conscious. Merciless, vile, full of hatred, not only for themselves, but hatred for all life. Yes, Jor-el had created the perfect prison.


But through Dr. Fine’s persistence and ingenuity, Zod was free, yes free. Free to wreck havoc on this defenseless planet. A place where he had powers, powers beyond all imagination. Yes, he was Zod, ruler, no king of this planet and anything else he wanted.

Zod was overjoyed at the ease of his escape and victory, but nothing made him happier than the knowledge, that he finally had gotten revenge, on his jailer! Revenge on Jor-el! You see he had not only escaped, from his inescapable prison, but he had totally defeated Kal-el, the champion of this world. It’s protector! He had defeated him and it was an easy victory! Too easy, he almost wished that Kal-el had been more of a man and had put up more of a fight against him. He also wished that Jor-el could have seen just how easily he had defeated his son.

Zod had not only defeated the son of Jor-el, he had also taken a trophy, a prize, the one that Kal-el loved more than anyone else, in this world and she was now his. This made the victory even sweeter. She was certainly beautiful, very beautiful, No wonder Kal-el cared so much for her. To Zod, however she was only a spoil of war. Something to be used and discarded. But, on second thought, this one he would use and keep, not discard, because of he who once cared for her. She would be a living reminder of his victory over the son of his jailer. Yes, he would take her soon, but not just yet. He was enjoying his victory too much right now to think of such things, but later…… it had been such a long time since he had been with a woman and this one was such a beauty. He was going to enjoy this. Yes, he was going enjoy, being with her.

These thoughts were going through his mind as he looked into Lana’s eyes. She had made her way through the destruction of Metropolis and was now standing on top of The Luthorcorp Building with him. She was gazing into his eyes, with a smile on her face. She had just said something about having a deeper relationship with him. Zod would enjoy that, but not just yet…………..soon.

[BlackEcho]

Hmm, interesting update. I hope Clark shows up soon. So he finally embraced his destiny? I wonder if we will see the suit in this fic. I hope so. Maybe not, since he's facing the vessel of Zod, or is Lex not the vessel? Seems like it. Anyway, update soon!

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Dealing With the Guilt

Chapter 5




“Goodness, it’s cold,” Lois remarked as she opened her eyes having regained consciousness. “What in the world is going on,” she thought to herself. We were on our way to a conference, Martha and I. I vaguely remember, hitting some turbulence and seeing the oxygen mask come out. Then I tried to get into the cockpit and now this. It’s freezing!

“Hey, where is Martha?" She thought to herself while looking around. A quick survey of the plane showed several things. For one, the door to the passengers area was gone, causing the frigid air that she was feeling to enter the plane. Then she noticed that everything in the plane was in disarray. Martha was unconscious on the floor in the back of the plane. “I really hope that she is only unconscious,” Lois said, under her breath. Lois was afraid that Martha might be dead, but a quick check of her neck, revealed that she had a good carotid pulse and she was breathing. Lois breathed a sigh of relief. Thank God she was alive.

The next thing on the agenda was to find out what happened and exactly what was going on? Lois carefully got to her feet and made her way, very slowly to the cockpit door. Darn, it was locked. She tried pounding on the door. No answer. She had to get in there somehow, but how?

Quickly looking around the plane, she noticed a storage closet. Opening the door to the closet, she found two parachutes, emergency flairs and an axe. “Now we’re getting somewhere,” she said After picking up the axe, Lois made her way over to the cockpit door again. Without a moments hesitation, Lois began chopping through the door. After chopping for about a minute she was able to get her hand through an opening that she had made and twist the handle to open the door.

“Ah, ha,” she smiled as she continued, “you can’t keep a good woman down, no way.” Going into the cockpit she immediately became aware that there was no pilot. “That’s strange,” she said, I wonder where he went to and how did he get off of this plane.”

Lois, however, did not get a chance to ponder that question, because the very next thing that caught her attention was the huge mountain peak that was getting closer and closer! The mountain was snow capped, as if that mattered. What mattered was that they, she and Martha would soon become a permanent part of the mountain landscape. If something wasn’t done soon!

“Oh my God,” Lois screamed, trying to get into the pilots seat. After strapping herself in, she picked up the microphone and began yelling. “ Mayday, mayday, can anybody hear me! Mayday!” But there was no answer, not even any static.

Lois thought to herself, “I am not going to be a mountain fixture, so I better do something. She grabbed a hold of the steering wheel and pulled it back, trying to make the plane climb, but it didn’t respond. “What?" she said looking around. "What the heck is going on here? Why won’t it respond? That mountain is getting closer. There isn’t time to fly around it and I have no desire to go mountaineering, so plane, you had better do something fast!"

It was at that moment when Lois noted that the automatic pilot was engaged. “Ah-ha”, she said again as she turned it off. Suddenly the plane shook violently and began to dive. Lois chuckled to herself and thought, “boy, I am glad that I strapped in, but, I hope that Martha is alright.” She didn’t have time to check her again, because if something didn’t’ change quickly, they would soon be part of the frozen tundra.

Lois pulled back on the steering wheel again and this time the plane responded. It started to climb. “Yeah," Lois screamed! "I am so glad that those old air force boyfriends of mine used to take me up in their planes and let me fly. It’s good to know that all that time I spent making out with them wasn’t wasted. But, I am really happy that the General never found out."

Yes, Lois was flying and was doing a decent job of it. The plane continued to climb she just might pull this off. Lois remembered the things that her old boyfriend Jim showed her about watching your airspeed while the aircraft is climbing, so that it would not stall out. That’s all I would need now, “Lois thought to herself." She increased the airspeed and the plane continued it’s climb. She tried to raise someone on the radio, but no one responded.

The plane continued it climb over the mountain, without any problem. Looking ahead Lois saw soon sailing. With no other problems seen in the immediate future, she locked the autopilot in the engaged position and went back to check on Martha.

Lois was happy to see the senator coming to and trying to get up, as she made her way to the passengers section. “Lois,” Martha called out. “What happened to us?” Lois smiled and told Martha, “I’ll explain it to you later. Let me help you up front.”

After they were both strapped in, Lois explained to Martha what she thought had occurred. “Martha, looked at Lois and with a very serious look on her face said, “Lois, thank God you know how to fly a plane!”

Lois smiled at Martha and replied, “Martha, the flying part is easy, the hard part is landing. Now, let’s see if we can figure out exactly where we are?”





More to come………………………..soon.

[BlackEcho]

Another nice update, although it was sure. PPMS!

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Originally posted by BlackEcho
Hmm, interesting update. I hope Clark shows up soon. So he finally embraced his destiny? I wonder if we will see the suit in this fic. I hope so. Maybe not, since he's facing the vessel of Zod, or is Lex not the vessel? Seems like it. Anyway, update soon!


You are very perceptive Blackecho!! Yes the suit will show up later. The suprise will be forthcoming as far as the origin of the suit in this story.
Thanks for the replies. I hope you are enjoying the story. It's been fun doing it.

By the way for anyone interested. I had 3/4 of this story completed and posted on several other sites, before Smallville's premier Zod was shown.

Chapter 6


“Oh my goodness,” Chloe said! "I can’t fight all of them." People were everywhere and they have all gone nuts! The city is on fire. There is smoke everywhere, making it hard to see anything. The cloud of thick smoke over the city, was also making it very hard to breath.

Devastation was everywhere! The people had gone stark raving mad! They were fighting, looting, destroying, anything they could get their hands on. It was an absolute nightmare!

She never imagined Metropolis looking like this. Not even in her wildest dreams. Chloe, was totally appalled to see the citizens of this great city behaving in this manner. Suddenly, someone grabbed her and threw her down. Then someone else grabbed her.

“ Get your hands off of me now,” Chloe screamed! Somehow, she managed to break free. She turned to look and see what happened. As she did, Chloe observed, four more people coming after her. She was able to dodge two of them, but the other two, grabbed her and held her tight. Fortunately, she was able to get free from them. She turned to run and saw two different men coming at her. After two swift kicked to their groins, she was able to run. She ran as fast as she possibly could. She was trying to avoid being caught again. If I can just make it around that corner, I have a good chance of losing them. Well here goes.

When she turned the corner, her heart immediately sunk, there, before her was a crowd of about twenty people and they all began running after her. “What am I going to do now,” she said? “I can’t possibly outrun them all.” They caught her a short time later, grabbed her and began ripping off her clothing."Let me alone”, she screamed. “Let me go!”

That’s all she remembered before passing out. She didn’t get to see it, but all of a sudden, someone broke through the crowd and threw off all of her attackers. He then picked her up and carried her away to safety, leaving behind a stunned crowd.

A short time later, Chloe awoke in the arms of the man who rescued her. “Clark, I can’t thank you enough for saving…………………” She never got to finish as she looked up to see whose arms she was in. It wasn’t Clark, it was Lionel Luther, but how was he able to get her away from that unruly crowd?

She was about to ask him, but something stopped her dead in her tracks. There was an opaque, milky covering over both of his eyes. This was not Lionel and if it was, what happened to him, she thought?

Chloe became very frightened and was about to scream, when the figure said, “I am Jor-el.” Chloe thought for a minute, Jor-el, I know that name. That is the name of Clark’s biological father. Clark had confided in her about this man and her opinion of him was not good.
Whenever Clark had dealings with him, the outcome was not good. Chloe knew that Clark hated Jor-el!

“How and why, are you here and why are you in Mr. Luthor’s body” she asked immediately? “This body is a vessel for me to use as I need it to accomplish things, in emergency situations. Whenever an emergency arises that involves Kal-el. As for how, it is too complicated for you to understand. Suffice it to say, I come when my son needs me”! “Clark”, she exclaimed,“is he in any danger?”

“Yes”, Jor-el answered. More than you would ever realize.

Where is Clark and what is the danger, she asked, but afraid to hear the answer. Clark is amazing, what kind of trouble, could he possibly be in she queried?

“My son is in grave danger! He is trapped within the very prison state that I designed. It was meant to hold Krypton’s worse criminals. When they find out that he is the son of Jor-el, they will kill him.”

“How could they possible hurt Clark?” Chloe asked, becoming more and more frightened for Clark, by the minute.

Jor-el knew that Chloe was aware, of who Clark was and that she knew, about his amazing powers. “Chloe, the place where Kal-el is now, he has no powers. The criminals there will kill him out of revenge once the discover who he is. They will kill him to get revenge on me, their jailer.

“Kill Clark, oh no,” she said! “How can we help him,” she asked, with great concern on her face? Jor-el, took note of this and even his hard, stern, heart was touched by the concern, she was showing for Clark. He thought to himself, have I misjudged these friend of his?


More to come………………………………….soon!

[BlackEcho]

Oh, I see. This is a slightly different take on the Zod premiere. So Jor-El is now in possesion of Lional's body. How interesting. I hope Clark gets out of the Zone soon. I hope Raya is in this fic. She was a great character.

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Dealing With the Guilt.

Chapter 7




"We must hurry," was all that Jor-el would say. "There isn’t much time." As he said this, Jor-el super- sped with Chloe, to the cave. He took her into that special room where they were both teleported to The Fortress.
Once they were in The Fortress, Jor-el stood before an area, way in the back, where no one had ever gone before. Standing in front of a blank wall, he lifted up his right hand and a bright beam of light was emitted from it and shone on an invisible sensor in the wall. Jor-el was the only one who knew of this area and the special sensor.

All of a sudden, the wall in front of then lifted and revealed a room, just as large as the main room of the fortress, where they stood a few minutes before. This room was filled with high tech equipment, the likes of which, Chloe had never dreamed of or had ever imagined could exist! “Amazing, absolutely amazing,” was all she could say. The equipment in this room was what you would call... out of this world!

Chloe, who was no novice to high technical equipment was stunned. “Wow,” was the only thing she could say, over and over, again! This is amazing, look at all the machines and devices. They were all functioning, carrying out their specific functions. This was suprizing since the equipment in the other room was all nonfunctional, including the familiar, crystal panel, that Chole had seen before. All because of Dr. Fine’s virus. Just as the equipment all over the world could not function. “Chloe, these machines supercede any know technology know to man, Dr. Fine and Zod! I was in the process of developing a whole new branch of scientific technology when Krypton was destroyed."

Chloe still couldn’t comprehend what she was seeing. This truly was beyond her wildest imaginations! Jor-el looked at her and smiled seeing her confusion. "Let me explain Chloe. This is a very special room! The equipment in here is based on a higher level of technology, then any other equipment in the galaxy. This equipment functions on a different set of scientific laws. That’s why it is still operating, in spite of Dr. Fine’s virus. In other words, his virus can’t affect these machines because, they are built on a different technology altogether. A technology that Zod neither knows about, nor understands."


Chloe looked over at Jor-el and said, "How is that possible?” “There is so much more to this universe than you, Zod, or anyone can know," Jor-el replied! "All of this equipment, these machines and even this very room, have been here for decades, waiting for a time such as this.”

“But, what can they do, to change what has happened worldwide”, she asked?

“Much more than you can imagine”, he said with a smile on his face. “Now watch.”

Jor-el, sat at one of the machines and at super-speed was typing on the keyboard. He continued typing at super-speed for more than 30 minutes. Then he smiled at Chloe and said, "it’s completed.” He pushed a computer disc into one of the machines and the lights began blinking as information was fed onto the disc. The machine finished it work and the disc was ejected. Jor-el picked up the disc and gave it to Chloe.
Jor-el, then took her to another machine and turned on the viewing screen. She couldn’t believe her eyes. On the screen she could see Clark, in a dark corner of what appeared to be a very large maze. As Jor-el moved the viewfinder to see other parts of the maze, they could see many others moving throughout it. They were slowly getting closer to where Clark was sitting. Jor-el looked worried. "Kal-el doesn’t have much time! We must move quickly! Very quickly!"

After picking up Chloe again, he sped off to the transport area. After the bright lights began to dim she realized she was back in the cave. At super-speed she was then taken to the Paily Planet. Before leaving her in the main computer room, Jor-el gave her instruction on how to activate the main news computer at the Planet. She was to then placed the disc with the virus reversal codes on it into the computer and the disc would do the rest. The virus would be deactivated and it effect nullified and reversed throughout the world.

Before leaving Jor-el smiled at Chloe, “I was wrong about you and the others. My son is fortunate, very fortunate indeed, to have you and the others by his side as friends!"

"Where are you going", Chloe asked. Jor-el answered, "to drop off this vessel and then………………………………………to go to
Kal-el, my son" !


With a whoosh…………………………………..he was gone!


Hope you are enjoying this more to come! Please feedback! Let me know what you think. This is my first story. Thanks.

[BlackEcho]

May I know what other places you posted this fic? A Private message would be nice. I am definately enjoying this fanfic.

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Originally posted by BlackEcho
Oh, I see. This is a slightly different take on the Zod premiere. So Jor-El is now in possesion of Lional's body. How interesting. I hope Clark gets out of the Zone soon. I hope Raya is in this fic. She was a great character.

Unfortunately Raya isn't in my story. I had all of The
Phantom Zone and Zod parts written before I saw the premier. In other words, I didn't know about her until long after I completed that part..... sorry.

[BlackEcho]

Awww, shucks! I hope you got my pm, as I wish to know what other places you posted this fic. It's a great fic. And gets better.

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Originally posted by BlackEcho
Awww, shucks! I hope you got my pm, as I wish to know what other places you posted this fic. It's a great fic. And gets better.

I did get your PM. You should be receiving mine soon. Thank you for your interest!!!:)

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Dealing With the Guilt

Chapter 8




Something is definitely wrong, but I can’t really say what it is, Lana thought to herself. Lex has changed completely. He just isn’t the same man that I have known for so many years. He isn’t he man, that I was beginning to fall in love with. I don’t get it, Lana, what happened to him. What would cause him to become so different. What changed him. He never had the care and compassion about him,that Clark has always shown, but he had some and from time to time you could actually see through his hard exterior and see the little boy inside of Lex. But now, I almost don’t recognize him at all.

He has changed. Could it be a side effect of the serum he was injected with, that has caused all of this? What exactly was that sneaky Dr. Fine up to. I have never gotten a good feeling about him. Something about makes my skin crawl. What is his connection to Lex and the changes I am seeing in him?

Why does Lex continually refer to himself as Zod? Although he is acting differently and somewhat strangely, he is still my Lex. Lex the man I care for the one who would never lie to me. He is not like Clark, who can’t be honest, even if he wanted to. Just think all the years I wasted, caring for Clark. But I have to admit, there was a brief period of time, when everything was right. Everything between Clark and I was good! He was honest, loving caring………………it was wonderful! Actually, that was the happiest time of my life. It’s too bad that those days couldn’t last forever.

But one day everything changed. That was the day that Clark died. Yes, he died right in front of me. It was after he had been shot by that Gabriel guy. I was telling him that I had always know that this day was coming, because he was always helping so many. I told him that the reason why, I always held back and didn’t let my feelings completely loose and allow my self to love him, with all my heart . I told him, that I had always held my feelings in check, so that I wouldn’t get hurt. My heart has been broken so many times in the past, I really don’t know how much it more can take?

It was after that, I can still see it clearly as if it happened today, that Clark opened his eyes, turned his head to look at me an gave me the biggest, most loving smile, I have ever seen. I thought that everything was going to be great from that moment on. That he was going to get better and that we would be together, forever.

But them, things could not have gone more wrong! He closed his eyes and the heart monitor went, FLATLINE! Then I heard this awful continuous beeping sound and overhead, you could hear them saying over and over again………………………CODE
BLUE, CODE BLUE, CODE BLUE!

After that things got really bad, the doors burst open, They pulled me away from Clark and pushed me out into the hall. The nurses started doing, CPR. The doctor came in and started to order different medications which were given, through his IV. Then, they charged up a machine and began shocking his heart. I remember seeing his body, jump and jerk with each shock. The doctor put the paddles on his chest and would yell……………………..CLEAR, before each shock. They did this over and over, but his heart wouldn’t start. I realized then that, his head would never turn to me again and Oh my God! Clark would never smile at me again. I realized that he would never hold me again, never kiss me again and never make love to me again. He was dead. Then mysteriously, his body disappeared.

It was over, over. The love of my life was gone forever. Even now, as I remember that day and it’s events, I begin to cry again. I dream about it night after night. I awaken at times in a cold sweat, my heart beating wildly. Oh, if only I could forget.

But then, it was as if a miracle had happened. I went over to be with the Kent’s and there he was. Clark was alive. I didn’t understand why his clothes were torn, tattered and why he smelled like rocket fuel, but none of that mattered, because he was back alive and I don’t know how, but he was there! Yes, the love of my life was alive!

Yes, Clark was back, but he had changed. He was different; afraid, secretive, withdrawn into himself. He was not the open, caring, confident, loving Clark that I had come to know after the meteor shower. The secrets were back and the excuses. Then finally, he broke it off, forever, after he told me that he no longer loved me. He looked me right in the eye and told me he didn’t love me.

That hurt, it really hurt. In addition to the pain that I immediately felt in my heart, I had another feeling, it was like someone sucked all the air out of my lungs and the room. I couldn’t breath and I felt like I was going to pass out. I realized at that moment that I had to move on! I couldn’t continue to feel like that ………………….being only one-half of a person. I had to move on. When I made that decision, Lex was there. He was caring, affectionate, loving and most of all TRUTHFUL. Not like Clark, he was truthful and has kept no secrets from me. How could I not love this man!

But now, he has changed. He barely notices me. He calls himself Zod and Dr. Fine refers to him as General. What is going on? Who is this Jor-el he keeps referring to. Why is he so happy that he won me from Kal-el? Who is Kal-el? What does this all mean?


Wait, Kal-el! Isn’t that the name of the person, that the two people from the ship were looking for.
Who is Kal-el?



I hope you all like this update. More to come soon.

Dealing With the Guilt.
Chapter 9


"Place the disc in the computer’s CD slot and shut it. The computer will do the rest, Jor-el told her."

But what good will that do? The is no power. The computer can’t work. All the power to this area has been shut down. Now, what am I going to do, Chloe thought. There is no hope. Even with the anti virus computer disc, we can’t win. We have no way to counteract the virus. Even Jor-el’s disc can’t work if the computer has no power. What are we going to do, Chloe said as she hung her head in defeat?

There was nothing she could do, nothing. Totally lost, she sat there looking out the window, at the destruction caused by Zod. She was in a state of despair. She thought to herself, why didn’t we use the disc at the fortress, on the machines that were working. All the computers outside of the fortress were powerless. If the machines here have no power, What good is the darn disc? No matter how valuable the information on the disc is without any way to upload it onto the computers, it is worthless.

She thought of flinging the disc as far away as she could, until she realized, that Jor-el would not have gone to all that trouble, if the disc would not work. I only wish he was here now. He would explain to her how to deal with this, since all the computers were down. Why did he choose me for this impossible task?

After a while she thought to herself, Jor-el was pretty confident that this disc would reverse the damaged caused by the virus. He said a higher technology, but no power……………… is no power.

After sitting there in a state of despair for quite a while, she thought, well, it can’t hurt to try. What the heck, here goes nothing! Besides that there is no one around to laugh, because I expect this disc to work in a computer that has no power. The main computer at the planet’s CD Rom drawer was open. She placed the disc in it’s place. All of a sudden the drawer closed on it’s own. Lights on the computer suddenly blinked several times. The disc began spinning and as it did the computer came alive!

With a look of disbelief on her face, Chloe found her self uttering, "how is this possible. The computer has no power source." As she pondered this question, the screen of the Daily planet’s main computer came on.

It was then that she saw it. She wasn’t sure what it meant, but she saw a symbol on the screen of this computer. The symbol was a metallic looking "S". She watched wondering what was happening. What was the meaning of this symbol?

Suddenly, all the light’s came on in the planet’s main room and the lights all through, The Daily Planet Building, came on. Then, all of a sudden, simultaneously, all of the Planet’s computers, powered up and began intercommunicating. As each of the computers powered up and their screens came on, that same metallic, “S”, symbol was noted on every one. How is this possible Chloe said looking perplexed? Then, it hit her. Jor-el, he knew that there was no power anywhere. This disc, contains it own power supply. But how could this be happening, it was impossible. This is amazing she thought!

The computers all over the building and then all over the city, began to power up. As the information on the disc was shared from computer to computer, more and more power became available from the disc. It contained an unlimited power source and was driving back the virus. As the virus was driven back the metallic “S” appeared on each monitor screen.

As power was being turned all over the city and then spreading from city to city, Chloe shouted, "Go Jor-el!" She became so excited over what was happening, that she began dancing around laughing. Power was being restored everywhere. The virus was defeated. Zod would soon be defeated! If only Clark was here to see this.


Sorry that this update is so short. It’s not what I wanted it to be, but I have been under the weather for the past few days. Hopefully, I will be feeling better soon and back to my normal self. I just wanted you to have an update.

Dealing With the Guilt

Chapter 10



“There has to be a way out of here,” Clark said out loud. “No matter how bright a scientist Jor-el was, he could not have designed an escape-proof prison. No one has been able to do that. There is a way out, I just have to find it!” He had no idea where he was or how far his prison, had traveled from earth, but deep inside of himself, he knew that he had to get back as soon as possible! Zod was Krypton’s most brutal and most dangerous villain. He had destroyed Krypton. Now, he was loose on the earth, with all of the same powers that he possessed. All that he could think of was those poor people. I have to stop him! Somehow, I have to stop him!

Clark knew that there were other there in the prison, but he kept himself hidden. He didn’t want to chance them knowing who he was ………………………the son of their jailer. No telling what they would do to him. He wasn’t afraid, but one hundred to one odds just wasn’t fair. Of course, no one in The Phantom Zone possessed their powers. They all were on an equal basis, but those odds were not good.


He continued to think of how to get out, when all of a sudden a faint blue-white light appeared in the corner of part of the maze he was in. As he looked at the light, it grew brighter and brighter. Then a figure emerged out of the light and walked toward him. Clark wondered, O.K. who is this? As the figure approached him, Clark couldn’t believe his eyes. He opened and closed them quickly, making sure he wasn’t dreaming or imagining this.

Standing before him, to Clark’s utter amazement was an individual that looked exactly like himself. The only difference was that this individual was about twenty years older then Clark. “Just who and what are you," Clark asked in totally surprised? "If this is some kind of a joke, I want you to know right now, I don’t think it is funny”, he replied!

As he studied this figure that was standing directly in front of him, he noticed several things about this individual.

For one he had the same huge wide smile. His eyes, were deep blue-green, just as his own were. He also had the same thick, black, curly hair, but it was slightly grey. There was only a hint of grey, but still grey. Clark wondered to himself, who or what is this we could be identical twins. This probably another form of torment about to start, wow, my biological father really knew how to set up a prison.

All of a sudden, the figure in front of spoke, “Kal-el, my son, we finally meet. It is good to see you with my own eyes and not through the eyes of others. You are just as I have always imagined you would be.”
Clark was stunned! He was also speechless. Could this even be possible, is that really my biological father, standing in front of me. I am either dreaming or hallucinating.
“Jor-el”, Clark asked, in shock?

“Yes son, it is I”, the figure replied.

Clark slowly began to back away. “I don’t want to see or talk with you. I just want you to leave now and stay out of my life, forever. I especially, don’t want to hear anything about my destiny,” he said with anger in his voice! “You have never been my father. You have only been someone to cause hurt and pain in my life. Jonathan Kent is my father, get away from me!”

“Son, don’t feel that way. I am you father. Just look at me, what do you see? You see yourself. Search your feelings, deep down inside of you, you know exactly who I am,” Jor-el replied. “Son!”

“I see a monster, Clark said without a second of hesitation! Someone who has tried to ruin my life, to see me become the same, cold, heartless, calloused individual that he is. No, my father would not be like that. You are not my father, Jonathan Kent, he is my father.”

"Kal-el, I am sorry! I have been all that to you, but not to destroy you. My thoughts and actions were only to help you be stronger, self-reliant, to be the greatest Kryptonian ever!
I never meant to cause you any harm son. I tried to guide you and teach our ways. I tried to wipe out any traces of humanity out of you. Humanity, I have always considered it to be your greatest weakness, my Kal-el! That’s why I tried so hard to rid you of any traces of it. My intentions were honorable son. I only wanted the best for you! I wanted you to go down in history as Krypton’s greatest hero and you will, my son!”

“My intentions were good, Kal-el, but, I was wrong. I was terribly wrong. I was so much a scientist, that I didn’t realize that the human part of you. The things that you learned from the Kent’s and the others that developed a sense of conscious within you, were not you greatest weakness, but are your greatest strength! The things that they have imparted do not detract from who you are but add so much more to who you are. I was wrong. I am so sorry that in my shortsightedness, I did not see that all of your human qualities are an asset. They have made you greater than any earthling and greater than any Kryptonian. My son, those qualities along with your great abilities, together they have made you who you are. I finally recognize, who and what you are my precious Kal-el. You, my son are SUPERMAN!!!!!!!" Kal-el earth needs you now. The universe will need you in the future! I am so very proud of who you are. I love you my son! With that, Jor-el, walked over to his son and held him tight in a hug. A hug that spanned the galaxies!

Clark, was trying to process all of this, but then he stopped and held his father just as tightly as his father was holding him. As he hugged him, he thought, this man is not the monster that I have always assumed him to me. He is a loving father, who did the best he possibly could to help his son be the best, he possibly could. I can’t hate this man. I don’t despise or fear him. I love him. He isn’t the monster I have always thought him to be.

I found myself replying, “thank you father and I love you too!” I was absolutely amazed. Now looking back, I could see that through his actions, he was only trying to help develop me to be, the best possible. He never meant to hurt or harm me or others. “Dad, I understand, what you have tried to do. Thank you, dad!”


We looked at each other for quite some time. It was so amazing, I was just like him. Suddenly, a hand was on my shoulder. I turned to see who this was and to my amazement, it was the most beautiful woman, I had ever seen. I knew who it was immediately. A child never forgets the mother that held him, bathed and dressed him. He would never forget the one who nursed him. The woman’s voice, the one, that he had remembered, while in that tank, during that time, he was tested against his will at Summerholt. He remembered that wonderful voice. The one that asked, “but will they love him?” Yes, that was the voice of his mother.
Looking over to her he said, “Lara?” “Yes son, It is I.” They hugged for what seemed like an eternity. The mother and son reunion. There is nothing more sacred in all the universe! She repeated over and over. “My Kal-el, my Kal-el, my Kal-el!” “I love you my child,” then, he finally said. “I love you too mom.” Tears were in all of their eyes. What a wonderful time they were having and in The Phantom Zone, of all places. Clark was complete! Those empty places in his life could never return again. Yes the void had been filled, by the love of his parents. His biologic parents. He had always known that his earthly parent loved him. But with this knowledge about his biological parents and their love for him, he was complete! What did his father, Jor-el call him ……………..SUPERMAN. I like the way that sounds, Clark thought... SUPERMAN!


While the reunion was occuring, another hand touched his shoulder. It was Jonathan. "Clark, I hate to break this up, but they need you back on earth. Zod is wrecking havoc down there." "Zod, I have to stop him," Clark said, "but how?"

Jor-el smiled, “ Son, I have the ability to get you out of this prison, but not to get you back to earth. You will have too fly back. During the flight you will be able to sort through all of this. But, one thing that you need to know. Son, you are different now. No longer are your Kryptonian side and human sides at odds. You are one now son, you are complete."
“Because of this, you will find that your abilities and powers have increased. You will also begin to find that you have developed new powers as well. Use them wisely son!
One last thing Kal-el, do me the honor of wearing the family colors as you fight this enemy of our family and our people.”
At that moment from behind his back Jor-el pulled out a uniform and handed it to Clark.
As he held it up to look at it, Clark smiled. “ It would be an honor father!”

After putting it on, Clark saw his reflection off the wall of The Phantom Zone. He thought this outfit, it was really nice. The colors were Red, Yellow, and Blue. He looked on his chest and there was a red S framed with yellow. There was also an S on the cape. Clark thought, not bad, not bad at all.

“We are witnessing the birth of Superman”, Jonathan said.
Then, other voices were heard. Other voices from other parts of the prison. Kal-el, take my hand it is time to leave. “We must hurry”, Jor-el said. Jonathan , Lara and finally Jor-el hugged him one last time. Then Jor-el took his hand and there was a FLASH OF LIGHT. Clark looked around trying to get his bearings, then he started to fly to earth.

Yes, Clark thought to himself. Zod was in trouble!





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Dealing With the Guilt

Chapter 11

A great big thank you to AJ Finn, for showing me how to do italics, change fonts and do color changes!!!


After the flash of light has gone, Clark looked around and realized that he was alone, but outside of the prison. Before he could do anything, he heard, Kal-el, you will never be alone, we will always be with you, in your heart. "Goody-bye my son, he heard Jor-el and Lara say and he also heard a voice saying, "go after him Clark", knowing, that it was Jonathan. "Mom, Dads, I will not fail,"Clark replied! "We know Kal-el, be quick, there is much destruction occurring. Find Zod and end his short and evil reign." Then, he heard Jor-el say, “ son save her. Save her from his evil clutches.” Clark knew immediately that Jor-el was referring to Lana. "Don’t worry dad, he won’t get the chance to hurt her,"Clark said sternly. Then in a flash, Clark was off to earth. Clark was amazed, “ I seemed to have lost my fear of heights”, he thought. I wonder what else will be different. With a new determination he sped off to earth.

Oh, it feels good to be out of that prison. I am not really sure of how long I was in there, but it seemed like forever.
During the time that I was trapped, in that horrible place, I had a lot of time to think about everything. About, who I am, my purpose or if you will my destiny.
I now have a much better understanding of the things that matter to me. I realize who the people are that mean the most to me and I understand that I really need to come clean and be honest with some of them. Especially, that little lady that I care for more than anyone else in this world! I was so wrong to think that I could go on in life without her. I just hope that I haven’t lost her for good.
Things are so different now. It seems like my head is clearer. That I make better choices, without the inner turmoil constantly fighting against me. I seem to finally be a peace with who I am in this world. No longer am I worried about being different, an alien. A stranger from another planet, who knows nothing about himself or that planet…. I have the love of my parents, both sets of them. Yes, I am finally at peace, with the person that I am and at peace with where I have been. I know that I have made mistakes, but I am about to change all of that, soon!
But wait, something is different. I feel differently. Somehow, I feel stronger and faster. Didn’t Jor-el, I mean dad, say that I would be different? Wow, that’s a switch, me calling Jor-el dad. Who would have ever thought that I someday, I would look to him as my father, instead of 'the monster', I have known him to be.. I understand him now. He really did have my best interest in mind .

What a strange turn of events. Finding out that I was really not responsible for the death of my father, Jonathan. Meeting and seeing my mother was wonderful. I thought that Lana was beautiful and she is, but seeing mom, the one who was so concerned about me being loved. That was amazing and she really is the most beautiful woman I have ever met! Then seeing Jor-el as he really is, getting to know his way of thinking and understanding why he did the things that he has done to me. He is not my enemy. Not the hideous creature that I have thought him to be. But he is a caring loving father wanting only the best for his son. Seeing him face to face, well I guess I am a chip off the old block. No wonder the picture in the paper of the drifter they though killed Lana’s aunt Louise looked like me. The drifter, Joe as he was known, was none other than Jor-el, my father. Dad was in love with Lana’s aunt.
Lana, oh my, I have some major damage repair to do with her. I just hope that it won’t be too late, to change things between us. I hope that most of all, maybe we can be close again. Maybe, we can pick up where we left off? There is a lot we need to talk about, but I pray it isn’t too late.
What Jor-el said about me having changed is true. I can sense a difference. I am flying faster. I remember the time I flew as Kal-el. It was amazing moving through the air. He went really fast, but I know that I am moving much quicker than he was moving that day. I feel stronger and in more control of myself. I also feel more sure of myself. For the first time I really know who I am. I am Kal-el, son of Jor-el and Lara, but I am also, Clark Kent, The mild mannered son of Martha and Jonathan Kent. For the first time ever, we are one! No more lies, no more excuses, no more feeling sorry for who I am!
Well, Smallville, no matter what happens a different Clark Kent is coming home.

Meanwhile a small jet was flying over the northern parts of Alaska. “You know Martha, it’s very strange, that no one has responded to our May-day's, no one. This is really strange. Even the military communications are down. I wonder what is going on,” Lois said. “I don’t know Lois,” replied Martha. “This is getting stranger and stranger. I wonder what is going on in Metropolis,” she said. “I do hope that Clark is alright. He has had it rather tough this year. I hope that he will be o.k.” “Don’t you worry about Clark,” Lois replied. I think that that meek and mild Clark Kent is a lot tougher than he admits to be. Martha, he is going to be just fine.” “I hope that you are right Lois, Martha said with tears running down her face. If only he didn’t blame himself for everything. Not everything is his fault,” she thought. “Well, at least the compass works, we will just turn this baby around and head south,” Lois said with a smile on her face. “Talk about a girls day out this has got to be the ultimate, mystery trip. Wouldn’t you say Martha?” “Yes I would Lois. This is the ultimate mystery trip that is for sure,” Martha replied.



Back in Metropolis, Chloe was jubilant, "it worked, it worked……………………..yea, yea, yea!"The progression and effects of the virus have been stopped. Not only that, but the damaged done by the virus in all computer systems was being reversed. Oh, happy day. It is so nice to see the “ S “ on the screens, instead of the "Z" that was seen before all the systems crashed. Now if only Clark were here to deal with Zod. I hope that Jor-el was able to free Clark, from The Phantom Zone.
It’s really strange, but I kind of liked Jor-el. He was different this time, kind and caring. He was completly different, from the way Clark has described him. I wonder what caused him to change. Oh, well Chloe thought. Come home Clark, no matter what has happened in the past, we love you. We all love you even, Lana!


Lana, remained in the mansion, to be near Lex. Besides, it was safe here. Outside in the real world things had gone crazy. Lex, still takes very little note of me. He and Dr. Fine remain very busy discussing their plan. Lex, continues to call himself Zod. He repeatedly talks about world domination and becoming the ruler of this primitive planet and the backward earthlings. Then, his continued ranting about Jor-el, his jailer and his defeat of Kal-el. He acts like I know this Kal-el, but I have no idea who this person might be.

Oh, Lex, I mean General Zod is calling me. “Lana my dear, come here and look and see all that I have accomplished. Very soon I will be the ruler of this backward planet and you, my dear, will be at my side, as my queen. Very soon, I will take you to my bed to consummate my claim to you. Then you will be Zod’s forever and my victory over Kal-el will be complete. I will take the one he thought most of in this world. The one Kal-el loved. Yes, you my dear will be mine and when I am finished, before this night is over, you will be. Shall I say, more worthy.”

Who is he talking about? Does he mean to take me as in the sexual sense. I don’t think I am quite ready for that yet. No, not with him. With Clark yes, but not with Lex. Clark, wherever you are and whatever you are doing, I love you and I am so sorry for the way, I have been treating you! Oh, Clark! Then Lana thought, things have gotten really strange around here. I think that I may just be leaving here soon.
All of a sudden, Dr. Fine comes in with a frightened, worried look on his face. General Zod”, he calls out. “I have news, grave news.”
Zod super sped over to him and they spoke, just above a whisper. “ How can this be,” Zod asked, “no one could have come up with a solution to stop the virus, no one.”

Dr fine, turned on a computer screen. Instead of the bold “Z” that should be on the screen, General Zod, saw something that made his blood run cold. “No it can’t be. No I won’t believe it, no……………..not Jor-el, he is dead, how could he possibly be the one.” to do this,” Zod replied.
Dr. Fine answered, "no one else could have done this. Only a great scientist, one of Jor-el caliber. Not even Kal-el could have done this. Even if he could escape The Phantom Zone, where you imprisoned him a few days ago. He could not have stopped the virus. The virus was too complex, I saw to that."
“But that symbol on the screen, it is the symbol of the family of El. Zod stood there taking this all in. I will not lose to the spirit of my Jailer or his son. I will not lose.”
I will now take this one that Kal-el treasures so dearly and make her mine. Grabbing Lana, he said, “come with me my dear. Prepare yourself for an experience, the likes of which you will never experience again. No one is like unto Zod”. Get ready to experience heavenly joy!”

Lana became very frightened. She had her suspicions of what he was referring to and she wanted no part of it. But, he was too strong and there was no way she could escape. She struggled, but escape was impossible. She began screaming ……………….no, please no!
Zod continued to pull her.
Dr. Fine grinned, knowing what was to happen next.

[Clanafan24/7]

AHHHHHHH,nnnnnnnnnnoooooo!!!!your not telling me that Zods gonna........Thats it i think i'm going to Clana heaven,not the one on K-site the big one in the sky!(sigh) i didn't even finish my HSC....

[maitriniazngurl]

great story!

I am really like how interesting it is. I can't believe what's going to happen!

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Dealing With the Guilt

Chapter 12


“Hey, Lois you are doing a great job flying this plane,” Martha smiled as she said this. She realized that without Lois’ ability to fly, they would have been scattered all over a certain mountain-top hours ago. “It’s nice flying with you Lois, but I will feel much better once we have landed and are safely on the ground.” Martha knew that Lois would understand what she meant.

All of a sudden the silence was broken by a voice over the radio. “Are you alright up there,” the voice asked? “I am Lieutenant Knight of the Primo air-force unit stationed here near Juno,” he said. “I picked up on your emergency beacon a short time ago. Are you alright?”
“No we are not said Lois,” overjoyed that someone was finally answering the emergency calls! “Where have you guys been, we have been calling, Mayday for several hours. You are the first to reply.”

“All the power has been for some time. We haven’t heard anything. In addition to that all communications have been down, even all backup communications. It has something to do with a worldwide computer virus. The likes of which none of our experts have seen before. We don’t know how, but the power and communications were just restored a short time ago. It’s the strangest thing I have ever seen and I have been in the United States Air Force for thirty years.”

“Well we are certainly glad to hear your voice Lieutenant! I am Lois Lane, the daughter of General Lane of the Army Special Forces Unit stationed at Fort Houston.
We are trapped on a private jet. Our pilot has disappeared. We were about to crash into a mountain, when I was able to turn the plane around and fly it, but I can’t land it. We are in desperate need of your help! Our fuel is getting awful low and we don’t have a lot of time so whatever you can do to help, will be greatly appreciated!”

“We have you on radar and you are forty-five miles away. We will bring you in, by the way you are doing a marvelous job flying that plane. How did you learn to fly,” asked the Lieutenant? “That’s a long story soldier, I will have to tell you later.” I really don’t want Martha to know about me making out with all those pilots, just to learn how to fly.

“Did you say you are Lois Lane, the daughter of General Lane,” another voice said. “Lois, it me Dave Johnson, I used to take you flying, many years ago when I was stationed at Fort Houston. Do you remember me?”

‘Yes I do remember you Dave,” Lois lied, she had made out with so many of the airmen and soldiers, she didn’t have a clue which one he was, but she wasn’t going to let on, because of Martha. I don’t want her to think that I am a total sleaze, Lois thought to herself.
“Martha we are saved,” Lois shouted . “They will talk us down. We are going to be alright. We are saved.” Martha was greatly relieved, "thank God”, she said. But to herself she was thinking, I have a bad feeling about this. I don’t think that we are out of the woods yet and never again, will I fly on a Luthorcorp. Jet.

Meanwhile far out in space, wow, the prison I was in moved a great distance in the short amount of time. But as fast as I am now able to fly, I should be back on earth in no time. I have to make a quick stop at my Fortress and then, I will deal with Zod!

“O.K. Lois, change you heading to two-zero-niner, I repeat two-zero-niner. That will bring you in on our main runway. I will begin giving you instruction on what to do as soon as you pass over Lake Geneva. It’s a big lake and will take you a while to fly over it.”

“Gotcha flyboy, I will be ready to follow your instructions anytime,” she replied.

Then all of a sudden, the engines began to sputter. Then, they both just shut down. The jet began to lose altitude and then plummeted to the lake below. Lois looked over at Martha and said, “well at least we tried. At least we are going down fighting.”
Martha smiled at Lois and said, “Lois you did a great job. Thank you. I also want you to know that you have been to me, the daughter I never had. Thank you for trying.” Martha thought to herself, if only Clark were here.

Then Lois picked up the microphone and began shouting, "mayday, mayday, mayday, we are going down. Both jet engines just went out."


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Dealing With the Guilt

Chapter 13



“Mayday, mayday………………….this is Lois Lane! I am on board a Luthorcorp jet with Senator Martha Kent. Both engines have shut down and we are losing altitude fast! We are directly over the northwest corner of Lake Geneva, mayday, mayday!”

“What now Lois,” Martha asked with a worried expression on her face?

“Well, they are aware of our location. They will send a rescue party after us, right away. Now all I have to do is keep calm and try to guide us in as carefully as possible. There is a good chance that we could make it out of this , Martha, keep your fingers crossed and pray. I don’t know how to pray Martha, so you pray for both of us. I will do my best to get us down softly. Brace yourself for impact!

“Keep the nose up! Keep the nose up!” Lois kept repeating out loud.


Meanwhile, at The Fortress of Solitude, Clark very quickly flies in and lands right in front of the Crystal Control Area. He changes the position of several of the crystals. As he does this the control panel comes to life. Everything seems to be functioning normally, he thought. Then he took something out of a special panel and whooooosh, off he was flying at top speed to Smallville. He had a very important meeting with a fellow named Zod.

As Clark was flying, his super-hearing picked up a distress call. The voice sounded familiar. The woman was crying mayday, mayday and something about a jet going to crash. He thought to himself, That sounds an awful lot like Lois. I better check it out.
Flying as fast as he could in the direction of the voice, he could see the plane going down. It was falling at a very rapid rate, nose first . the jet was about to crash, but Clark swooped down. Positioning himself under the fuselage of the jet, gently, guided it down and landed the jet safely. Lois had passed out, but Martha was looking out the front of the jet, wondering what miracle had come to save the day.

Martha couldn’t believe her eyes as she looked at the individual opening the door of the jet. As Clark put his head inside the door, Martha said, “Clark! Son, thank God you are here! I thought we were done for.” “No mom, I am not losing you too, no way," he said! Then he quickly checked Lois and found that she had only fainted. “She is going to be fine, he said.”

With a huge smile on her face Martha asked, “Clark, what is that you are wearing?” "I’ll have to tell you later, mom. It’s a long and unbelievable story. Let's just say it's a family tradition." He replied. “By the way, I saw dad. He told me to tell you, hello. He also want you to know, how much he loves you!"

All that Martha could do is reply, “What?” "It’s a long story mom. I have to go, but I will tell you everything that happened, later”. Mom, I have some important business to attend to, so I will have to leave. But, I hear some rescue choppers coming for you and Lois. He hugged Martha, gave her a warm kiss on the cheek and said to Martha, “I love you mom!” Her reply was, "I love you too son and I just love your outfit!” See you soon she said as Clark took to the air and was headed to the Luthor Mansion. As he flew, he said out loud, “ General I am on my way”.



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Dealing With the Guilt

Chapter 14


“Martha, what happened? How did we land without any damage to the plane? How and why did we escape injury? Neither of us have a scratch on us. I don’t believe this! How is this Possible?"

Martha smiled, knowing that she could not divulge Clark’s secret, especially to Lois. “I really am not sure of what happened,” Martha said, feeling bad that she had lied to Lois. “I was knocked out or passed out and when I came to we were here on the ground, safe. I hope that someday we learn exactly what happened?”

Lois looked at Martha and laughed, “Martha, this has been one really strange day!” Both agreed.

Chloe, stood in the Daily Planet’s main office, looking around. With the power back and the computers running, I had better start writing my headline front page story, of what was going on from my perspective, she thought to herself. Leaving the things related to Clark out of course. Wow, what a day, thought Chloe. What a day!

I really hope that Jor-el succeeds in getting Clark out of The Phantom Zone. I hope that Clark can take Zod and send him back where he belongs, before he causes anymore damage. What will happen to Lex, when Zod is defeated and gone?
Clark, I know you can defeat Zod. You have to beat him!


“Young lady relax! This will be over soon. You can just stop fighting me now, there is no escape and you cannot leave here, who could possibly help you. I want you! Be glad, you have been blessed with the favor of Zod. Yes, you will be the first of many women for me. Yes Lana, you, will always be my greatest treasure! The one that Zod took from Kal-el, the son of Jor-el. You will be by my side forever!”

“Come my dear, come!" Zod swooped Lana up in his arms and super-speed with her into Lex’s master bedroom. “The time has come my dear. Let me show you, what pleasures a real man can bring you. Kal-el was just a boy. He could never please you the way that I will tonight. You will never forget this night. “Very soon, you will thank Zod for letting you be his first.”

Lana tried to pull away, but it was no use. Whoever this was, Lex, Zod, he was much too strong and way too fast for her to get away. Lana made a decision, to fight this. He may be able to take her against her will, but she would not make it enjoyable for him. She would not make it easy. He was going to have to take her by force. She was determined, not to give in. She would not cooperate. No! This could not be really happening to her!

In the master bedroom, Zod smiled at her with an evil grin. “Yes Lana, it is time , he said”, throwing her onto Lex’s bed. His look made her skin crawl. She became nauseated and felt like she was going to throw up.

Lana pleaded again, “please don’t do this to me. I will serve you, do anything you want, but please don’t dishonor me like this.”

“Dishonor you, my dear, this is a great honor! To be wanted by The Great General Zod! Many, will envy you. Someday you will realize how fortunate you are and thank me”. After saying this, he super-sped over to the bed and ripped off Lana’s blouse. She shuddered, as she felt the cool air on her shoulders.

Oh no, Lana thought to herself, he is really going to do this. I can’t let this happen, but how am I going to stop, a man with his strength and power. Oh, if only Clark was here. Clark, the one who was always there to help me in my time of need. Clark, the one, who always saved the day. The man who cared for me with a pure, honest love. Not a lust, like this Zod, as he calls himself has.

Clark, oh, how I miss him! I wish he were here, now. Not that he could stop this madman from doing what he is about to do………………… I wish I hadn’t treated Clark so badly. If I could take back the words, I said, that so often hurt him. Especially, when I told him, that I don’t know how I ever loved him! The look in his eyes when I said it. It was as if something within him died. The light that I have always see in those eyes, went out. It was as if I had pulled out his heart and trampled it on the ground. Yes, I saw all the joy in his eyes depart, when, I said that.

If he were only here now. If I could only say, Clark, I love you , I sincerely do! I really don’t love Lex Luthor. I was using him, to make you jealous and look at where it has gotten me. “No, leave me alone”, I scream at this Zod!


He laughed again, with a twisted perverted smile on his face. He reached up at super-speed and ripped off her bra. She shuddered at the sudden rush of air on her bare body. She quickly tried to cover up. Zod moved again. How does he move so fast, Lana thought?
Before she could blink her eyes, she realized he had pulled off her pants. Now Lana was on Lex’s bed with only her panties on. She realized it was hopeless. No one could save her. Not even Clark. She alone, would have to pay the price, for all of her foolish behavior. She alone. Lana, began to cry as he ripped of her last shred of clothing and climbed onto the bed, grabbing her and now, climbing on top of her. Then a thought came to her. Would Clark even want to save her. Even if he could. Probably not, considering the way, she has treated him. Probably not. All is lost.

At super-speed, Zod disrobed and without anything on hr said, "Now, my victory over Kal-el will be complete, he said out loud! "Now, look at Zod now. Answer me, how can that boy compare to a real man?"
More to come ……………………..soon!

[clana-lives-on]

wow..that was good..ppms

[ajfinn]

Looking good, escout :) Having some fun with the codes, huh? :lol:

Fun stuff!

aj

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 15


Zod was ready for Lana, but he was disappointed when he looked down at her face. She had passed out...fainted.
Well, she is going to miss, ‘the grand opening’. I will just have to tell her about it later. I am not waiting any longer. Conscious or unconscious, she is mine for the taking and I am taking her now. Positioning himself he was ready to go, when he was suddenly thrown across the room into a wall. It was then he realized that he wasn’t exactly thrown, but was forced against the wall by a power beam that was being emitted from Clark’s right hand. The beam was actually holding him there.

“Well, well, well...Kal-el, you are back. How did you get out of the Phantom Zone?”

“Let’s just say this general, I have my own abilities and ways of escaping traps laid for me. Now General, get dressed and meet me out in the library in fifteen seconds. That’s if you have the courage to face me.” After saying that Clark shut off the power beam that was holding Zod against the wall.
Kal-el was as surprised about that beam as Zod was. Where did that come from? How did I know to use it? So this was one of the new abilities that Jor-el, I mean dad, told me about. Wow,I am still not used to calling him dad."

“I will meet you in a few seconds Kal-el. Hopefully this time you will give me a better fight then last time. I thought you father, Jor-el was pathetic, but like father, like son. I will meet you son of Jor-el! One more thing, I see that you are wearing that pitiful outfit that you father used to wear. I don’t know how you got it, but it didn’t help your him and it won’t help you! That I promise!”
“Kal-el, you will not fare any better than your father and when I have destroyed you, I will come back in here and finish what I began with her. The one that you loved is now mine to have and to take anytime I wish. Think about that while you are waiting for me.”


Clark super- sped to the library and was deep in thought realizing what Zod had just said. He understood even more the importance of defeating, Zod quickly.

While Clark and Zod were conversing, Lana came to. Who was the figure in the red, yellow and blue outfit? He was floating in the air five feet above the ground, with his back to her. She couldn’t put her finger on it, but he was vaguely familiar. He reminded her of someone she knew, even with his back to her. She tried to ascertain, who this man was? Who does he remind me of?

So, this is Kal-el, Lana thought. I love the cape! But more importantly, he is flying, floating or something. How is he able to do that? She also realized that she had not been violated, so whoever this was saved her from Zod’s sexual assault and for that she was very grateful! I hope that I get a chance to thank him she thought.

Lana didn’t move, she didn’t want them to know that she was awake. She did not want to draw attention to herself.

Zod dressed quickly, then super-sped into the library.

After they left, Lana ran into the library to watch what was going to happen. Before doing that she wrapped a sheet around herself. She hid just outside the library and peered around the corner, looking in.
Darn, she thought to herself the stranger had his back to her. He was still hovering about five feet off the ground.

“You are a coward, Kal-el, just like your father,” Zod taunted Clark.

“I am not a coward General.” Clark replied.

Suddenly Zod flew into the air and was about five feet off of the ground. He smiled and in a loud, booming voice said, “Come to me son of Jor-el. Kneel before Zod!!!!!"


Clark’s reply was instantaneous. “I will never kneel before you or anyone else, General!"

“Then you will die Kal-el,” was all that Zod would say.

Then Zod flew at super-speed and crashed into Kal-el, knocking him through the wall. Zod stood there laughing. “Come on, at least give me a worthwhile fight. Make this interesting Kal-el.”

Kal-el came from below, crashing, through the ceiling of the room below the library. He slammed into Zod with such speed and force, that Zod was knocked through the roof.
Then Kal-el then turned to see if Lana was alright.

She stood there paralyzed. Standing in front of her, no more than ten feet away was Clark. Her Clark. Why was Zod calling him Kal-el? How was it that he could fly? Where did he get those powers?
Clarked smiled at her and asked if she was alright. Then he was gone. He was going after Zod.



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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 16
Part 1


What in the world is going on? Have I gone completely mad? Is this an elaborate nightmare that I will awaken from in the morning. Nothing is making any sense. Lex, my boyfriend, has these incredible powers. He has changed. He treats me like I was a treasure, a trophy. Something he won from Kal-el, the son of Jor-el, who he believes is Clark. Now consider this, Clark, my former boyfriend ( the one who broke up with me, after telling me that he doesn’t love me), apparently is Kal-el. He also has powers. He can fly, has incredible strength and speed, and God knows what else!

Believe it or not, it gets even worse. Now they are both fighting each other. Clark wants to send Zod back to where he came from, but Zod (actually Lex) refuses to go anywhere. So a major battle is now raging. They are both very determined and very strong. We will have to see what happens. I do hope Clark wins, so that I don’t have to sexually submit to Lex ( I mean, Zod ). This is getting confusing. But how did Clark get involved in this? Why does Lex, keep calling him son of Jor-el. Clark on the other hand does acknowledges, that he is the son of this Jor-el. Whoever that is?

One thing for sure, when this is over, Clark and I will have to have a long talk! I also need to know from which costume shop he purchased or rented the outfit he is wearing?
I really do like the cape! It is better than his red jacket. Now that he has the cape, maybe, just maybe, I can get him, to get rid of the jacket. Clark, I mean, Kal-el, looks hot in that outfit! He really does! But what is wrong with me? The battle of the century is happening in front of me and I am here thinking about how hot Clark looks? I need some serious R and R to get my mind back on track. How easy will that be. Just look at what is happening in the world. It’s gone completly crazy!

I wonder, if any of this has to do with, Clarks secret? It’s so hard to understand all that is happening. You know, if this isn’t a dream, then Clark is a very amazing individual. Wait, Kal-el, hmmm...Isn’t, that is the name of the one, the two aliens from that ship, were searching for. SOOOOOO, they were looking for Clark, but why? I wonder if he has similar powers? Yes, Clark and I will definitely be talking soon! We are going to have a long and serious heart to heart. No more secrets. No more lies. I want to know the truth. Clark or is it Kal-el? Just who and what are you?


Outside, the battle is raging on. Clark has just picked up Zod and has thrown him, just like an athlete would throw a discus. Then, Zod has flown back at hit Clark right in the chest at high speed. Now it’s Clarks turn to be thrown, the force of the blow, has knocked Clark back thousands of feet. He wind up in a small building which now crumbles around him. Zod has thrown a tractor at Clark and it crumbles as it hits him. They continually repeat this pattern, for over an hour. As she watched, Lana thought, both of these beings have amazing powers and strength. Just watching this fight, causes me to really appreciate Clark’s great abilities! Was he born this way, or is he a meteor freak? But none of the metor freaks had any of the powers, that Clark has. The battle continues until Clark punches Zod right in the center of his chest. Zod is knocked out. Clark super-speeds over to me He then picked me up and super-speeds me, bed-sheet and all to the fortress. He put me down in front of a blank wall in the back of the fortress, then holds up his hand. A bright beam of light shines on the wall. The wall begins to lift and it reveals, a secret room. One full of strange machines and devices. Once inside the room, the wall comes down again.

All I can say is wow! Clark looks at me and tells me that I am in grave danger. So he brought me here to hide me while the battle continues. “You will be safe in here,” he says.
“So you are Kal-el," I say to Clark with a very serious look on my face. “Yes, I am,” replied Clark. We will talk about this later. They will be here soon and I must prepare. “Clark, why didn’t you tell me this before?” “Lana, I ----well-------- it’s complicated,” he replied with a sad look on his face.

“Clark, look at me,” I said. “Lana, I have to…………." “No Clark this is important to me! Look at me and tell me that you don’t love me. Right now Clark, tell me!"
“Lana, I can’t.” “So, you do love me! It was a lie, wasn’t it. Clark, how could you do this to me?”
“I had to protect you Lana, you see what’s happening around us. If anything ev……." He never got to finish, Lana pulled his head down and held him in a long kiss! A very passionate kiss. One that left Clark’s heart beating fast. Oh………….. did he love this woman!

“I have to go Clark said to her, but you can follow the fight on this video monitor. I will come for you. Do not come out on your own no matter what you see or hear.” “Lana, remember, no matter what happens, I love you!” He walked over to the wall and it opened and then closed behind him.
As he left, he wondered, how did I know about this room and the video monitor. How do I just intuitively know things. It’s as if I also have new knowledge and understanding, in addition to greater strength and power.

As Clark was leaving, Lana was thinking, I knew that he still loved me! I knew it, I knew it, I knew it! She was dancing around in a circle as she said this, over and over. He and I, have a lot to discuss after this is finished. You know, this is weird, but I could swear that I have been in this place before! It all seems so familiar to me. I don’t know when, but I have been here before! Yes Clark, we have a lot to talk about.

Clark waited in the center of the fortress. He didn’t have to wait very long. First Zod and then three Dr. Fine’s showed up. They circled around Clark. He was hopelessly out numbered. Clark smiled and said, “it’s over Zod, you have lost again.” Zod laughed and said, “Kal-el you are as out of touch with reality as your father was. You cannot win, you are out numbered. Now we will end this battle and I will take my place as the ruler of this world. You have lost Kal-el! If only Jor-el could see this. Krypton’s greatest son. What a joke”, Zod laughed again.

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 16
Part 2



Suddenly, Clark floated about ten feet off the ground. Zod laughed. “Is that the best you can do Kal-el?” Then Zod and the three Dr. Fine’s, flew over to where he was and pulled Clark down. Once they has him on the floor of The Fortress, the punched and kicked him over and over. Then as the Dr. Fine’s held him in place, Zod began choking Clark with all of his power.
Lana, who was in the secret room was becoming worried. She thought to herself, Clark, fight, don’t let them beat you. I love you, Clark! I always have and always will! Now, get up and beat them!
Clark was amazed! I just heard Lana. She was telling me that she loves me. She doesn’t want me to lose. How is that possible? Then he heard Zod’s thoughts. The girl must be near here somewhere. Once we kill him she will be mine forever.
All of a sudden, Clark with an amazing display of strength and power, threw off all three of the Dr. Fine’s and Zod as well.
Zod was stunned, “how could you do that? We are all of equal strength. How could you throw all four of us at the same time”?
“I don’t have time to explain it to you General, You have a cube to catch.” As he said this Clark took something off of his wrist. It was the bracelet he has been wearing. It landed a few feet away from Zod and formed a long tunnel. Zod thought , time to super speed away. Clark heard his thoughts.

Then, suddenly, rays shot from Clarks eyes. These were directed at Zod and the three Dr. Fine’s. As these rays touched them, and began to harden. Clark’s enemies, were being trapped with an unknown substance that was coming from the rays. They tried to break free, but could not. Try as they may they could not move. Zod knew that the tunnel was the entry point into, the Phantom Zone. He begged for Kal-el not to send them into the zone, but to no avail. Kal-el knew that earth would not be safe with any of them, on the loose. Looking away from Zod, Clark saw that, the three Dr. Fines were all trapped together. Zod was trapped alone. Another blast from Clarks eyes, sent all three Dr. Fine’s into the Phantom Zone.

Clark then directed his attention to Zod. “It time to go General,” he said. “You don’t want to be late for your trip.” “No, Zod screamed, do not send me back, Please Kal-el. We can be like kings here. To these people we are gods. Kal-el lets rule together!” “Begging does not suite you General," Clark laughed. Then Clark held up his hand and a bright ray was emitted. The ray hit Zod and caused him to shake. He shook and shook until he was completely separated from Lex. Lex, lay on the floor, unconscious, while the spirit of Zod remained trapped in the prison, made from the beams that were emitted from Clarks eyes. Then Clark lifted his hand again. One blast of the beam that emitted from his hand sent Zod into the phantom Zone. Then with another blast from his eyes, the entry into the zone was closed, forever! Clark then placed the small bracelet in a safe place in the Crystal Panel where no one would find. He then breath a sigh of relief.


Lana was overjoyed! She jumped up cheering and dancing, similar to the way she did, when she cheered for her school’s football team years ago. Clark went to the door, which opened as the beam from his hand hit it. Lana, came out and ran over to Clark and hugged him. She kissed him and then looked at Clark. She had a very serious look on her face. “Clark, I have been here before. Tell me about it! Tell me the truth Clark………………….. No more lies!"
Clark looked at her with a stunned expression on his face. “Lana, you can’t possibly remember that you were here. That was the day that never happened. It is impossible for you to have memories about that day! It only happened for me. Therefore only I have memories about that point in time.”

“Don’t patronize me Clark, I was here and I remember that something very special happened here that day! Now Clark, tell me about that day.” “Lana, that was the day you died. I had the day reversed and it never happened for you. Only for me.”

“I want to know about it Clark and I refuse to accept anymore lame excuses or lies,” she replied. All of a sudden, Lex moaned. Clark said, “we have to get him to the mansion before he comes to. He cannot know my secret.” Clark, don’t worry I won’t tell anyone anything, but we have to talk and soon, Lana said looking him directly into his deep blue-green eyes.”

Clark picked them both up and super-sped them to tha mansion. He left Lex on the floor of his bedroom. He smiled at Lana and then disappeared.

Lana smiled and thought to herself. We have much to discuss Kal-el, much to discuss.


I hope you liked it.

More to come later.

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Dealing With the Guilt

Chapter 17


Having left Lana and Lex safely at the mansion, Clark flew far north to see how Martha and Lois were doing. Although it was a secret airbase, he could see it from the sky with his x-ray vision. After landing and presenting himself as Clark Kent, he tried to gain access to the base, but he was refused. He was finally allowed on the secret airbase after Martha and then Lois, explained to General Lane, their dilemma.

But even after General Lane ordered them to give him access, they initially refused. It took a few choice words from General Sam Lane to do the trick. No one wanted the general to come and inspect the base as he threatened to do, after hearing that Clark was not going to be allowed on the base. On hearing that General Lane was going to come down and straighten out the problem, access was granted immediately to Clark.
Before going to the base, Clark had taken off his Superman Suit as he called it and changed into the familiar flannel shirt and blue jeans. He also had his bright red jacket hanging over his shoulder. “Well, where in the world have you been Smallville and how did you know to find us here?” “Lucky guess is all that Clark would say.” Lois then replied, that we have been through such a harrowing experience, that it’s even good to see you Smallville!” She gave Clark a hug as she said it. Clark did appreciate the concern, but not the hug. There was only one individual that he wanted to hug right now and although her initials were LL, it wasn’t Lois Lane and definitely not Lex Luthor.

Martha was next in line for a hug and when she wrapped her arms around Clark’s broad back, she said, “son what has been going on?” “Mom, I will explain it all to you soon, but not now, there are too many ears, here. But the whole thing was unbelievable,” he replied! Martha understood completely. Then a voice came from the other side of the room. Lois, hi it’s me Lieutenant Johnson. Lois smiled pretending to remember him and gave him a hug. Oh, it’s so good to see you again was all that she could say. Then they went to the other side of the room to talk. Clark and Martha, just smiled at each other, watching Lois go off with the Lieutenant. She looked at Clark and said, “well, that our Lois.”

Meanwhile, back at the Mansion, Lex was helped into bed by several of his bodyguards. Lana stood near-by watching. Lana, was wondering what she was going to do? The past few days had proven to be very enlightening. She didn’t know everything that occurred, but she had discovered who Kal-el was finally after all this time. She realized that the aliens from the ship were looking for Clark. Clark, she thought, the man of many secrets. She and Clark has a lot to talk about…………..not only about his secrets, but why was she so sure that she had been to his fortress before? She would learn the truth this time, she would not be denied!

She had been in deep thought, until she finally heard Lex call for her. “Hi sweetheart,” he said, looking at Lana. Lana responded by walking over to the bed. “Get some rest, she said to Lex. You have had a lot happen to you over the past few weeks you need to rest now, go ahead close your eyes and sleep.”

“I hope that I didn’t hurt you, by anything that I may have done. Dr. Fine’s serum took control of me. I only remember bits and pieces. I also remember this tremendous feeling of power, power the likes of which I could never imagine existed.” “Rest Lex,” this time Lana was insisting. She waited by his side until he drifted off into sleep. She went off into the Library after he has fallen to sleep. She had gone there to sit and think about the past few days and the things that had happened, during that time. Most of all she needed time to think about her relationship with Clark, or really their lack of any relationship. The library, like many other rooms of the mansion was now, in a shambles. She picked up a few of his belongings that were scattered, all over the room. What a mess, she thought to herself![/] Bending over to pick up things she began to clean the area around Lex’s desk. She had a lot to think about and she always did this best while, working around her apartment, so working to pick up here would allow her to think, as well as help out Lex.

Picking up his laptop, should thought to herself, who in the world was Zod, how did he know Clark and how did Clark know him? More importantly, why was he so interested in her? She pondered all this and more, as she picked things that had been thrown around Lex’s study.
Putting his laptop on the desk, she saw that it was still plugged in. When it was placed on the desk, it turned on. Lana could see that there were many files on the screen, but she also could see that these were mostly hidden files. These files had different notations on them. One file was labeled, Lana, another Clark, another file was labeled, Dr. Fine. Another carried the label, top secret.

Lana began to wonder, why so many secret files? Why was there one about her and why were there so many there about Clark? Why has Lex always been so interested in Clark? She pondered this question for quite some time and then decided to find out answers.

She noticed that the file about her was open. This file was supposed to be protected by a password, so Lex must have been reviewing this one before Zod took full possession of him. She knew that she should just turn the laptop off, but she was curious to see what Lex considered top secret. Beside, didn’t he promise to be open, truthful and transparent with her, keeping no secrets. He promised that their relationship would be different from the one she had just finished with Clark. No lies, no secrets, Lex promised. While looking through this file, she began to get angry. Not only was Lex investigating Clark, but he was also investigating her. Her eyes opened wider as she continued to read through the files. When she came to the file that showed that Lex had hired Simone to break her and Clark up, Lana was livid! How could he do this to Clark and me? She found a few empty computer discs and downloaded all of this information onto the disc. She then sat in a chair by the window and just stared out of it totally shocked. Lex the one that she had considered to be the open and honest individual He promised, never to lie, to her. He, was not only hiding information from and lying, but he was investigating her. How dare him! Although Clark had his issues and problems, he would never do something like this to anyone. She thought to herself, oh Clark. I have been wrong about you. I have been blind, so foolish and so cruel to you. Clark, wherever you are, please hear me. You are the kindest, most loving and caring individual, in this whole universe! I see that now. I understand you and I realize why you kept secrets from me! Wherever you are Clark hear me. I forgive you and I love you! Clark, please come for me soon. We need to talk! We really do need to talk and soon!

To his amazement, as he was talking to his mother, he heard Lana’s thoughts again and it made him smile. He remembered that they would have to have a long talk …soon! Clark was beginning to realize, that his love for Lana could no longer be denied! He realized that instead of protecting her by lying to her about not loving her and by lying to himself, about this being the right thing to do. He was only hurting both of them and actually, he had inadvertently put her in harms way and had lost her.

It was time for Clark Kent to face his destiny and respond appropriately. Lana was part of his destiny, a part he could no longer hide, or deny. Then, he made a promise to himself………………………… I will talk to Lana……………….. Soon! No longer will I run from my destiny, no never again![/i]

As she sat in that chair, by the window, reviewing her relationship with Lex, Lana thought to herself, [i]what kind of a relationship have I gotten myself into? She had hidden the disc in her purse of course and she waited in the chair by the window for many hours. Toward evening Lex was up and about. He came over to kiss her and inquire about how she was feeling and hoping that she could shed a little light on the events of the past few days. As he felt Lana pull back and tense up. He looked into her eyes and asked, “Lana, what’s wrong”?

“How could you Lex”? “I trusted you”.

More to come…………………soon!!!

[clana-lives-on]

loved the update!!! ppms!

[happycamper]

Wow, a whole lot of chapters to read!

I seriously thought Lana was a bit slow at the start of the fight. It seemed to take her a while to catch on, but fortunately, she finally did...:lol:

So Lana remembers her original day in the FOS and somehow communicates with Clark telepathically. Should be interesting to see how Clark explains it all to her.

Still, did Lana really need to find the computer files to know that Lex was not for her?


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Originally posted by clana-lives-on
loved the update!!! ppms!

All are excellent points. I thought I would let Lana and Clark have special abilities to tie them closer together. I agree, Lana didn't need the computer files to discover Lex is bad news!!! She really has been slow in that regard ( on the show) hopefully she will soon see the light?

I wrote this before the beginning of the sixth season and it doesn't follow the show, but it follows the way I wanted to see things happen.
Thank you for the replies. :)


Originally posted by happycamper
Wow, a whole lot of chapters to read!

I seriously thought Lana was a bit slow at the start of the fight. It seemed to take her a while to catch on, but fortunately, she finally did...:lol:

So Lana remembers her original day in the FOS and somehow communicates with Clark telepathically. Should be interesting to see how Clark explains it all to her.

Still, did Lana really need to find the computer files to know that Lex was not for her?


:D :D

All are excellent points. I thought I would let Lana and Clark have special abilities to tie them closer together. I agree, Lana didn't need the computer files to discover Lex is bad news!!! She really has been slow in that regard ( on the show) hopefully she will soon see the light?

I wrote this before the beginning of the sixth season and it doesn't follow the show, but it follows the way I wanted to see things happen.
Thank you for the replies. :)

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 18





“Well son, all of this has been very exciting, but now, I would really love to go home,” Martha said to Clark. "I understand what you mean mom, I will take you now," Clark said with a smile. "Mom, I rented a car in town, because I flew here. With the rental, rental I can drive all of us back to Kansas and home”. “That sounds good Clark. Lets find Lois, so we can get started as soon as possible. I just can’t wait to get back home,” Martha said, feeling a little homesick.

Both Martha and Clark looked around the dinning facility, but they could not find Lois. They looked through several meeting rooms, they could not find her. After searching in vain for thirty minutes, Clark decided to use his super hearing and x-ray vision.

"That's the way, Carl, yes that feels just great," Lois moaned outloud! Clark heard Lois and followed her voice to a room in the back of the meeting hall. The room was dark. Opening the door and hitting the lights, Clark was surprised to see a half-naked Lois in an intimate embrace with Captain Johnson, who was stripped down to his fruit of the loom, undershorts. Lois’ bra was off and she was down to her purple panties. Lois, realizing that Clark had just walked in on her and the captain, catching them in a very compromising position, became very embarrassed! . Lois, turning completely red screamed, “Smallville, what are you doing snooping around here and how dare you sneak up on me. You are worse than a younger brother. You better get out of here now, she yelled at Clark.” They all began to turned red from embarrassment, especially Lois! She was mortified! Caught in a very compromising position by Clark. She would never live this one down, never. Yes, she had been caught red handed making out, almost naked, by of all people...Smallville. The embarrassment was almost too much for her to handle.

“Don’t worry Lois, I won’t mention this to anyone, I promise. Mom and I want to head back home now, instead of waiting for the air force transport to take us. We will wait for you in the mess hall,” Clark said, almost chuckling. Although he was embarrassed, he was definitely enjoying this at the same time. Lois replied, “Clark why don’t you and Martha go ahead, without me. I am going to spend some time with Captain Johnson here. Later I will take that transport back to Smallville. Tell Martha I will see her later. One more thing…Smallville, if you tell Martha or any other soul, what you have just seen here, I will kill you with my bare hands! Do we understand each other? I can’t hear you …………….Smallville. Answer me now, Smallville, but consider carefully your answer. Remember, I have seen Clark junior and I will tell Martha about that”.

“Lois, that was because you snuck into the shower with me. I didn’t encourage you to do that. That was completely your own doing. I was the one that was embarrassed, but you actually enjoyed it.”
“ Clark, it doesn’t matter who was to blame, Martha will still be upset when she hears about it and you know that,” Lois said with a smile. She was turning this around and now she was going to make Clark squirm a bit. “Lois, that’s a mean and underhanded thing to do,” Clark said, getting a bit angry. “I know Clark, but what are big sisters for anyway. “Believe me Clark, I will do it, you can bank on it”!

Clark couldn’t believe that she would threaten him like that, but knew that she would tell Martha, so he agreed to say nothing about this incident and promised Lois that he would remain silent. “Wise choice Smallville,” Lois laughed. “Now it’s time for you to go. Carl and I are just getting to know each other. Now where is that protection you were talking about Carl, dear? Lois, for the eleventh time, it’s David, remember, David. “Oh whatever, Carl, now where is that protection…I sure hope that it’s ribbed”, Lois replied with a smile.
Clark turned around, hitting the light switch to the off position and closed the door. Walking down the hall, he thought to himself…Lois your hopeless.
Finding Martha, Clark told her that Lois had found an old friend and would stay so they could catch up on old times. “Martha smiled and said, I guess she knows best. Lets go son. Take me home."
Then, they thanked the base commander for the hospitality shown to them during there stay. They even told him that the food was quite good for an air force base. The commander smiled and said, “we had to eat k-rations before, but cookie here has friend in low places, so we get to eat whatever we want now. Besides, cookie, here, was a gourmet chief, before being called into action, by his guard National Guard Unit. “You are very fortunate, Martha said with a smile.”

“ So Senator, you are sure that you won’t wait for the air transport to take you.” Martha, said, “thanks anyway, but we will be fine. Clark is great at long drives”. “O.K.”, the commander said, “it has been an honor having both you and your son visit us. Even if it was unexpectedly, Senator Kent!” Smiling Martha stated. “It has been a pleasure being here with you Commander! Thank you for everything.” Clark thanked the commander and they drove off to Ely, the nearest city. It was also the placed where Clark had rented the car.

After returning the car, Clark led Martha over to a deserted area of the city and changed out of his clothes into his Superman suit. Martha smiled and asked Clark where he picked up the suit? Clark said to her, “from Jor-el.” “From Jor-el” Martha said, not believing her ears? “When did you hear from Jor-el.” Martha asked? “When I was in The Phantom Zone,” Clark replied. “Phantom Zone?” Martha said, to Clark, "What the is The Phantom Zone, Clark?”

“Mom, I can’t tell you right at this moment, but as soon as we get home, I will tell you everything”. Clark could see that this was going to take a lot of explaining. Martha, took Clarks hand and said, “son what did you mean, when you said, after you prevented the Luthorcorp Jet from crashing. You said to me, that Jonathan had said hi and he wanted me to know he loved me?” Clark smiled and said, “I will tell you after we get home.” Martha nodded, “but Clark, speaking of home, just how are we going to get there? You returned the rental car”. “Trust me mom, we are going to fly, but not by the power of a jet, but by the power of the son. Your son!”

“ Clark I don’t think that that is a good idea. Really Clark, that is not possible, besides you are afraid of heights”, she said with a nervous look on her face. “ Son, lets take the train or maybe a bus”. “Trust me mom, we will get there safer and much quicker, my way”, Clark said trying to reassure Martha.
“But Clark, what about your fear of heights?” Martha was starting to worry.

Realizing that he was getting nowhere, Clark picked up Martha and holding her tightly in his arms took to the air. “Mom”, Clark said if you just stop screaming we can both enjoy the trip! “Mom,” Clark said, “trust me I won’t let anything happen to you”. Martha, took Clark’s face in her hand and stared deeply into his eyes. “Son what happened, you are different. I don’t see any fear or worry in your eyes. I do not see the insecurity, that was, at one time there?” “Clark, what is going on”, was all that Martha could say? “Mom, patience. We will be home in a few minutes and I will tell you everything”. Martha thought to herself, I can’t wait to hear this!


More to come…………………..soon.

Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 19



“Lana, what do you mean, how could I and you trusted me? Lana I really don’t know what you are talking about? I can see that you are very upset sweetheart, but I really don’t know why? Tell me what is bothering you, my dear. Whatever it is that’s got you so flustered, I am sure that I can explain and clear up whatever the problem is.”

“Lex, I am sure that you will come up with an explanation. In fact I am really looking forward to hearing this. But, before you begin, let me ask you another question. What was the one thing that I hated most about my relationship with Clark? Tell me Lex, what was it about Clark that I detested more than anything? Tell me Lex!”

“Lana, I know that the thing you hated most about your association with Clark , was the dishonesty. All of the lies, the secrets, his inability to tell you the truth. She hated the lies. To Lana nothing was more critical to her than the truth. She valued truth more than anything. She would not put up with falsehood and deception, never, not from anyone. Not even from Clark. This became a key reason for their ultimate breakup. Lex couldn’t see where this was headed and he started to worry. What was she getting at?
Becoming a little nervous, Lex walked over to the chair where Lana was sitting. She just sat there, staring out of the window. She had a strange expression on her face. It was a mixture of disappointment, betrayal, hurt, despair and most of all anger. Not knowing what else to do, Lex took her hand and held it in his. “Lana, what is it? What is wrong? Why are you so upset? Is it something that I did when I was possessed by Zod?”

“No, Zod has nothing to do with this. Lex, I want to know, why are you so obsessed with Clark?”

“What,” asked Lex, totally surprised by the question. This was the last thing he expected her to bring up. “Obsessed, me. No, I am not obsessed with Clark. Why do you ask?”

“Because you are obsessed with Clark! Lex, everyone can see it. Why , what’s the big attraction to Clark? What is it about him that drives you to do everything in your power to study him”? Lana continues to stare out of the window, as she said this.

“You are wrong, I am not obsessed with Clark. I really have no interest in him. No interest at all. Actually, Clark means nothing to me!”

“Nothing,” questioned Lana? You could hear the disbelief in her voice.

“That’s right Lana,” Lex replied, “nothing.” Clark Kent means absolutely nothing to me! Now, tell me, what is going on. What is it that has my little muffins feathers all ruffled today?”

“Never mind Lex,” Lana retorted, “but answer this question for me,” Lana was getting angrier by the minute. She knew that if she didn’t soon change the subject, that she would explode. “Lex, what were you looking to find out, about me, when you had me followed? What kind of information were you hoping to discover Lex? Tell me now!
I really want to know,”

Now, Lex was really starting to worry! He even began to stutter. “Lana ar----- ar----- are you serious? Have you followed, Lana, I would never have you followed. Why would you say that?”

“Lex, I have had enough of this. I thought that, flannel boy, was one of a kind, but you are just as bad as Clark, no Lex, you are even worse than he is.” I sense that the reasons for his dishonesty were at least honorable, but your reasons are completely dishonorable!”

“One last question Lex. Why would you hire someone to break us up? I am referring to Clark and myself, not you and I.”

“What, Lana, me hire someone to break you and Clark up? I would never do that. You and Clark are my friends. There is no way that I would ever try to hurt either one of you. Lana it’s true, I wouldn’t”. Then, Lana stood up abruptly and walked over to Lex’s desk. She called Lex over and had him sit down at his desk. Not exactly sure of where she was going with this, he tried to play innocent. “O.K. sweetheart. What do you want me to do next?”

“Just bring up your computer desktop, Lex”. When he had done this, she had him click on my 'computer icon' and then had him pull up his 'document files'. Lex actually shuttered when, he did this. He could see that several of his secret password protected files had been opened. He could only pray that she had not seen any of these.

“Now, Lana commanded! Open the one marked Clark Kent…Lana don’t you believe me. I promise you, that I am not investigating Clark,” “Open it Lex. Open it now.” Lana pointed out the ones that she had seen that had to do with Clark. She made him review each document with her. Lana was not only presenting her case, better then F. Lee Bailey, but she was actually proving her point rather well. Without any shadow of a doubt! Lex was getting nervous. Beads of Perspiration were starting to form on his forehead.

“Now Lex, open the one with my name on it. Her anger had increased and you could feel her getting angrier by the minute.”

“Lana, Lex exclaimed, what has gotten into you? Why do you want me to do this?”

“Just do it Lex and I am the one asking the questions right now, not you. Click on the file named Simone.” Lex hesitated. “Lana, lets stop this and lets go for a drive and just talk. I can explain things to you.”

But Lana was long past any chance of explanations. “Click on the file marked Simone’ Lex. Do it now. No more excuses or procrastinations, just do it”! As the file opened, there it was, all the documentation about Lex hiring Simone’ to hypnotize Clark and get him into a compromising position. Once that was accomplished, Simone’ was to have Clark call Lana in to see them together. All of the rest of the information was there as well. The e-mail conversations between Lex and Simone’, everything, including the fifty thousand dollars he paid her.

“Was it worth it Lex, Lana asked?” You could not only feel, but hear the venom in her voice. If Lana didn’t control her anger, maybe Isobel would make an appearance and kill Alexander ( Lex ). That thought quickly entered her mind, but Lana was determined to deal with this on her own. She didn’t need Isobel. She was not a helpless female, like so many had pictured her.

“Lana, I don’t know what to say,” Lex replied. His head hanging down, he was totally defeated.

“Lex, I want you to know that it’s over between us………………… do you understand…over. There is nothing left between us Lex, nothing! How could you be so underhanded? How could you be so dishonest with me? I thought that Clark held secrets, but he is a novice, compared to you! To think that I loved you Lex. I was ready to actually, share your bed with you and take our relationship to a higher level. But now,…………………………………..We are truly finished. You know Lex, I really am not as angry at you as I should be, but instead, I really feel sorry for you. I really do!
I will send someone for my things. Don’t worry Lex, there will never be another opportunity for you and I. Never again! We are truly finished Lex! Forever!
Having said that Lana proceeded to walk down the steps and out of the mansion. Never to return there again!

Lana thought to herself as she was leaving the mansion, I wonder if Clark will accept me back into his life? Especially after all the hurt I caused him? I will just have to wait and see. We certainly have a lot to discuss. But as she pondered this, a thought came to her that made her smile. She recalled Clark’s answer to the question she posed to him at the fortress…………………………….”I love you Lana. I have never stopped loving you”. She held onto that thought with all of her might!


Let me know what you think.

More to come, soon.

[clana-lives-on]

that was ....AWESOME!!!! i loved it. finally lex is put in his place. ppms!!

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 20



“Mom, we’re here. You can open your eyes now, we are on the ground. Mom, we are home.” “Clark, I am so sorry. It’s not that I don’t trust your flying, it’s that I have never flown like this before, never. It will take me some time to get used to this.” Martha said still trying to gather her senses after the flight. “Let’s go into the house mom. We have a lot to talk about.” Clark said with a smile.

Once inside Clark quickly changed into his farm clothes. The Superman suit was special and would be used whenever he had to save someone, or when he has to perform a special task, but he would wear his normal clothes at other times. Superman was to be completely separate from Clark. Clark was Superman’s secret identity.

Martha was sitting at the kitchen table waiting for her son to finish changing. When he came downstairs, he went into the kitchen and grabbed a piece of chicken, a piece of apple pie and a large glass of milk. Clark had no idea, how long it had been since he had eaten? Martha was patiently waiting to hear all that had happened. She thought, whatever had occurred, had made a definite change in Clark. He was not the same young man that he was one week ago. He was somehow different. Martha couldn’t put her finger on it, but Clark was somehow, more mature, more confident and not as insecure as he had been before all the craziness of last week, had hit the earth.
Martha had always been proud of Clark, but she was more so now, than ever before. He had become quite a man over this past week. After he finished eating, she and Clark went into living room, so Clark could tell what had happened.

Following Martha into the living room, Clark sat down, looking at his mother who was patiently waiting. Clark was trying to determine, how and where he would start. Finally with a smile on his face he said, “ Mom I an almost at a loss, not knowing exactly where to begin? You know that things between Lana and I haven’t been going very well. In fact, things have been getting worse and worse, between us for the past six months.”

“We broke up, after I realized that everything I did caused her pain. She was becoming upset because, I refused to tell her my secrets. But it was the day she died, that sealed it forever. I realized that I just couldn’t take the chance of telling her and seeing her get hurt. After her death, I managed to get Jor-el to reverse time. But when we met the second time that day, I just couldn’t tell her. Mom, I just couldn’t take the chance of losing her again. So instead of telling Lana my secret as I had planned to do, I made up some lame excuse not to. I will never forget the hurt look in her eyes, when she realized that I was not going to tell her. She left saying that we needed a break from each other. After that things were never the same between us. It seemed that we drifted further apart every time we met. Finally after the Simone’ fiasco, I felt it was time to let Lana move on, so that I would not continue to hurt her. I broke it off telling her I just didn’t love her anymore. Of course, nothing could be further from the truth, but I was able to convince her that I no longer loved her. What occurred next, mom, I never expected even in my worst nightmares. How could I have guessed that she would begin seeing Lex Luthor. Mom, I have tried to warn her about him, but whenever I tell her anything, it seemed like they would just get closer and closer. I thought my heart would burst the day I saw them kissing. I couldn’t believe my eyes and the pain… I felt then was similar to what I feel, when I am exposed to Green Kryptonite. The next thing that I knew, she began staying at the mansion. Staying with Lex mom, Lex. It’s horrible. The day that she died, I remember her asking me”, “Clark, what could be worst than losing the one that you love”. “Well, I can answer that with one hundred percent certainty…Nothing! There is absolutely nothing worse then losing the one you love, nothing!” Martha looked over at her son and seeing the pain on his face.

Martha got up at that point and went over to hug Clark. She held him in a tight hug, rocking him gently back and forth. Just the way she did when he was troubled as a child. Clark had tears streaming down his face as he told his mother about losing the girl of his dreams, the love of his life to a man, the likes of Lex Luthor. “Clark, Clark, Clark”, she said over and over. “There is no way that you could have known that this was going to happen. It’s a shame that Lana is with Lex, but she is a grown woman and is totally capable of making her own decisions, no matter how bad they are. Take it easy son, things have a way of working out, they really do. There is no telling what tomorrow will bring.” “Know this son, Lana is level headed and that she won’t do anything that would hurt herself.”

“I don’t know about that mom.” Clark said, with sadness all over his face, “there has been talk of engagement and marriage. Mom, I don’t know how I will survive without her. I can’t even consider her marrying Lex.” “Clark, I don’t believe that Lana will ever marry Lex, she is still in love with you.” “I am not so sure that she is mom and if she is in love with me she sure has a strange way of showing it.” “Clark, things can be difficult when a woman who is in love, has been hurt, by her lover, but, remember. Things have a way of working out. Just trust me, call it ,woman’s intuition, but something tells me, that You and Lana will be back together soon!”

“Now let me know, what else has been going on? “Well, you remember me discussing Dr. Fine, the Kryptonian robot with artificial intelligence. He tricked me into releasing, ‘ Zod’, Krypton’s, most brutal criminal from, The Phantom Zone. Dr. Fine also unleashed a super computer virus which shut down the computers all over the world. I really don’t know how the effects of the virus were stopped and in fact reversed. Zod, has taken possession of Lex’s body. He trapped me in an inescapable prison that my dad, Jor-el designed. It’s called, ‘The Phantom Zone.’ It’s a horrible place from which there is no escape.”

“Son, Martha asked if it is inescapable, then how did you manage to get out?” “Mom, that where things began to get very interesting”, Clark replied.

More to come soon!!!

Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 21


“Mom, everything happened so fast. When I wouldn’t kill the vessel ( Lex) , I inadvertently, opened the way for Zod to escape from The Phantom Zone. Zod then trapped me in the phantom Zone. I was able to be trapped, mainly because, I refused to fight. You see, mom, all of the things that I had been through; the loss of Lana, dad’s death, Lex winning Lana’s heart, were a very heavy load. A load that I couldn’t bear to carry in spite of all my strength and power. Because of that and all the guilt that came with it …I let Zod trap me Mom, for the first time in my life, I just gave up. I refused to fight anymore. I saw the Phantom zone as a way of escaping all my problems. With all of the hurt that I caused everyone, I felt that it would be the best place for me. At least I couldn’t hurt anyone else, while I was in there. So I practically jumped into The Phantom Zone my own.”

“For a brief period of time, I actually enjoyed it. It was quite and peaceful. I drifted through space, completely oblivious to everyone and everything, but then the torment of my own thoughts, the mistakes that I have made down through the years, the memory of all of the ones that I have hurt. They all came to me. I couldn’t escape their torment. They were played over and over again, in my mind. Then the thoughts became voices and the voices became visions. I began to see you, dad, Lana, Chloe, Pete, Alicia, Lana’s parents, all the meteor freaks, everyone. They all began to scream at me. They blamed me for everything that had happened to them. The ones that were dead or had lost love ones because of me, yelled at me that they wish I’d have never been born. Other said that they wished that I had never come to this planet. They all called me a big, dumb, alien. The voices became louder and louder, until I couldn’t take it any longer and screamed leave me alone!”

“Really mom, I couldn’t take it anymore, I was about to go insane and then, I saw a bright light in the area where I was trapped. The light became brighter and brighter. I became frightened. More frightened than I had been in my whole life. More frightened than when I first learned about my super-speed. Do you remember that time when, I was playing with dad and I started running faster than I had ever run before. Remember how I disappeared from your sight. When I finally slowed down, I was 20 miles away, completely lost and you had to call in the sheriff and his deputies to come find me.”

“I was so frightened that I was crying uncontrollably. I have never forgotten what you told me that day. It helped me. You told me that I was special! You said that there was nothing wrong with me. You said I could do those things because I was special! That not only helped me when I was four, but it also helped me a few days ago when I was trapped in the Phantom Zone”. Just knowing that you felt that I was special and not a freak, made a difference to me.”

“Now, getting back to the light, as I wondered what was coming from that light, I looked up feeling very badly and lo and behold …it was dad! I was never so happy to see him. I had no idea how he had gotten there. I was so glad to see him. We talked for such a long time. He spoke to me of the things that had happened and told me that I was not to blame. He reviewed with me times in my past when things didn’t workout right. He showed that I was not to blame for the bad things that occurred. He even told me that I was not responsible for his death, but that it was just his time. So much was said, so much he explained to me. As dad spoke I began to realize, that the things that had occurred were, really not my fault. It was like being washed clean in a cool refreshing mountain stream. I felt so clean. So I wasn’t responsible. I wasn’t the cause of all that hurt and pain. The things that had happened were not my doing.”

“After he had explained all of this to me he left. But not before giving a huge Jonathan Kent hug and telling me that he couldn’t love me any more, even if I were his true biological son. He also told me to tell you he loved you and missed you, mom!”

“Clark, how could that have been possible, how could your dad appear to you as you are floating through space, especially when he’s dead.” “I don’t know mom, all that I know is that it was dad. After he was gone, I realized that I needed to get back to earth to stop Zod. But there was no way out of The Phantom Zone, or at least, that’s what I thought.”

“The next thing I knew another light appeared in the prison. I couldn’t believe what happened next. The person who exited the light was someone who looked exactly like me, but he was maybe twenty years older than me. He was slightly grey, but very distinguished looking. Mom, it was Jor-el. I backed away from him and told him to leave me alone. I called Jor-el a monster and told him that there was no place for him in my life. Mom, he apologized to me for being so rough on me, told me that my humanity was not a weakness as he had thought, but that it was a strength. As he spoke, I realize that he only wanted the very best for me. I saw him as the man he really was, a loving father, who only wanted the best for his son. I began to see why he was so hard on me.”

“But, just when I thought that all the surprises, were done, another person came out of no-where. It was Lara, my Kryptonian mother. She was beautiful mom, even more beautiful than Lana, if that is possible. She told me that she loved me, missed raising me and said how happy she was that you and Jonathan had found me and became my parents. All three encouraged me not to give up, but to face adversity with a sense of honor. The honor of facing every problem with something instilled in me from each of you. If I kept that in mind, than I could never suffer defeat! Right after that Jor-el told me that I had to come back and save everyone from Zod himself, but not before giving me the family colors. Actually, I call it my Superman Suit.”

“After experiencing all of that, mom, I knew that I could never give up, but had to face my problems and overcome them! I realized that hiding from your problems was not the answer. So here I am, but I also realized that there is no separation in me. Clark Kent is Kal-el. Kal-el is Clark Kent. That the alien and I are one and the same. With that understanding, the inner turmoil stopped forever and finally I am at peace!”
Then I came to find and defeat Zod. Suddenly, Clark and Martha, heard the refrigerator door close. Then a voice said, “Clark, do you always have to eat all of your mother’s fried chicken?” Clark and Martha ran into the kitchen. Waiting there was no one other than Jonathan Kent, wearing the biggest grin they had ever seen.

More coming soon!

[happycamper]

I'm sorry that Martha didn't enjoy the flying a little more. ;)

This Clark seems a lot more confident about everything - enough to make Martha proud - except that he is still insecure about Lana. Well. I guess we can't have everything change. ;)

Lana seems a bit insecure, too, but more confident now that she knows what she wants, and because of what she knows Clark still wants...:lol:

Now if they can only have a chance to talk!


:D :D

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Originally posted by happycamper
I'm sorry that Martha didn't enjoy the flying a little more. ;)

This Clark seems a lot more confident about everything - enough to make Martha proud - except that he is still insecure about Lana. Well. I guess we can't have everything change. ;)

Lana seems a bit insecure, too, but more confident now that she knows what she wants, and because of what she knows Clark still wants...:lol:

Now if they can only have a chance to talk!


:D :D

Their chance to talk is coming within the next few chapters. There will be an interesting twist however.
I am glad that you are enjoying the story.:)

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 22


“Who are you and what are you doing in our house,” Clark said, beginning to take a defensive stance? “Well I have always heard people say out of sight, out of mind, but I didn’t think that you would forget your old man so soon Clark. Take a good look at me and then, you tell me who I am.”


“Oh my God, it can’t be ……………………………………….. Jonathan………………… Jonathan, can it be, is that you?” Martha ran over to Jonathan…………….almost as fast as she would have, if she possessed super-speed! She wrapped her arms around Jonathan and squeezed him with all of her might! Tears were running down Martha’s face. “Sweetheart is it really you……………… is it really you?”

“Yes Martha my love it’s really me. Oh you feel and smell so good! It’s so nice to hold you in my arms again! Oh, I love you so much, so much.” “Don’t move Martha. Stay right where you are. All I want to do for the rest of my life is hold you like this my dear. Martha I have missed you so much, so much! Just let me look at you. I love you more than the day we first met down at Mr. Parson’s Mill. Do you remember what I told you that day?” Blushing a little, Martha replied, “ You told me that you were the one”…….. “That would make you life complete and your dreams come true,” Jonathan finished for her. “Oh my God Martha shouted! Jonathan, it really is you!” “Yes Martha, it really is me and I am so happy to see you!” Jonathan kissed Martha as he said it. It was a deep and passionate kiss and Martha responded completely.

Clark, in the meantime was turning slightly red from embarrassment. He had never seen his parents carry on like this before. At least not in front of him. Wait, did he say his parents? Clark was not sure who this man was, but he had Martha convinced that it was her husband. Tapping him on the shoulder and interrupting the kiss, Clark asked the man again, “Who are you?” Jonathan flashed that million dollar Kent smile and said to Clark, “don’t you recognize your old man Clark or did The Phantom Zone make you forget?”

“How do you know about The Phantom Zone Clark asked, somewhat surprised?” “I was their, with you, Jor-el and your mother, Lara. Don’t you remember or did you battle with Zod, give you amnesia?”
“What,” Clark asked with a look of shock on his face. “Jor-el, Lara………….. dad is that really you?” “Yes son, it’s really me!” As Jonathan said that, he gave Clark the famous Kent bear hug. Realizing that this really was his earthly father, Clark picked him up and circled around and around the kitchen with him several times before running off into the fields with him. Clark was overwhelmed and at the same time, filled with joy and excitement! When he finally stopped, after bringing Jonathan back into the kitchen, Clark asked, “dad how is this even possible. How is it that you are here?”
“Well, after you were freed from The Phantom Zone and flew earthward, Jor-el and I got to talking. He felt bad, because of the way that he regarded humanity and the disrespect that he had shown to us. After apologizing, he turned and said maybe there is a way that I can repay the kindness you have shown Kal-el, for so many years. He then interrupted the space-time-********* and he brought me to an alternate past and future.”
“One where there was no damage to my heart, for allowing him to use this vessel to bring you home from Metropolis several years ago. He brought me to a future, where there was no price to pay for your resurrection, Clark. He used Zod’s spirit and the three Dr Fine’s as substitutes.”
“After that there was a bright flash of a blue light and then I was here. Standing in our kitchen. I don’t understand exactly how Jor-el did it son, but I am home!”
“He then told me, that he had taken care of everything. To everyone on this planet I never died. Sweetheart isn’t that wonderful he said hugging both Martha and Clark! Kissing Martha, he said, sweetheart, how about you fixing me some of you extra special fried chicken. After that, let’s go watch the sunset from the loft. Then let’s watch the moon rise. Martha, my dear, we have a lot of catching up to do.” As Jonathan said this, he gave Martha a kiss so passionate, that Clark had to go out to sit on the porch. It was wonderful seeing his father alive. He was happy to see then with each other, again. However, watching your parent’s make out was a little more than he could handle.

Sitting on the porch glider Clark reflected over the happenings of the past week. So much had occurred so quickly. It almost left his head spinning. The highlights were learning from Jonathan that he was not responsible for his death, finally understanding Jor-el and meeting Lara! Knowing that Lana loved him was also a major highlight! Speaking of Lana, Clark knew that they would have to talk soon. Possibly later today.

[clana-lives-on]

jonathan's back!!! that was a great update. can't wait for more!!

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 23

Thirty minutes had past and Clark was no longer sitting on the porch swing. He was now pacing back and forth. There was just so much to think about. Although he was more confident, mature and now had an understanding about the direction his life should take. He had lived a lifetime of feelings and emotions in just a few short days. He was at peace with his heritage. He knew who he was and now accepted his destiny. No more insecurity, fear, shame or hurt, because he was different. Finally after all these years Clark Kent and Kal-el were at peace. He was neither Clark nor Kal-el, he was both. A mixture of the two. Clark Kent, human, but at the same time an alien. Yes, his internal struggle was over. Would others accept him? Of course, he hoped they would, but if they didn’t, he would continue anyway. He possessed a new found confidence and he was not going to let it go.

He realized that he was happy. Thinking back, he couldn’t recall the last time he felt this way. But in spite of the peace and happiness, there was an empty feeling within him. Something was missing. Clark knew that he was whole, but he was not complete. The love of his life wasn’t there. As far as he knew she was with another. He recalled how he pushed her away, for her own safety. He had made the ultimate sacrifice in letting her go. By doing that not only was his heart torn to pieces, but he lost her to his enemy. She was the love of his life. The girl of his dreams, but she was gone. Much to his shock and dismay, she had moved in with Lex. By protecting her, he lost her completely. How ironic. How sad! Now with everything going right in his life, he thought of her. Clark realized, more than he ever had before, just how much he missed her. More then that, he understood, how much he loved her and how empty he felt without her. He wanted to call her, talk things over. She did tell him that she loved him, but even so, he couldn’t be sure. Was she saying it out of gratitude, because he rescued her or did she mean it? He didn’t really know and even with his new found maturity and confidence he couldn’t bring himself to call her. What was he going to say to Lana? Just how was she going to react? But somewhere deep down inside, Clark knew that he couldn’t wait any longer. He had to see her, talk with her. Tell her the things he wanted had wanted to share with her for years, but couldn’t. As he paced there on the Kent porch and wondered, his heart began to sink.

Lana was in her dorm room at Metropolis U. She pressed the call button on her cell phone once again. It rang six times before going to voice mail. She listened to the message for the tenth time, she knew it by heart. “Hi this is Clark I am not able to answer your call…………………..” “Clark, pick up please, just pick up.” As his pacing continued, Clark wondered, what about Lex? Lana had been seeing him for months, ever since our break-up. How does she feel about him? Does she love him as much as I love her? When she said she loved me, was it because I saved her from Zod?
He was still deep in thought, when a yellow, Volkswagen drove up. Clark didn’t hear it. He remained deep in thought, until he felt a hand on his shoulder. “Earth to Clark,” He turned and was face to face with Chloe. “Oh my God, Clark, I am so happy to see you,” she said! Are you alright? How did you get out of The Phantom zone?”

After explaining to Chloe all that happened, she smiled at him and said, “Clark, I met Jor-el! He saved me from an angry, mob, took me to your Fortress, made a computer program that counteracted the virus that shut down everything and took me to the Daily Planet. He told me to use the program to eridicate the virus and it worked Clark, it worked. Before leaving, he told me that he was wrong about all of us. He said that you were fortunate to have us as friends. He asked us to stay by you side, because he realized, for the first time, just how important friendship was to you. He thanked me for always standing with you. Yes, Jor-el said that he was very wrong about humanity.” Chloe continued to explain everything that happened. When she finally finished, she noticed a sad look in his eyes. Her eyes widened and she said, “Clark, why are you moping around alone on this porch? Why aren’t you with Lana?”

“Chloe, in case all this excitement caused you to forget, Lana is Lex’s girl now. She is at the mansion with her man. There isn’t much I can do about that.” Chloe’s eyes got even wider, “Clark, what are you talking about? Haven’t you talked to Lana today?”
“No I haven’t he replied. Why would she call me?”
“Where is your cell phone, she asked?” “I am not really sure, it might be in the loft, why,” he replied? “Clark, she called me several hours ago. She wanted to know where you were?” “Clark, she left Lex. She needs to talk to you!”
“What? Are you sure Chloe?” “Just find your cell phone she replied.”

Totally frustrated, Lana sat on the curb behind her dorm. “Clark, where are you? I love you! Please find me, I am at the dorm. Clark please hurry!” Chloe noticed the strange look on his face. She became nervous and asked, “Clark, what’s wrong?” I’m not sure Chloe, but I think I just heard Lana voice, begging me to come find her? It said she was at the dorm and to hurry.” “Well don’t just stand there Clark, go!” Chloe felt a breeze and realized he was gone. “Go get her tiger and this time, don’t let her go!”

Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 24

Clark decided to run instead of flying to Metropolis. He was ecstatic by what Chloe had said, that Lana had left Lex and wanted to talk to him. He wasn’t sure about what had happened between them, but he was so excited about her leaving him, that he just had to run! Flying wouldn’t do. He was running much faster than he had ever run before. It seemed that he had developed several new abilities, since he escaped from the Phantom Zone. He was stronger, faster and he was able to separate Zod from Lex, by a beam that was emitted from his hand. Clark had even developed the ability to move things, as he had done to Zod, causing him to be propelled against a wall at the mansion and in to The Phantom Zone. But what intrigued him the most was this ability to hear Lana’s thoughts from time to time especially when she was having an extreme emotional state. Clark wasn’t really sure what was happening, but he saw the potential for some very interesting possibilities. Well, he would consider that later, now he had important things to discuss with Lana!


Lana continued to sit behind the dorm. She hoped that somehow Clark would get the message and come to see her. She decided to wait for twenty minutes longer, if he didn’t show up by then, she was going to the Kent Farm to find him! She had to talk to him. There was so much that needed to be discussed. So much had happened between them that didn’t make sense. Lana needed some explanations. She especially wanted to know how she recognized the Fortress and why she realized that she had been there before?

All of a sudden there was a whoosh of air all around her. She looked in front of her and saw Clark standing there. “Hey,” Clark said.
“Hey,” she replied, “I’ve missed you!”
“Lana,” he said I am very sorry to be getting here so late, but I just found out from Chloe, that you were looking for me.”
“We need to talk Clark,” she replied. “We have needed to have this talk for quite some time!”

“You are right, Lana, we do need to talk. Where do you want me to start, you see it’s a very long story.”

Lana looked at Clark, realizing that after all of the years of being lied to, she was finally going to hear the truth from Clark.

“Before you start to explain anything, I want to know, do you love me?” No more lies Clark, I want the truth or I will never speak to you again.”

‘Lana”……..

“Just tell me the truth, Clark!”


As he looked into the hazel eyes of the most beautiful woman he had ever met on this planet, he thought to himself, I never want to be without her again, not for even one day! “Yes, he said, I love you with all of my heart! I have never loved anyone else, it has always been you. I know that I never will love anyone else, ever!”

Lana smiled; she had wanted to hear those words from Clark for a long, long, time. “I want you to know that I love you too, Clark. I always have,” Lana replied.

“O.K. now that we have settled that, who are you Clark? What are you? You did some pretty amazing things at that ice palace. I think you referred to it as your “Fortress of solitude, didn’t you?”

“Lana, how do you know that? How could you possibly know that I call it my Fortress? I never told you that.”

“Clark, I thought that you were going to be truthful with me, from now on? You did tell me. You told me that the day you claim never happened. The day you took me there and proposed to me!”

“Lana, that day never happened, how could you possibly know any of that?”

“That day happened Clark. I dream about it every night. I have had that same wonderful dream every night for the past four months, since our break-up. I want you to tell me about it. What really happened that day, Clark or should I say Kal-el? Why did Zod call you Kal-el?”

‘Lana, I really don’t know where to start. There is so much to tell you. Why don’t we start by going back to that day and how it all began?”

After he said that, Clark picked up Lana. Holding her tightly in his arms he gently pushed off and was several hundred feet off the ground in seconds. In a few minutes, they were in the loft.

“Lana the day you are remembering never happened. It never happened to you, because I had to have time reversed. Lana that day was both the happiest and at the same time, the saddest day of my life. It was the day; you agreed to be my wife and the day that you died.”

Looking directly into his deep green-blue eyes she could see the pain he was experiencing, just remembering that day. Tears were beginning to fall. The man that had so many abilities, power was totally distraught because of these memories.

“It’s ok Clark, please tell me. I need to know, I want to know!”

“Lana do you remember, our mystery date. When I told you to come dressed warmly?”

“I remember clearly Clark, you backed out of telling me anything that day, I remember telling you that we needed a break from each other. That if you didn’t tell me what I needed to know that we would ultimately break-up. Yes, I remember that day, very well.’

“Lana, do you remember what you asked me that day?”
“Yes, I do Clark. I asked you, what could be worst than losing the one you loved?”

“I responded truthfully, Lana”………

“Your response was nothing! I stood there for quite some time, hoping that you were going to say more Clark, but you didn’t. So I left. Clark I cried, all the way home that day. I cried everyday since then. I cry myself to sleep every night!”
“Clark, I saw the pain in your eyes. Why wouldn’t you tell me what had happened? I wanted to help take away that pain. Why wouldn’t you let me ease or remove it. Why didn’t you tell me what happened that day?”

“It was too painful! It is still today, too painful Lana. I couldn’t tell you.”

“Was it more painful than losing me to Lex?”

“That day, I lost you twice, Lana.”

“What are you talking about Clark? You lost me once.”

“There is more to that day than you could know, Lana. I did lose you twice. Come with me, I will show you what happened that day.”

Holding her in his arms, he ran with Lana to the cave. Clark took Lana, to a special room, in the back of the cave. “Lana, with a surprised look on her face, remarked, Clark, I don’t remember this room being here.”

“It was left here for me,” he replied.

Not knowing what to make of that remark, she could only smile and think how can that be?

Leading her to a table in the midst of the room, he put an octanglular disc into a slot in the table. Suddenly a bright light began to shine.

Becoming a little frightened she looked at Clark, who reached out his hand and asked Lana, “Do you trust me?”
She nodded yes and took his hand in hers. She smiled at Clark and looked back at the light.

[happycamper]

Originally posted by escout
I am glad that you are enjoying the story.:) I'm enjoying it very much! :)

I am wondering, though, why you've brought Jonathan back. While it is nice for Martha and Clark, I can't figure out what the return will mean to the story. :confused: (Other than to make Lana feel less guilty, maybe?)

So Lana only remembers the first part of the day, and only as a happy dream. How is Clark going to break the news of what happened, and how is she going to react to his sacrifice?

Can't wait to find out. :)


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Originally posted by happycamper
I'm enjoying it very much! :)

I am wondering, though, why you've brought Jonathan back. While it is nice for Martha and Clark, I can't figure out what the return will mean to the story. :confused: (Other than to make Lana feel less guilty, maybe?)

So Lana only remembers the first part of the day, and only as a happy dream. How is Clark going to break the news of what happened, and how is she going to react to his sacrifice?

Can't wait to find out. :)


:D :D


I am sorry that I couldn't get back to you sooner. I brought Jonathan back to basically set things right. Although Jonathan of the mythos dies when Clark is a young adult; I didn't like the way it was done on the show. Too much guilt for both Clark and Lana,
so in my reality he lives again.

Lana's dream of the day that never happened. It is my way of helping clark to fess up to what happened and the fact that he really does love Lana. My no nonsence Lana isn't going to settle for Lame excuses from Clark.

Thank you for reading and replying. :)

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 25


Lana didn’t understand what was starting to happen. The lights, the wind the whirling noises were beginning to frightened her, but she was with Clark. She trusted him more than anyone else in the world. She turned to Clark, smiled at him and gave his hand a soft squeeze. After all this time and all that they had been through, she realized that she loved this man. She understood that nothing would be able to change that.

Suddenly, everything stopped. The lights disappeared, the wind and the whirling noises all ceased. Lana looked around and smiled at Clark. She was back in that beautiful ice palace again. It was exactly as she had seen it in her dreams. Clark kind of half-grinned at her, looking slightly nervous. She has been through so much these past few days, I wonder if she can handle all that I am about to share with her? What if she rejects me, this time? Clark had so much to share with Lana he really did not know where to begin. He quickly ran over to spot in the fortress where winter clothes were kept for such an occasion. He super-sped back to Lana and asked her to put them on.

Smiling at Clark, she said, "I have been her with you before haven’t I Clark? He could only respond. “Yes, you have.”
Lana quickly asked, “It wasn’t the last time when you brought me her to save me from Zod, was it?”

Correct again, he was getting a little more nervous. Exactly what did she remember? Did she remember the proposal? Does she remember what she said? What if she says no this time? My life has been so complicated……. I would understand if she never wanted to be a part of it again. It would hurt very much, but I would understand.

“Clark, I am waiting and thank you for the warm clothing. They are just my size.” “Well, I memorized your clothing sizes some time ago. I thought I should if I ever, wanted to buy you something special, you know like for a birthday, Valentines Day or Mother’s Day.” Mother’s Day, why did I say that? “Well forget Mother’s Clark. I don’t plan on being one anytime soon, especially after what almost happen with Zod. By the way, thank you for saving me. Now tell me Clark, when I was here before?”

“You have been here with me before the time I hid you from Zod. Do you remember the day I had you come over for the mystery trip? That was the day that I brought you here and told you everything about me.”

“Tell me again, I only know what I have been dreaming about and it’s extremely fragmented, but judging from what I have seen you do the past few days. I bet its one heck of a story!”

“Yes, Lana it is an amazing story and at times I really don’t believe it myself. Well, here it goes.” She was sitting on an ice block chair, looking directly at Clark, listening intently.
I am not from planet Earth. I was born on a planet called, Krypton. I was sent here eighteen years ago in a spaceship. Krypton was destroyed by Zod. My father, whose name is Jor-el, tried to prevent the destruction of the planet. When he realized that nothing was going to be able to stop the destruction, it was too late to save the family. He was able to save only one person. I was that person. He placed into a small spaceship and sent here. My arrival was not without a great deal of sadness. Suddenly, he stopped, wiped a few tears from his eyes and then looked down at his feet. Lana, realizing whatever he was going to share was very important, but at the same time, very painful for Clark. She went over to him and took his hand. With her other hand, she lifted his face causing him to look directly into her eyes.

“What is it Clark?” She could see pain and fear in his eyes, as she gazed into them. What could cause such an incredibly powerful individual to have such painful memories and to be so hesitant to talk about them? Hugging him she said, “Clark, it’s alright. Whatever it is that you are about to say, it ok.”

“Please don’t hate me Lana, please. If I could change it all I certainly would. I should have died on Krypton, like everyone else.” “Clark, just tell me, please.”
I came in the meteor shower. The meteors hid my arrival on this planet, but they also caused serious damage as well.” There were people that lost everything because of the meteors, present company included.”
Lana understood what he was saying. It was the meteor shower that killed her parents. She could see that, Clark was frightened not knowing how she was going to handle that bit of information. Looking back into his eyes, she could see, that he was wondering what her response was going to be. Poor Clark, for so long he has hidden this information from her, not knowing exactly how she was going to respond?
“It’s ok, it wasn’t your fault. Clark, you were just a child. You didn’t plan it. I don’t want you to feel guilty about it at all. Do you understand me! Now, that we are past that, tell me the rest of what happened, that day.”

Sitting down again, she wondered what was coming next. Clark explained about how he began to develop powers. His adopted parents referred to them as abilities. Because he became so confused about having abilities and being different, Jonathan took him to the storm cellar and told him the story about his coming in the meteor storm and showed him the ship. He went through every detail. She began to realize why Clark had been so secretive about himself. She was no longer angry at Clark for keeping secrets, but she began to realize just how much he was protecting her. Lana was beginning to see, exactly how much this man meant to her. She realized she loved him more than she could ever express in mere words.

“Are you ok Lana? Should I continue? I know that this is a lot to handle.”
“Please Clark go on.” Lana wanted to know it all.

Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 26

Lana sat there looking at Clark and listening to every word he said. This was unbelievable; he was actually baring his soul. Clark was sharing everything about himself with her. She knew he had never been completely honest with her, but she never expected this! She was amazed, no, stunned by what she was hearing! Looking around The Fortress, she could not believe her eyes! What a beautiful place. The Ice Palace as she called it was absolutely beautiful! There were crystals, ice mounds, spires and so much more. Everything was magnificent and mere words were not capable of describing its beauty.

Although she wanted to know everything and she eventually would, she wanted to know about that day. “Whoa Clark, stop, time out. I want to know about the day that didn’t happen. That day that haunts my dreams. Tell me about that now please. We can go over the rest later.” “He paused, all the color seemed to run from his face. For a few moments he was speechless, but after the brief pause he started by saying; “I have loved you since I was a child of five. The first time that I laid eyes on you, I thought that you were an angel sent from heaven, I still do. Throughout my entire life, there has never been another girl or woman for me. Lana, what I tell you now, may change the way that you feel about me forever.”

“It was the day of the mystery trip. The version you recall was the second time that I saw you on that day. The first time you came to the loft, I took you to The Kawatchi Caves. We went into the room that you had never seen before. You remarked about not knowing that this room was in the cave. It was then; I told you that it had been left there for me. You gave me such a strange look after I said that to you. I was very nervous and you asked what was wrong. Then I said that I had practiced this over one thousand times, but I continued to be nervous. I reached into my pocket and pulled out that odd shaped disc you saw me with earlier today. I put it into the slot and all the sounds, lights and everything else that you witnessed earlier began. I knew that you were nervous, so reaching out to you; I asked do you trust me. Taking my hand you smiled and said yes. When the lights dimmed we were here. You were just as thrilled then as you are now.”

“I wanted you to know everything, but I wasn’t sure just how you would react to my secrets? I told you then as I told you a short while ago, that what I was about to reveal might change the way you felt about me forever. After telling you that I was from Krypton and explaining my secrets to you, I told you the truth, that I had wanted to tell you all of that a thousand times. You asked me,” “what made that day different from all the rest.”

“At that moment………………… You pick me up into your arms and jumped or was it flew me up there, Clark. You pulled a piece of coal out of your pocket and squeezed it until it became a diamond. You put it into a beautiful gold ring and with rays that shot out of your eyes, fused the settings into place. After that you dropped down on one knee and asked me to marry you…………………………Clark, my dream! My dream!”

“It wasn’t a dream Lana, it really happened………..At least the first time, he said sadly.” “Clark, why was there a revisited version of that day? What happened, did I say no?” “No Lana Lang, you said yes, but not until the next day. But later, things fell apart, all too quickly and the happiest day of my life also became the day of my greatest heartache.”
With pain and sadness in his eyes he related all the events leading up to and including the crash. She could vaguely remember the things that he was sharing with her. She remembered the feeling of disgust that she felt when Lex kissed her. She again felt the fear of having him chase her down the country roads. “Lex,” she said as she gritted her teeth. “He was chasing me, coming after me. He knew that you would have had to tell me you’re secret. I wanted to warn you. I wanted to be with you………… That jerk Lex!”

“Did you call me sweetheart…” Clark and Lana turned quickly, at the sound of that voice. “How did you………….”

“How did I get here Clark, is that the question, you were about to ask? You’re so predictable that it’s pathetic. You my darling Lana are such a grave disappointment to me! Did you actually think you could escape me so easily? I knew you would come back to farm boy, how sad. The answer to your question is simple. I used this”. Lex had a disc exactly like Clark’s, except his was black. “Clark, I can see it in your eyes so I will tell you, he said chuckling………the answer to your next question is simply because I know!”

“You know what?” Lana spat out at Lex. “I know all about Krypton, Clark’s powers and abilities. I even know about his only weakness.” As Lex said this, he opens a box he had pulled from his long black coat. Suddenly, Clark began to writhe around in pain. Then Clark fell to the ground in pain and holding his stomach. “Lex,” Lana said crying. “What are you doing?” As she ran to Clark’s side and trying to comfort him. “Now isn’t this sweet. She is trying to help the sick little alien.” “Lex, please, stop this now, your killing him!” “That is exactly what I want to do, Sweetheart. He has interfered with me for the last time. Besides that, once he is gone, he will never come between us again. Isn’t that wonderful?”

“How did you know, Clark managed to say?”

How, did you say how Clark? I have Zod’s memories. You may have separated us, but I am still in possession of his memories. That’s how I knew about this place and your weakness. Just imagine that, this pretty green rock is poison to you. Well I had better say goodbye, Clark. I am a happy man. Not only do I have Zod’s knowledge of a technology much greater than our own, but I have Lana back and very soon I will have finally destroyed my enemy.”
Lana pleaded with him, “Lex no, please don’t hurt him. I will do anything you want me to do. Please don’t hurt him.” Putting the kryptonite on his chest, Lex laughs. I’ve spared no expense to make sure you feel at home Clark. I even found a piece of the old home planet, for you.”
All that Clark could say was, “Lex, please, don’t.” Lex smiled at Clark. He said, “I have to do this. You see, I am the villain of this story! Sweet dreams, my friend. It has been great knowing you.” After having said that, Lex, grabbed Lana and said. “You are coming with me. We have a wedding to attend!” “No, Lex, please no! Clark…………………..” Then the lights flashed again and they were gone!

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holy crap!!!! that was bad to use ZODs memories but i like where this is going. ppms!

[happycamper]

I have to agree with *#~ ClAnAfAn99210~#*. Holy crap! :lol:

Things had been going so well until the arrival of Lex, with both Lana and Clark so near to finally getting what they've always wanted.

Lex is really evil here, ignoring that Clark had saved him while using Zod's knowledge in an attempt to kill Clark and steal Lana away.

So Lex has changed his mind from years ago - he realizes he really is the villain of the story... :mad:


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Originally posted by happycamper
I have to agree with *#~ ClAnAfAn99210~#*. Holy crap! :lol:

Things had been going so well until the arrival of Lex, with both Lana and Clark so near to finally getting what they've always wanted.

Lex is really evil here, ignoring that Clark had saved him while using Zod's knowledge in an attempt to kill Clark and steal Lana away.

So Lex has changed his mind from years ago - he realizes he really is the villain of the story... :mad:


:D :D

Yes, Lex truly is the villian and it gets worse before it gets better!

Thanks to you and *#~ ClAnAfAn99210~#* for reading my story and for the replies

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 27



“Lex, please stop!” Lana screamed as they finished the transport back to the Cave. “We can’t leave Clark, not like this; he is dying in the Fortress. If you care anything about me, please save him!”
“Not a chance Lana, after all of these years, Clark Kent is finally out of my life… forever. I have finally beaten him! I have his woman, know his secret and have actually killed him. All of this has been accomplished easily in one evening. The only thing about all of this that really bothers me is that, it was just too darn easy. I expected a better fight, more of a battle. I guess the old farm boy didn’t have it in him. Just think… I did it without any super powers. Yes, after all these years, I have beaten Clark Kent… finally! Lana, my dear, you can go back to the ice palace, as you call it, anytime you wish. We can leave flowers and I will even pay for a headstone. It’s the least that I can do for my friend, Clark.”
“You are a monster. I hate you and I always will. I want you to know that I love him with all my heart! I will never love or marry you.”

“Now, that’s where you are wrong Lana. You see, you will love and marry me. In fact our wedding is going to be tomorrow. It’s going to be beautiful! Our honeymoon will be in Paris. We will spend a week resting, relaxing and seeing the sights. You are going to love it my dear.”

“Lex, are you crazy? You just left the love of my life dying, in the Fortress. I hate you and I will never love you! Do you read me loud and clear? As far as any wedding goes… forget it! I wouldn’t marry you if you were the last man on this planet!”
“Smiling, he said, let’s not fight my dear. It will happen you will see.” She tried to get away from him, but he was too strong. He blocked her roundhouse kick with ease. She then threw a spinning back fist punch at him. This caught him a little off guard and allowed her to momentarily get away, until he recovered. Lex caught up with her just before she exited the cave. Grabbing her coat near the back of her neck, he began dragging her out of the entrance.

As they were leaving, two of Lex’s bodyguards grabbed Lana and rushed her into a limo that was waiting there. The very next thing that she knew was that, she was waking up in a lab somewhere, strapped to a gurney. Lex was in the corner of the lab talking something over with a doctor. She could overhear Lex asking how soon the serum would take effect.

“It takes about six hours for the full effect to be seen. The first shot last for about three weeks. After that we give an injection every month for three months and she will be your perfect wife forever.”
“Imagine that doctor, all of this with the help of this wonderful little meteor rock. Yes, there seemed to be no end to the things that could be accomplished with the help of these amazing rocks.” Then he thought to himself, maybe, just maybe…one day with the help of these rocks, I will be able to get Zod’s powers back?
“Lex, please don’t let him do this to me! We are friends, partners, remember?”
“No my dear you are so much more to me than that. I need you to help me. Zod had the right idea, I do need an heir. We will begin working on that little project tomorrow after the wedding. You are going to be pleasantly surprised. You see, this serum has also enhanced certain features of my body. You will find things pleasurable; very pleasurable, indeed.” “What about Clark? We have to go help him, please!”
“Well, I’d say with the temperatures being as cold as they, at the fortress, that he should be a block of solid ice soon. I had always thought that Clark was cool. Now, he is really cool. Face it Lana, Clark is dead! The meteor rock is poison to those from Krypton. That’s the last time that flannel boy will interfere with us again!”

“Lex, I will never forgive you. I will never love you.”
“Don’t worry about it my dear, the solution in this vial says otherwise. You can begin immediately doctor. I will be back for her in six hours.”
“In six hours Mr. Luthor, she will be ready. Mrs. Luthor, you are going to be one very beautiful bride. Mr. Luthor, you really are one lucky man!” “Believe me doctor, luck has nothing to do with it.”
As he left the complex, Lex chuckled to himself. Clark you may have beaten Zod, but beating me is a completely different story. Oh, yes, general Zod thanks for the memories!

Sorry that this is such a short update.
More coming soon.

[clana-lives-on]

Noooooooooooooooo!!!!!!! Clark has to live, he can't die. Oh, and i hate Lex!!!! Great update otherwise. ppms

[happycamper]

Bad Lex. :mad:

I guess he had to have some kind of mind control in order to have any kind of future with Lana.


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[*#~ ClAnAfAn99210~#*]

horrible lex!!! where do u come up with this stuff???the cocktail that can make lana love lex this is really sad.. but you forgot one little detail. the fortress nuetrializes all kryptonite so clark isnt dead.

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Originally posted by *#~ ClAnAfAn99210~#*
horrible lex!!! where do u come up with this stuff???the cocktail that can make lana love lex this is really sad.. but you forgot one little detail. the fortress nuetrializes all kryptonite so clark isnt dead.

Great point and I thought of doing it that way, but didn't ...So I left him to die. Sorry!!!!

[*#~ ClAnAfAn99210~#*]

did he really die? and if he did that sucks!

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Originally posted by *#~ ClAnAfAn99210~#*
did he really die? and if he did that sucks!

I was only joking!!!
I am just about to post the next updates...Check out what happens!!!:)

Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 28


Meanwhile, back in The Fortress, Clark was struggling for his life. The Kryptonite had severely weakened him. Clark realized that he was dying. He had defeated Zod, only to be beaten by a lesser opponent…Lex. It just didn’t seem right. He had finally told Lana; his secret and she had accepted it. She told Clark that she still loved him. Then his enemy shows up and in a matter of a few minutes, all was lost. Everything he ever wanted had been taken away. Lana, she was the one person in his life that made all of his trials, problems, difficulties, struggles worthwhile. Now, she was gone. He lost her again! Fate, destiny; whatever one wanted to call it was cruel, very cruel indeed. Clark was sinking deeper and deeper into the morass of despair. So this is how it ends for Krypton’s favorite son. Well at least I defeated Zod.
All of a sudden, he heard it. It was her voice again, in his head. He heard her screaming at the physician. “No, leave me alone. Don’t you dare inject me with that! I will never marry him… never!”[//i]
“Please, Miss Lang, don’t make this any harder than it already is for me. I don’t have any choice. I have my orders.”
“Alright,” Clark heard her say. I won’t fight you, but answer one question for me. Where are we?” After a brief pause, he heard her thoughts again. [i]So we are in the Luthor Corp. Building in Metropolis. This is a research lab on the thirty-third floor.”

Hearing that, Clark was immediately inspired, he would not accept defeat! Although he was seriously weakened, by the Kryptonite, he moved. Ever so slightly at first, slowly, he began turning to his right. He was trying to turn enough to cause the meteor rock to shift and hopefully fall off of his chest. If I can just get this rock off of me, I just may have a chance? It took every ounce of energy that he had left, but he was able to turn enough onto his side, to cause the meteor rock, to roll off of his chest. Now, if it will just roll far enough away. This may not work, but I have to try something. Clark was desperate, this was his only chance. After all that he had been through he was not going to lose her to his enemy again. The rock rolled five feet away. Not quite far enough, away, but not bad. Although he was very weak, he could feel himself getting a little stronger. As he lay there pondering his next move, a thought came to him. Jor-el said I would develop new powers. I wonder? If I was caught in a position like this and I am, what would I wish that I could do to get out of this?

A few minutes later, he found himself, taking a deep breath; he blew as hard as he could. When Clark did this, the meteor rock as well as everything loose in the area, was blown across the room. It took a few minutes for him to recover completely, but when he did, he was off in a flash, to be transported back to the cave.
After arriving in the cave, Clark took to the air, flying as fast as he could to the Luthorcorp Building. Using his x-ray vision, he found the room where Lana was being held captive. Dr. Mableton was preparing to give Lana her first injection, but before he could there was a loud crash as one of the walls caved in.
Clark,” Lana screamed with tears of joy rolling down her face! “Oh, thank God you are alright!”
Seeing the green liquid in the vial, he used his super-breath to blow it out of the doctor’s hand and into the next lab room. Seeing Clark He turned to run, but ran right into the wall knocking himself out.
“Thank God you made it in time; he was just about to make me a Stepford wife for Lex.”
“Not as long as I am alive,” he said. “Now let’s get you out of here.” Picking Lana up Clark exited out of the hole in the side of the building. I am just going to have to become accustom to flying; Lana smiled, looking at Clark when she said it. Clark looked back at her and immediately returned the smile. “Where to now,” Lana asked? “What are we going to do about Lex? He knows everything about you even how to destroy you.”
“Don’t worry sweetheart, I have a plan, but for now we are going to the loft.”

Later in the loft, Clark was explaining his plan to his parent’s and Lana. “It could work Clark, but Lex is much more dangerous then he was before. Now he has Zod’s memories as well as he suspicions carried for years about you.”
“Dad, I don’t see any other choice.” ‘Well, as much as I hate to admit it Clark, I think you are right. We will just have to hope that your plan works.”
As their discussion ended, looking over at Lana and putting his arm around her waist, Clark whispered into her ear… “I am not losing you again!” In spite of all her worries and concerns…Lana smiled and replied. “You had better not, Superman!”
“Superman huh, when did you come up with that?” Oh I don’t know? It kind of came to me the other day as I was thinking about you. By the way, how did you know where to find me?” “Well, to tell you the truth, I have been wondering about this myself? After my escape from the Phantom Zone I have noticed some new abilities as well as an increase in the intensity of the ones that I had before then.”
“I have also noticed that a connection of some type, is developing between us. Whenever you have been in danger or experience fear or some other extreme emotional state, I begin to hear your thoughts. I can’t explain it, but I think it’s because we are soulmates. There are some stories in ancient Kryptonian and Earth mythology about such happenings. I never imagined that they could be real, they were just stories, but I may have been wrong?”

“Clark, I have been waiting for the right moment to bring this up, but now appears to be that time. There have been several occasions, since you rescued me from Zod, when I have been hearing your thoughts as well. Initially, I thought it was me just wanting to be closer to you, but the thoughts and impressions have been getting stronger and more frequent. It seems like we are developing a connection between us and I think it’s wonderful. When you were in the cave, I felt your despair as you felt that you had lost me again. I also knew how you planned to escape by rolling that piece of Kryptonite off of you and how surprised you were when you just blew it across the fortress. I really wasn’t sure what it all meant, but when you came through that wall at Luthorcorp, I knew my suspicions were correct!”
“Just think about that for a second sweetheart… Soulmates, Lana said with her version of a Kent smile on her face. Two hearts, thinking and beating as one. That connection is a rare and sacred one. Wow, Clark we share it. We are one. Isn’t that wonderful? It’s no wonder that the forces of this planet have worked so hard to keep us apart. Well no matter what gets thrown at us, it will never work! Clark Kent you are meant to be mine forever. So you take care of Mr. Lex and whoever else you have to, because nothing is going to keep us apart! Do I make myself clear Mr. Kent/aka Superman!” I read you loud and clear. Now, come with me over to this window. It would be a shame to let this sunset go to waste!” “Then after the sunset, we can hold each other, kiss and work on making that heir;” he said with a smile. Lana crinkled up her nose, smiled back and said…”bring it on Mr. Kent, bring it on!”


I hope you all like it.

More to come soon

Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 29



Hi everyone! I will attempt to do a Clana love scene. This may turn out to be a complete disaster. Remember, I am not writer. I wanted to try to do a fanfic, to help ease the pain of a show that has gone AWOL! Please bear with me. P.S. I have a horrific headache… I was reading about the upcoming Smallville episodes and I am actually sick! Lexana/Sexana/BabyLexana/Lexana propsal. (OMG )!


It was a beautiful evening. There was the smell of lilacs was in the air. The sun had almost disappeared below the horizon, Clark and Lana were arm-in-arm watching, the beauty of nature. As they were watching the sun go down, they would both sneak quick glimpses of the each other. Finally they both looked at each other at the exact same moment and they were both embarrassed. Laughing it off they turned and walked over to the couch. As they made themselves comfortable, Lana hoped that Clark was serious about his comment earlier, regarding an heir. She loved him with all of her heart and when he pushed her away several months before she was totally devastated. In her heart at that moment her world ended and everything became unreal. So unreal that even using Lex as a way of escaping the pain of not being with Clark even became acceptable.

Clark sat there thinking about what a fool he had been to push her away! He never knew that a person could feel as empty and useless as he felt without her. Knowing she was with Lex, only added to his pain. How could he have been so stupid? He realized that he had almost lost her forever. He never again, wanted to experience the feeling of knowing she was with another. Putting his arm around her, Clark said, “Lana, I have made so many mistakes during our relationship. I would even understand you if didn’t want to get close, ever again.
As she looked up into his eyes Clark could see the tears running down her face. “Lana,” he asked, “what’s wrong?”
“Clark,” she replied, “you’re right we have been through more in just a few short months than many couples would experience in a lifetime. But I knew when we first began seeing each other, that you were the man for me. You are the love of my life and without you I don’t want to go on. The past five months without you has been, very difficult. If what I have lived during that time is what the future holds, then I don’t want to go on, because life without you has no meaning. It’s a life that is not worth living! Do you understand what I am telling you?”

Clark was amazed; he didn’t know what to say. For Lana had just looked into his heart and spoken to him the very same words he intended to say to her. How was it possible that she would know and feel exactly what he felt, perhaps she was right in thinking they were soul mates. As he wiped away the tears, Clark realized how much she meant to him. He would give up everything in order to have her with him. He in fact had done it after her death, remembering, the day that never happened. After he had wiped away her tears, he gently pushed her hair off of her face and kissed the areas where those tears had fallen. Next he kissed her forehead, moved onto her nose and then kissed her lips. Those full luscious lips. It felt so nice to be holding her again. While he was kissing her, he remembered how good she tasted. It had been so long he had almost forgotten just how nice it felt. He could smell that strawberry shampoo that she used.

“Lana, what’s wrong,” he asked as she began to tremble, in his arms? “Nothing,” she responded. Clark said, “Lana, you trembling, something is wrong what is it? Opening her hazel eyes and looking into his deep blue-green eyes, “I’m ok. It’s just… I never want to lose you again. I never want to be in a position where I can’t run up and hold you like this and not have you able to kiss me. But mostly, I am trembling from anticipation of being with you forever. I have missed you Clark. My body has missed you and holding you like this is causing my body to betray me. It’s letting you know how much I want to be with you forever!”
Hearing this he kissed her with more passion. His tongue found its way into her mouth, there her tongue met his. They joined in a dance that continued until they had to separate to get air. As soon as they had taken a few breaths, he pressed his lips to hers and their tongues began that familiar dance. He smiled as, he remembered all the good times they had experienced and he remembered what it felt like not to have her with him. At that moment he resigned in himself, never to purposely hurt her again.

[happycamper]

Maybe just a bit too much on the last scene (we have some young teens on this board).

Otherwise, I love where this story has gone. But I notice you managed to keep from us exactly how Clark is going to fix the situation with Lex. Really mean, and it makes it so I can't wait for more. ;)


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Originally posted by happycamper
Maybe just a bit too much on the last scene (we have some young teens on this board).

Otherwise, I love where this story has gone. But I notice you managed to keep from us exactly how Clark is going to fix the situation with Lex. Really mean, and it makes it so I can't wait for more. ;)


:D :D

Thank you for your post and your note regarding the last scene...I changed it completely and it's rated G. Thank you again!

[clana-lives-on]

That was so sweet. ppms

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 31
The next morning they were awaken by a car driving up the farmhouse. Looking out of the barn, Clark and Lana could see that it was a Porsche, a silver Porsche.

“Oh my God Clark,” Lana said as she was scrambling to dress!
“It’s Lex, he’s getting out of the Porsche and is heading this way.
Clark, hurry, let’s get out of here. Let’s super-speed away.”

“I am not running from Lex anymore Lana," he replied. "I won’t let the fact that he knows how to destroy me, give him an upper hand over me again.”

Using his super-speed, Clark dressed quickly. As soon as he was dressed he hugged Lana, kissed her and said, “Wish me luck! Lana, no matter what happens…I love you and always will.”

Having said that he sped off to deal with Lex. Seeing him enraged Clark, why couldn’t he just leave he and Lana alone. Why did he have to try and steal everything Clark ever had?

“Great to see you again Clark,” Lex said with a huge smile on his face. “Aren’t you happy to see me as well, my old friend?”

“Please just leave us alone,” Clark said, but there was a great deal of anger in his voice. “We are no longer friends and we haven’t been since you took Lana from me.”

“Clark, do we have to rehash this all over again? I didn’t steal her you lost her on your own!” I didn’t have to even try to steal your former girlfriend. Speaking of Lana, where is my fiancé?”

“She is not your fiancé! So why don’t you leave us now, so we can go on with our lives?”

“That’s where you are wrong Clark, see, here is the ring I am going to give her. Then we are going off to be married. I would invite you to the wedding, but I don’t get the feeling, you would not want to come.” Now are you going to tell me where she is or am I going to have to beat it out of you?”

“I will never tell you where she is! I will never allow you to touch her again. Now leave this farm before I…”

“Before you do what? You know that no-one can stop me, least of all you. Clark you were never my equal. Even with your gifts and abilities, I was and always will be far superior to you. You are not even in my league. I am Lex Luthor, the greatest criminal mind of all time!”

Having said this Lex pulled out a gun and aimed it at Clark.

“Come on Luthor, you know that I can’t be hurt by your bullets.”

Lex smiled and pulled the trigger.

Knowing bullets couldn’t hurt him, Clark put his hand up in front of himself, intending to catch the bullet and then throw it down, but the bullet didn’t stop as he enclosed his hand around it. It went right through his hand and entered his chest.

Clark screamed and he quickly dropped to the ground. Unable to get up he looked at Lex confused. How was it possible that a bullet could hurt him, he wondered?

“ I see, you are wondering how this is possible? I mean, you are wondering how my bullet was able to hurt you, aren't you Clark?It’s Kryptonite. My scientist learned how to work with the meteor rocks and molded then into bullets. What amazing men. They were able to give me a weapon to stop you dead in your tracks, my alien friend. Now I will ask you one more time. Where is she!”

Lana exited the barn. As she surveyed the scene, she screamed. “Lex, leave him alone!”

“Lana, I am so happy you are here. I was just telling my good friend Clark, that I was going to propose to you. I wanted him to witness your acceptance, before he dies.”

“Don’t hurt him; I will do whatever you wish. Please leave him alone.”

Clark was getting weak. He began to shiver from the poison that was spreading through his body. “Lana don’t please,” was all that he could get out.’

“Running over to where he was Lana bent over to kiss him. “Clark, I don’t have any other choice, I can’t let him kill you. I will do anything if it means, you will be safe. Even if I have to marry him I will. I won’t let him kill you!”

“Lana please no!”

At that moment the Kent’s came out of the house. Pulling out another gun, Lex shouted at Jonathan, “stay where you are or you will suffer the same fate as your son!”

“If you hurt him, I will hunt you down and kill you with my bare hands Lex, now you put that gun away and get off of my land now mister!”

After aiming at Jonathan and squeezing off a shot that went through his shoulder, Lex laughed and said, “Now do you see that I mean business. Now don’t move or my next shot will be through Martha’s head.”

“Now Lana, come here it’s time for me to propose to you.”

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HEY ESCOUT....good to see you here....haha I just finished reading what you got so far, and it was almost as good as when I first read on Sweet:D


Keep that awesome mind of yours going buddy;)



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[happycamper]

Lex is acting like a mad dog. I think it's time for something to happen to him. One hopes it will be both painful...and permanent.


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Originally posted by happycamper
Lex is acting like a mad dog. I think it's time for something to happen to him. One hopes it will be both painful...and permanent.


:D :D

We are just about finished with Lex!!!! :)

Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 32


“Lana, I am waiting. Please don’t make me wait too long sweetheart or I will be forced to kill Clark now, instead of later as I have planned.”

“No Lex, don’t kill him. Let him go, for me, please. I will do anything for you, just spare his life.”

“Lana my dear, you will do anything I want. You have no choice. Now come over here so I can get this over with.”

Slowly, very slowly she walked over to where he was waiting. Keeping an eye on everyone Lex gave her a hug and started to get down on one knee.

Lana looked over at Clark and tears began to roll down her face. He was beginning to shake more violently. His skin color was now a pale green and his breathing was becoming very rapid and shallow. If something wasn’t done quickly, Clark would be dead very soon.

Once more she appealed to Lex’s good side, but he ignored her request.

“We will all be much better off without this creature from another planet in our midst. One more shot should do it, but not yet. I want you to die knowing that I possess what you hold most dear in this world. I want to see the expression on your face as you see her say yes to my proposal. I want to see your eyes when I place my engagement ring on her finger. Then will my victory be complete. Then you will die, but not before seeing all that. Clark my friend… this is a great day!”

Suddenly, Lex became aware of a yellow Volkswagen Beetle driving down the road. The smile on his face became wider. Chloe, oh this is wonderful. I want her to see this as well. She laughed at me and told me that I would never have the opportunity of proposing to you Lana. I want her to see this.”

Chloe drove close to the house and seeing the crowd near the barn slowly walked in the direction where Clark was laying on the ground. She shuddered as she quickly observed his condition. She recognized immediately that he was dying. The Kryptonite was doing its job very effectively.

“Chloe, Lex shouted with joy it’s so good to see you. You are just in time to see Lana become my fiancé. I am so sorry that you won’t be invited to the wedding later today. But, I wanted you to see how wrong you have been. Remember when you told me that she would never agree to marry me, well watch.”

“Lana my dear will you do me the honor of being my wife?”

“Never Lex, I will never become your wife, never!”

“Consider your next words and choose them carefully my sweet. Someone’s life hangs in the balance, right Clark.” Clark was going into shock. Blood, his blood was everywhere. He was in no shape to answer in fact he was barely conscious.

Lex cocked the gun and aimed it at Clark’s head. “Lana, he said again, will you marry me?”

“You jerk Lex, you know I can’t refuse. Now take that gun away from his head.”

“I knew you would see it my way. Now Clark, I bid you farewell.”

Aiming the gun at Clark’s head, he started to squeeze the trigger, but stopped abruptly as Chloe said, “Lex wait. I want him to see the wedding gift I have for you and Lana, so don’t kill Clark just yet.”

“Ok Chloe, but hurry! Lana and I have a plane to catch.” Lex was in a hurry.

“You’re going to love this gift Lex,” Chloe said quickly taking the bracelet she had on her wrist off.

Chloe was still a little distance from Lex. She took off the bracelet and tossed it in the air. It sailed over Lex’s head and landed a short distance behind him.

All of a sudden the bracelet seemed to come alive. A long tunnel appeared. Lex did not like the sound of this and began to become a little worried. Then he heard it. That voice, how could he forget it?

“Lex, my friend, I have missed you so much. We were one for a time; I find that I don’t want to go on without you with me. Bring him to me my pets.”

Then two of the most hideous creatures one could imagine, came out of the tunnel and picked Lex up and pulled him inside. Once inside Zod’s voice could be heard again. “Lex it’s so good to have you here. Let me show you some of my favorite spots and introduce you to my best friends. You are going to love The Phantom Zone. I promise you will.”

“No, no, no,” was all they could hear. Then the tunnel closed. Lex was gone, forever.

Everyone wanted to cheer, but there was no time. They had to get the bullet out of Clark before it was too late. Chloe ran over to Clark, ripped open his shirt and probe the wound with her finger. Feeling the fragment, she ran to her car for some needle nose pliers. Bending back over Clark, she pulled out the fragment, but was she too late?” Clark wasn’t breathing.



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[clana-lives-on]

Yes!! Lex is gone!! But Clark's still in trouble. ppms

[happycamper]

Yes, how is Clark? Now that Lex is enjoying himself in that wonderful vacation hotspot, was Chloe in time?

And how is Jonathan?


:D :D

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Originally posted by happycamper
Yes, how is Clark? Now that Lex is enjoying himself in that wonderful vacation hotspot, was Chloe in time?

And how is Jonathan?


:D :D

Next post coming soon!!!

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 33



Chloe had removed the bullet, but Clark continued to lay there. There was no sign of life. It appeared that her valiant efforts were for nothing, he was gone.

Desperate she began doing CPR. “Clark, come on, start breathing! Clark, I said start breathing!” Lana hurried over to where he was laying on the ground and screamed with tears rolling down her face.

“Clark, we didn’t come this far for me to lose you now! We have survived everything else that was arrayed against us. I refuse to give up on you now. I won’t go on without you, so you better come back. Do you hear me Clark!”

Lana was beside herself. Everyone thought that she was about to lose it. She pushed Chloe aside and kissed him full on the mouth. “Clark I love you…Please come back to me like you did before. Remember when you were shot by Gabriel. Please come back, my love, please!”

They all watched for a response, but there was none. Martha, Jonathan, Chloe and Lana began to weep. “This can’t be Martha cried, this just can’t be. It’s not fair! He tried so hard to turn things around to repair the damage done by his mistakes. How could this have happened?”

Jonathan hugged his son and said, “Clark it’s not right that we should lose you now. There is so much more for you to do. There is more for you to accomplish here. You haven’t yet completed you destiny. Come back to us son, please!”

Nothing, there was no response. He remained so still. There was no pulse, he was not breathing. He appeared dead. No words could describe the pain they were experiencing at this moment. It was aching, stabbing, burning, gnawing and more at the same time.

Suddenly, Lana turned to look at Clark. She remained perfectly still, as if she was frozen in time.

Chloe looked at her best friend. “Lana”, what is it? What’s wrong?”

Remaining motionless, she was straining, as if she were trying to hear something that was far off.

“What is it Lana,” Chloe said again?

“Chloe, Martha, Jonathan; it’s Clark! I am hearing his thoughts.” “He is telling us not to despair. He is alive. He is in a deep coma, but he is alive!”

“What can we do to help him, they all said in unison!”

“He doesn’t know,” Lana replied, sadly.

Suddenly, a soft, bright, blue light shone in front of them. An individual emerged from the light. Jonathan recognized him immediately… “Jor-el,” Jonathan said.

“Yes Jonathan, I have been watching from The Fortress. I am proud of my son. With the help of each and every one of you, he has journeyed far. The boy has become a man. He has faced every obstacle and come out victorious. He has done well; against Zod, Lex Luthor and all of the odds. He has become Krypton’s greatest son and hero. Kal-el, my son, our people would have declared you as our greatest hero.’

“I am also proud of each and every one of you here. You have been true friends to him. You have remained with him through times of trouble. You have all had a part in his growth and development and for that I am eternally indebted to you and grateful! Kal-el has been fortunate to have you with him for his journey. I am sorry, I misjudged you. You were not a hindrance to him, but were his greatest allies. His greatest strength. Thank you all, again.”

“Ms. Lang, you think that you have been hearing his thoughts….you are right. Being Kal-el’s soul mate there is a bond that is forming between you. With the passage of time that bond will grow stronger. Telepathic communication between the two of you is a reality. You will learn to be skilled at it. You have other gifts coming which will allow you to assist in encouraging and helping him.”

"Come to me Ms. Lang.”
When Lana walked over to Jor-el, he put his arms around her and said, “You are the one he loves the most in this world. The one he wants to be with through the rest of his walk in this life! You have loved and stood by him in his darkest hour. You are a worthy daughter-in-law to be. Welcome into the family of “EL.” I give you my blessing and the strength to walk with him all of your days. Never doubt his love for you. Take this and wear it proudly. Taking it in her hand she held it up to see what she had been given. She smiled; it was a Superman symbol medallion. Just like the “S” on his Superman suit. Thanking Jor-el, she promised to wear it proudly! Now my dear Lana, there is one more for you to meet….Lara, come."

Another bright, blue light appeared. As the individual in it emerged from the light. Lana looked and thought, “she is the most beautiful woman I have ever seen.”

“Lana, it is so good to meet you! I am Lara, Kal-el’s mother. Thank you for standing by my son during his time of troubles. Then she hugged Lana and pronounced a blessing over her. “May your womb be fruitful and may you bear strong children for him.” May you walk as one all the days of your lives. May your days be full of peace, joy, and happiness.” After saying that, she looked at Lana again, smiled at her and hugged her again.

She and Jor-el turned to the others and said, “Our son has truly been blessed to have you walk this journey with him. We thank you all.”

Turning to Lana again, Jor-el handed her a gold stone. It was pure gold, but at the same time clear as glass. “Lana, this is Gold Kryptonite. It will restore him. Put it over his heart and tell him you love him and he will return.”

Jor-el and Lara hugged and thanked them all again. They turned to Clark and said, “Goodbye our son. Live long and prosper.” Then they were gone.

All Chloe could do was say, “I think, I have been to The Land of Oz. What an incredible story and I can’t tell anyone.”
Stepping over to Clark and putting the gold Kryptonite over his heart. Lana said, Clark, I love you! Come back to me!”

Clark’s eyes began to flutter. He opened then and saw the most wonderful sight he could imagine…Lana kneeling over him, with a look of love in her eyes!

He looked up at her and said, “I thought it was a dream, but I did die and my angel is here to escort me to heaven!”


More to come….soon.

I am almost finished with this story.

[clana-lives-on]

That was so sweet! Update soon

[happycamper]

:)

I get the impression gold kryptonite would be a valuable commodity. ;)

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Originally posted by happycamper
:)

I get the impression gold kryptonite would be a valuable commodity. ;)


Yes, gold K. is a very valuable commodity! I am happy to see that you are enjoying my first story and thank you for all of your kind and encouraging replies. I will try to get an update posted later today.

Thank you again!!!!

[maitriniazngurl]

Great updates! Wow, Gold krytonite... cool! Your story is kinda funny the way the characters are acting towads each other! I like it! Please update soon!

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Originally posted by maitriniazngurl
Great updates! Wow, Gold krytonite... cool! Your story is kinda funny the way the characters are acting towads each other! I like it! Please update soon!


Thanks!!! I tried to make the story a little different and I wanted people to have fun reading it. Thank you so much for the kind reply!!!
P.S. Your story is Great and I am having fun reading it. :)

[maitriniazngurl]

This is a great fic and for ur first story your doing Great! And thanks "I love You" was very first fic as well. :)

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 34


“Don’t you even think of dying and leaving me mister, Lana said very sternly to Clark. We have come a long, long way together and I refuse to let you slip away again! Do you understand me Mr. Kent?”

“Lana, I was only kidding, but for a second, seeing you leaning over me, looking into my eyes…I really thought you were an angel who had come for me. You know…. you are my very own personal angel, don’t you?”

Wrapping her arms around him, she held onto Clark as hard as she could. She was trembling now, as the realization of what almost happened was settling in. Lana began sobbing uncontrollably.

“Angel what’s wrong? Please stop crying sweetheart. You know how much it tears me up, to see you cry.”

“I lost you once and the thought of losing you twice is too much to bear. I couldn’t go on without you. I love you! I need you! Please don’t ever leave me.”

“You don’t have to worry about me leaving; I promise that I will stay by your side as long as we live. Don’t forget, I have felt the pain of losing you before. I never want you to know that pain, which I experience ever again!”

Smiling she began to kiss him over and over, until she heard voices behind her begin to say, “Lana, can we get a hug from him as well?”

Looking up to see his parents and Chloe standing over him, he asked, “what happened to Lex and how am I still alive?”

Jonathan laughed and with a smile spreading across his face said, “Lex won’t ever bother us again son. It’s over.”

“Where is he,” Clark asked looking a little confused?

“He is in a place where he can no longer harm anyone. Lex is trapped in The Phantom Zone! He and General Zod should make great roommates, don’t you think so son?”

“What, how? I remember being shot, falling to the ground and I was fading fast. I drifted off to a place, I don’t know where, but it was a place of peace. I felt no pain or fear while I was there. As I waited there, I saw Jor-el, my father and Lara, my mother.
We talked about many things while I was there: Lana, friends, life and of course…my destiny. It felt so good talking with them and receiving wisdom and guidance from them!
We talked about each of you and how proud they were of each of you for the things you have all imparted to me. They couldn’t have selected a better group of people to have been a part of my life even if they wanted to.”

“Then they spoke of you Lana Lang and what a wonderful person you are and how much they love you already! They know that we are soulmates and that we are already developing the special abilities that soulmates on my world possess.

Mom even said that dad had given you a gift…The Family medallion. She was so amazed because he doesn’t give gifts casually, but only to special people who are very deserving. Especially a gift as valuable to them as the Family Medallion, Lana, you must have really impressed them!” That Medallion allows the possessor to manifest certain gifts.

We discussed many other things including the fact that we could have children. Then they told me it was time to go back. That part of my destiny (you Lana) was waiting for me. It was then I heard your voice and followed it out of that place. Oh, it’s good to be back here and see all of you.”

Standing to his feet, he asked, “now just how did Lex get into The Phantom Zone?” Lana explained how Chloe had the wrist bracelet was an entrance into the zone. She also told him that Zod had told Lex that he missed him and sent two hideous creatures who he called pets to pull Lex into the Zone.” “Clark he is gone, forever, isn’t that wonderful?”

“Yes it is thank God, it really is over. It is wonderful, I can’t think of a better place for him. He will be right at home there; everyone will be just like him!”

Chloe he asked, "how did you get a Phantom Zone bracelet?”

“From Jor-el. He came to me and said I had to hurry over here and told me what to do about the bracelet and the rest is history! Now our enemy is in a place where he can no longer hurt any of us. I think it’s wonderful and we need to celebrate!”

“Well yes it is wonderful, but I feel bad that there was no other way to deal with Lex. Remember I have been in the Phantom Zone and it’s not a nice place.”

“Don’t worry about it Clark, Zod will watch over Lex. He will keep him company. I can tell that they will become great friends. It’s funny, they are a lot alike,” Chloe laughed a little as she said this.”

Everyone went inside to further discuss what had occurred that day. After they talked a while, Clark took Lana’s hand and looked into her eyes. “I really am glad that you really aren't’t engaged to Lex!”
After saying that Clark looked a little worried. He looked at his family and said, “we all have to go to the caves now.”

Jonathan looked at Clark and asked, “what’s up son?”
“I don’t have time to explain now dad, but we all have to go quickly.” After arriving at the cave, Clark quickly directed everyone to the transport room in the cave and put the special octagon key in place. Immediately they were transported to The Fortress. Once there Clark took out coats for all of them to wear. Then one by one he flew them to the top of the highest pinnacle in the fortress.

As he deposited the last person on the top of the pinnacle, he turned to Lana and took her hand.

“Lana, I have almost lost you, several times, but I don’t ever intend to lose you again. You almost were forced to accept Lex’s proposal today, but thank God he is no longer with us, thanks to Chloe and Jor-el.”

Clark pulled something out of his pocket. It was a lump of coal. He squeezed it very hard briefly, then opened his hand to reveal a beautiful diamond. Blowing off any residual coal dust, he put the diamond in the settings of a beautiful ring. Fusing the diamond in the ring with his heat vision, Clark dropped down on one knee.

“Lana, we have been through so much together. You know who I am and where I am from. We have no secretes between us and we have become soulmates. Elizabeth Lana Lang, will you marry me?”

Lana smiled, “well this is a day for proposals, but there is only one proposal that I have been waiting for…Yes! Yes, Clark I will marry you! I thought you would never ask."

Everyone cheered! Chloe, Martha, Jonathan all began to cry. Knowing what they had been through a realizing that they were finally going to be together forever was just too much.

Clark picked up Lana and flew several laps around the top of The Fortress!

“What are you doing, Lana asked?”
Clark replied. These are victory laps. I had been feeling so dejected and defeated since you moved in with Lex, that I feel good because you are back with me and are going to be my wife. Yahoo… he shouted over and over again!

Clark noticed the tears streaming down Lana's face. "Lana what's wrong? You are happy aren't you?"

"I am very happy Clark! This is the happiest day of my life! This is exactly the way it happened in my dream. The one that has been recurring each night for the past year or so. But as you have already told me, it wasn't a dream. It all really happened and then you had to reverse time. In my dream I waited until the next day before I said yes I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. Well this time I wasn't going to wait."

"Thank you my dear for not waiting." Clark was happier than he had ever been. All of his dreams were coming true. Yes he had made mistakes, but he was correcting every mistake and no longer deserved the title BDA Chloe had given him several years ago.

“Clark, Lana said. I am so sorry that I moved in with him. I was only trying to make you jealous and to hurt you.”

“Don’t worry sweetheart, I understand.”

All of a sudden a loud voice echoed throughout the Fortress. It was Jor-el.

“My son why the celebration?”

“I have just proposed to Lana and she accepted! Father, we are going to be married!”

“It’s about time Kal-el, his mother said.”

Then two blue lights appeared in the center of the fortress. Jor-el and Lara walked out of the lights and hugged Clark and Lana. Tears of joy were flowing down everyone’s faces.
“Lara,” said Jor-el, “where is that wedding dress you prepared. “Right here my love, but why do you want it now?”

“Because we are going to have a wedding, today!”

“Clark, Lana are you ready?”

“In unison, they both replied…Yes we are!”




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[happycamper]

I'm glad that everyone gets along so well. Well why not? We are talking about Lana and Clark here. :)

It is especially good that they both came back from the fear and despair they were both feeling at the beginning of the story.

And an immediate wedding at the FOS... :)


:D :D


Oh! Something I forgot to add about your last post - I noticed a certain phrase...I always guessed that Kryptonians were related to the Vulcans, or were they just their teachers? ;)

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Originally posted by happycamper
I'm glad that everyone gets along so well. Well why not? We are talking about Lana and Clark here. :)

It is especially good that they both came back from the fear and despair they were both feeling at the beginning of the story.

And an immediate wedding at the FOS... :)


:D :D


Oh! Something I forgot to add about your last post - I noticed a certain phrase...I always guessed that Kryptonians were related to the Vulcans, or were they just their teachers? ;)


Happycamper, thank you for the reply and observations. I try to be optimistic. I tried to catch the despair and even depression of Clark who lost the love of his life his father and everything else. I tried to also show the guilt that he must have felt floating in that prison, knowing that he was resopnsible for the release of Zod, the death of his father and the reason Lana is with Lex!!!.
I also wanted to resolve some issues between Clark and Lana and bring the Soulmates back together.
Was I successful? I know what my answer is, but only you the reader can help me to know if I failed miserably or succeeded?

:)

As far as the Vulcan question?
Well The Planet Vulcan was right next to Krypton, before it exploded. The races are related and were very close until the day of a terrible problem caused by the Brainiac interactive construct. It caused all Kryptonians to lose the pointy shape of their ears. The Vulcans thinking that they wanted to be different, became offended and stopped having anything to do with Kryptonians from that point in time (Smile...with all that B.S....I could run for office:) ).

Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 35 Part 1


Did he say wedding? Lana didn’t know whether to scream and jump for joy or cry? After all these years of wanting to be the wife of Clark Kent was it finally going to happen? Although this had been her wish since high school, she never thought it would take place. Especially the way the past few months had gone.

As she was marveling over the events of the day…Especially the proposal, she realized that all of her dreams were about to come true. She had learned his secret, met his biologic parents and received their approval, watched the defeat of their enemy, accepted his proposal and was about to be married. What a day!

As Lana pondered the events of the past few days, she thought about her love and remembered the first time they met. It was at Nell’s Flower Shop. They were both five years old. He was cute , but a little different. He was going on and on about her being an Angel. All she could do was smile, as he went on and on about this.
The very next time they met was at her birthday party. Lana had just turned six the party was in full swing when suddenly the boy from next door showed up. He had a gift, a cabbage patch doll. She loved it and it was the first of many gifts that she received from Clark..
Later after everyone had gone they sat together on her porch swing talking. Clark wanted to know where she had hidden her wings. He was so serious as he went on and that all she could do was laugh. They both laughed and it was at that moment that she realized it…She wanted to be with him forever.
They had seen good and bad times together since that day. But they had always stayed together or found their way back to each other. Everyone worried that they might drift apart forever, but Lana always knew that they would be as one forever! There was something so special about him and even thought most of their problems were about his secret…she never lost hope that one day she would be his bride.

Now here she was in his Fortress with family and Chloe and she was about to marry Clark. All of a sudden a friendly figure was approaching her. The smile on this persons face was like that wide mouthed grin of Clark’s.

It was Lara, Clark’s biologic mother, come my dear she said, “come my dear we have to prepare you.” Directing her into another hidden room in the Fortress she smiled at Lana and said, “I know you are going to love this dress.” Martha and Chloe followed close behind.
Lara went to a special storage area and pulled out the most beautiful gown Lana had ever seen. It was white, slightly futuristic, but in a wonderful way. The veil, if you will was out of this world!
Chloe and Martha just couldn’t believe how beautiful the gown was and the fact that Lana if it was at all possible…More beautiful than they had ever seen her before!

While viewing herself in the mirror, Lara smiled, took Lana’s hand and said, “This is the very dress that I wore on my wedding day to Jor-el. I thought it would be nice if you would wear it as well.”
“I will be honored to wear your wedding gown, Lara, “was all that she could say.” Lana was so happy, that she was moved to tears.

“What’s wrong Lana,” asked Chloe?

“Nothing is wrong Chloe,” she responded. “For the first time in my life…Everything is right!”


Meanwhile Jor-el had taken Clark and Jonathan into another hidden room in the Fortress. “Son, Jor-el said with a smile it’s time to get you ready.” Walking over to another storage area he pulled out another Superman outfit, however, this one was more decorative than the first one he had been given. The colors were more vivid.this one had a lot of awards ribbons and decorations over the right pocket.

“Dad,” Clark said, “What are these.” “My son these are the awards and decorations that our ancestors earned down though the years. A special part of your Kryptonian heritage, you will learn more about all of this some other time.”

“You’re looking pretty sharp Clark, Jonathan stated with a smile. This beats the flannel shirts and the bright red jacket anyday.”

While they were laughing…Wonderful music was playing in the central part of the Fortress! Looking up and smiling at Kal-el/Clark, Jor-el said. “It’s time son are you ready?”
“More ready than I have been to do anything,” he replied with a huge smile on his face.

They all met in the center of The Fortress. Jor-el pointed to the highest spire in the fortress and said up there. Clark was frozen to the spot. He couldn’t get over how beautiful Lana looked in her wedding dress! She was, if it were possible, more beautiful then she ever looked before to Clark!
Lana thought to herself, “My God, he looks more and more handsome every time that I look at him. What did I ever do to deserve him?

They stayed like that for several minutes staring into each others eyes. They were lost within their love one for another. They could hear each others thoughts and were just beginning to understand the depth of the love they had one for another. As they began to blush at each others thoughts, a voice boomed from the top of the Fortress, “are you coming?”

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 35 Part 2




Coming out of their trances, they said "yes together.” Clark picked up his bride to be and flew her to the top of the Fortress. Everyone was already there waiting. Jor-el and Lara were in front of what appeared to be a beautiful celestial altar. Looking at Kal-el and Lana, he said,
“come my children.”
As they approached the altar, Jor-el began to speak. “Millions of years ago on our planet we began to follow this sacred ceremony. We are proud to now celebrate it with Krypton’s greatest son and his bride!”

Opening a book on the altar he began to read. At first the beautiful, almost melodic language Lana was hearing sounded foreign, but within a few seconds she smiled at Kal-el, then at Jor-el and Lara.

With a smile that rivaled The Jonathan Kent smile, Jor-el stopped. “Kal-el if anyone had any doubt that Lana is the one for you, then all questions are now gone!” With a smile, even though the marriage ceremony wasn’t complete, both Jor-el and Lara left the altar, walked over to Lana, smiled, hugged her and said, “Welcome to the family of El, my dear!”
Turning to Kal-el they smiled and said, “only the one who is your soulmate, your bride to be, would have the understanding of what we just said in Kryptonian!”

Lana, tell Clark what we just read in Kryptonian. “Yes father, she said. “ Dearly beloved we are gathered here today on this special occasion to bear witness to the joining together in marriage of Kal-el and Lana. The one who from this time on is La-na as her Kryptonian name will be.”

Tears of joy were running down his face, as Kal-el realized, that, forever she was the one who had and always would bring completeness to his life! The one and only one that would cause him to be whole!

“To the others as he and Lara went back to the altar, Jor-el said that this is a day for giving gifts…As of now you are all honorarry Kryptonians and as Kryptonians will receive gifts…The first one is complete understanding of the Kryptonian language.”

The ceremony continued. Beautiful music was playing in the background. The fortress was beautifully lite for this special occasion. Finally, Jonathan was asked to give Lana away! Then Jor-el asked for the rings. Lara turned and walked over to Jonathan…She handed him two beautiful rings. He smile at Lara and walked over to Jor-el. After smiling at Clark and Lana, he handed Jor-el the rings!
“My children, these special Kryptonian rings were once mine and Lara’s. This is another gift from us to you. These will grant you both additional abilities and protect you both.
Lana the ring will also give you the ability to bear children. The differences in your DNA are no longer an issue.”

Lana with a Clark Kent grin said, “thanks to both of you!”

“Now Kal-el…Do you take La-na to be your bride?” “I, Kal-el, take you, La-na, to be my lawfully wedded wife, my constant friend, my faithful partner and my love from this day forward. In the presence of God, our family and friends, I offer you my solemn vow to be your faithful partner in sickness and in health, in good times and in bad, and in joy as well as in sorrow. I promise to love you unconditionally, to support you in your goals, to honor and respect you, to laugh with you and cry with you, and to cherish you for as long as we both shall live.”
’I do,” he replied!

As he said this he slipped the wedding band onto her fourth finger on her left hand. It fit perfectly!

Turning to La-na, Jorel asked, “La-na… do you take Kal-el to be your lawfully wedded husband?” “I, La-na, take you, Kal-el, to be my: lawfully wedded husband, my constant friend, my faithful partner and my love from this day forward. In the presence of God, our family and friends, I offer you my solemn vow to be your faithful partner in sickness and in health, in good times and in bad, and in joy as well as in sorrow. I promise to love you unconditionally, to support you in your goals, to honor and respect you, to laugh with you and cry with you, and to cherish you for as long as we both shall live.”

’I do, she replied!”

“By the power vested in me , I now pronounce you man and wife!”

“Now, you may kiss the bride Ka-lel!”

Kiss her he did! La-na couldn’t believe it had all happened….Here in, The Beautiful Ice Palace. She and Kal-el we married.

Everyone was jumping for joy! It had finally happened. The lights in the Fortress were flashing beautiful colors and wonderful wedding music was playing!
Taking Clark by the hand, La-na ran to the edge of the pinacle and jumped off. Kal-el was worried, but his worried look turned to one of joy as he saw La-na flying in front of him around the Fortress.
As he was thinking, how, Jor-el shouted, “just one of the gifts of now being Kryptonian…There are many more gifts La-na now posseses.You will discover them with time.”

Everyone marveled at the two of them flying around the fortress, until Jor-el said, “you are all honorary Kryptonians follow then.” They were all amazed as they flew after the new bride and groom!
Jor-el and Lara held each other and smiled for the new couple!

More to come …..soon!
I hoped that you all liked it.

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 36


The Fortress was alive; the celebrating went on late into the night. No one had ever seen Clark or Lana any happier! After all the struggles, heartaches, adversities and separations; they were finally together as man and wife. Nothing would change that ever again!

Clark danced with Lana all through the night only stopping when Jor-el or Jonathan wanted to dance with her. For once, Clark did not have the weight of the world on his shoulders. Lana was thrilled to see the Clark she once knew back again. She hadn’t seen that sparkle in his eyes for a long, long time and that famous Clark Kent Smile was certainly a sight for sore eyes! They were together now, no more secrets, no lies husband and wife.

The bride finally had a chance to sit down and catch her breath, when Clark was dancing with Lara. As she pondered over the events of the past few years a smile came to her face. What a rollercoaster ride they had experienced together. She laughed when she remembered a line from a song sung by one of her aunt Nell’s favorite groups, “The Grateful Dead;” “What a long strange trip it had been!”

“Hey,” she heard Clark say as he sat down next to her. He had just finished dancing with his mother. “A penny for your thoughts.“

“ Wait a minute honey, I thought that as soul-mates we could perceive each other’s thoughts.” Lana smiled as she said this.

“We can,” he smiled, “but I just want to hear you tell me.”

“Well”, she replied, “I was just thinking how over the past few years, I have always known that you were in love with me and wanted to share something really important with me, but you just couldn’t. Now I understand. I am so sorry that I was impatient with you my love. Sorry that I tried to forced you to reveal your secret to me.”

“It’s alright sweetheart. It’s that everything was so complicated and I really was trying to protect you from my secret. Just look at what happened with Lex. I was afraid to tell you my secret, but when I lost you to Lex it no longer mattered. Nothing mattered except for the two of us being together. I missed you so badly!”

Looking into his deep blue-green eyes she said, “not as much as I missed you, my love!”

Now tell me, “ what were you thinking?”

“Well, I was thinking about all the times that you saved me from different dangers. Even when I wasn’t sure that it was you that saved me, I somehow always knew that it was you in my heart. This last time that you saved me…You saved me from myself. It might of looked like you saved me from Lex and Zod, but you didn’t. Clark, I had given up all hope for us ever being able to be together. When you told me that you didn’t love anymore…My world ended. I had nothing without you. I was numb! I did the only thing I could think of and that was to get away from anything that reminded me of you. Lex was there so I went with him, never realizing that in doing that I almost lost you forever. What a fool I have been!”

“Sweet heart, Clark said looking her straight into those beautiful hazel eyes. I was the one who was foolish.”

“I was so afraid of losing you that all I could think of was to push you away for your own safety, never realizing that I could lose you forever. I am just happy that we are together and our enemy is longer able to hurt either one of us.”

“Clark, do me one favor…No more secrets, please! I love you too much and I want to be involved in every aspect of your life!”

“Don’t worry there won’t be any…Remember our mental connection. Besides, I wouldn’t keep anything from you now. But don’t forget about our soul connection. So in the future, when you are delivering our firstborn…Don’t think any bad things about me, because I will know.” Clark laughed as he said this, he put his arm around Lana and they walked over to finish the celebration.

Meanwhile at the top of the fortress, Jor-el and Lara were watching everything. “Look Jor-el," Lara said with a smile on her face, our little boy hasn’t done so bad after all! Even though we could not be there to raise him ourselves, he has grown to be a fine young man. I am very proud of our son, aren’t you?”

“I am very proud of him my dear! We couldn’t have picked a better set of parents for him then the Kents. Hiram Kent kept his promise to protect and help me, but he did it through his son Jonathan. They think they are lowly farmers, but they really are two of earth’s greatest treasures. But now my dear it is time for us to leave this happy gathering. Let’s say our final goodbye’s.”



More coming soon….It’s hard to believe the story is soon coming to an end.

I want to thank everyone who has hung in there through all my mistakes, poor sentence structure and just plain bad writing…Thanks for reading it anyway!!!!!! It's my first story and I am learning.

Escout.

[happycamper]

Wow, two great updates!

A wonderful amount of happiness for Lana and Clark. But even more, how happy Jor-El and Lara, Jonathan and Martha, and even the Lang's must be to finally see this day, and to realize how perfect the couple are for one another. :)

But are we now going to get a final goodbye from the Kryptonian parents? :(

And oh, the Kryptonian crystal technology is even better than I had thought (gown, Superman costume, awards, etc.). :lol:


:D :D

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Originally posted by happycamper
Wow, two great updates!

A wonderful amount of happiness for Lana and Clark. But even more, how happy Jor-El and Lara, Jonathan and Martha, and even the Lang's must be to finally see this day, and to realize how perfect the couple are for one another. :)

But are we now going to get a final goodbye from the Kryptonian parents? :(

And oh, the Kryptonian crystal technology is even better than I had thought (gown, Superman costume, awards, etc.). :lol:


:D :D


Thank you for your reply. The crystals are amazing. The tecknology of this advanced race truly is amazing.
I also wanted to provide a happy time for this couple who has seen so much adversity and hard times.

You might ask, why the medals. Well in spite of all of his amazing powers, because of the way things have occurred Clark I feel has a bit of a security problem( being an orphan, not haing good feelings about Jor-el during most of his life. The medals are to allow him to see his Kryptonian heritage from a different perspective. That his predecessors were Heros and Leaders.

The final thing that I wanted to do was to give people something to feel good about. Especially if we consider the direction the show has taken.
Thank you again.
P.S. I am trying to find some of the Kryptonian Crystals myself.
Have a great day and Thank you again!!!:)

[escout]

I hope everyone has enjoyed it so far. Hopefully, I can update soon!!!:)

[<Nimrod>]

Aww escout dont give up:(

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 37


The celebration continued, everything was absolutely perfect for the newlyweds. As they danced their special wedding dance and held each other close, they realized that no matter what had happened in the past, all was forgiven and forgotten. Their love had survived an extreme series of test. They completely understood how much they meant to one another. Looking into each others eyes they smiled as they saw the great love and commitment. Lana recognized just how lucky she was to have Clark as her husband. She also recalled all that he had done and had given up to ensure her safety, even going as far to have time reversed and in spite of how much he loved her...walk away, pretending that he didn't care. All the while he was hurting so badly inside seeing her in the arms of another. Yes, Lana... Lana Kent realized just how special her man was and as tears fell from her eye as she thought to herself...I don't deserve him.

As she was pondering all these things a voice, one that was so familiar to her said, "yes, you are very much are deserving of him. But he isn't deserving of your love." With a surprised look on her face she said, "Clark, how did you know..."

"What you were thinking... remember our connection?"

"Our connection, that right, I had forgotten. But sweetheart, all of the things I've done and said. I was so cold and angry toward you."

"Lana, say no more it's all forgotten. It's all behind us now. Remember this always; I love you! I always have loved you and I always will love you! There is nothing that you or anyone else could do to ever change that."

She smiled at her husband and realized that in this great and mighty universe, there was no one anywhere like Clark.

"Clark Kent please, promise me that you will never leave me."

"Lana, I already have and I meant every word, with all of my heart! Remember I said, no more lies, no more secrets. I meant it with every fiber of my being!"

"I know my love," she replied. "I know."

Walking over to the table where the refreshments were located. Clark picked up two glasses of champagne and then walked back to his bride.

"A toast everyone," he said looking directly into the eyes of the only woman he ever loved. he thought to himself, she truly was the love of his life!

Holding his glass up high he said, "Lana Kent, I have been in love with you since were children. From the first time that I laid eyes on you I was captivated. I remember thinking that I had seen an angel the first time we met in your Aunt's flower shop. I remember how nervous I was as we spoke together at your fifth birthday. I have watch and loved you for as long as I could remember. My only wish, as I grew older was that someday you would grow to love me as much as I love you. Today all of my dreams have come true! You have made me the happiest man on this planet. I couldn't ask for more."

Saying this he leaned in to kiss her, but he was interrupted....

"Kal-el my son, I am sorry to interrupt you, but you are enjoying the moment so much that you are missing something very important."

"What am I missing father," he said with a great deal of respect for Jor-el?

"Everyone be quite for a moment. Listen Kal-el listen closely. Use you super hearing. You will see."

Clark began to listen intently. As he concentrated to hear something to give him a clue to what Jor-el was referring to ...he smiled and jubilantly ran over to Lana. Picking her up he twirled around and around. He was so excited and filled with joy. Tears were falling from his eyes. Lana, his Lana was carrying his child.

She asked "Clark, what is going on. What's wrong?" Lana I am hearing two heart beat when I concentrate on you. The first one is yours, but the second one...

You can't mean it, do you think...

Yes you are Lana, Jor-el said. I heard the second heartbeat as you were standing at the altar with Kal-el. This is a happy day, indeed! You are indeed pregnant!


Short update. More to come soon.

[happycamper]

Everything seems to be perfect! A now a baby...

I guess it was lucky that the wedding took place away from other friends and acquaintances - it would otherwise have been very difficult to explain how he knew about the baby...:lol:

One problem though...I'm not sure how desirable it would actually be to have a couple able to read all of each other's thoughts...


:D :D

[<Nimrod>]

Haha yeah escout!:D




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Originally posted by happycamper
Everything seems to be perfect! A now a baby...

I guess it was lucky that the wedding took place away from other friends and acquaintances - it would otherwise have been very difficult to explain how he knew about the baby...:lol:

One problem though...I'm not sure how desirable it would actually be to have a couple able to read all of each other's thoughts...


:D :D

You are absolutely right! The telepathy is only during significant emotional times. Times of extreme stress, happiness, sorrow, fear etc. Good point!
The hearing of the heartbeat would be very hard to explain!

Thanks for the reply. I am glad that you are enjoying it.

[*#~ ClAnAfAn99210~#*]

THIS IN AN INCREDIBLE STORY!!!! PPMS!!!!!!

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Originally posted by *#~ ClAnAfAn99210~#*
THIS IN AN INCREDIBLE STORY!!!! PPMS!!!!!!


Thank you so much for your kind reply! I am happy to hear that you like the story. I am having a lot of fun writing it.

By the way...I have wanted to apologize to you about my joking around about the fortress and the kryptonite. Your statement about the fortress deactivating the Kryptonite a while back, was RIGHT ON!!!!
I just hadn't thought about that one.
I am sorry I joked about the kryptonite was going to kill Clark.... A lousy attempt at humor on my part.

Welcome back to the story. I will try to update soon!!!! :)

[*#~ ClAnAfAn99210~#*]

DONT WORRY ITS KOOL JUST POST MORE AS SOON AS U CAN!!!!

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Dealing with the guilt

Chapter 38


“A baby!” Martha, Chloe Jonathan, Jor-el and Lara were ecstatic. After all that they had been through, all the problems and ups and downs, Lana was pregnant. Clark could barely contain himself. This was a day to top all days! He and Lana had married and now she was carrying his child.

As tears of joy ran down his face, Clark thought back to a few days ago. He was imprisoned in The Phantom Zone and he was filled with despair. He saw no hope and had given up. Jonathan was dead, Lana was with Lex and Zod was on the loose. His world had completely fallen apart. Now, less then one week later he was on the top of the world.

He realized that no matter how bad things seem that there is always hope. He understood that there is always a chance for things to change, no matter how bad it looks.

This lesson he swore never to forget. Putting his arms around Lana again he drew her into a long and passionate kiss.

Looking directly into his eyes she knew without having to hear his thoughts, that she had made everyone of his dreams come true! Lana could also see the depth of his love for her.

He then held her in a warm embrace, feeling her close to him realizing how good it felt to have her in his arms again. She was home where she belonged.

Jor-el and Lara went over to the couple. Giving both Clark and Lana a long tender hug they said, “it is time for us to go children. Our work is done. This is the day that all of Krypton has been long awaiting. The day when the last son of Krypton would take a wife and begin the process of continuing the Kryptonian race.”

“Now that the day has arrived we can leave in peace, knowing that you are well on the way to fulfilling your destiny. Lana, Clark could not have picked a better wife. Your strength and perseverance will serve you well as you stand with Kal-el as he follows the path to fulfilling his destiny. Lara and I could not have planned for Kal-el any better than the way things have worked out. Lana you are a perfect mate for him. Our son has truly found his soulmate.”

“Kal-el, we are both very proud of you. In spite of all the odds, you have become a man of honor and integrity. You have faced formidable enemies, have been victorious. You have corrected the mistakes of your past.”

“My son, you mother and I are now leaving, becoming part of the make-up of this fortress again. You will need our guidance from time to time, but for now you will continue to grow in knowledge and wisdom. With Lana by your side you are complete. Continue to walk in the wisdom you have been shown and you will always be victorious. Remember always my son, we love you, even more than you could ever realize.”
After saying that they hugged both Lana and Clark and the said goodbye to the others present and then they were gone.

Lana remained standing with her hand in Clark’s knowing that she was the happiest woman in two worlds and that all of her dreams had also come true!

Clark was now her husband and she carried his child. Could any woman anywhere be happier? She already knew the answer to that.

The Kents and Chloe gathered around the newlyweds giving hugs and expressing their happiness for them both. Chloe gave Lana a knowing smile and whispered in her ear. “I’ve always known that you and Clark were meant for each other. Now that you are one with each other don’t let anything ever change that!”

“Don’t worry about that Chloe nothing is ever going to change that…never.”

As they walked together to the transport site, Clark looked at his bride and said, “well Mrs. Kent, have you thought about a honeymoon?”

“How about the French Riviera, I could use some practice with my French, Lana smiled?”

“Then that the place we will go. We will fly and see which one of us beats the other.”

“That’s fine my dear, but remember I am just as fast as you are now…so no cheating.”

“As the transport lights began to flash in the fortress, Clark laughed and said to Lana, what, I never cheat.”

“If you say so she replied.”

After arriving in the cave it was a short trip back to the farm. Clark and Lana began to make plans for the future. Where were they going to live, now, they had a family to think about.

As they were discussing possibilities, Jonathan approached them, with an envelope in his hand. Smiling at Clark he said son, “this is for you.”

Opening the envelope and reading the contents, Clark had a surprised look on his face. “Dad what is this,” he asked.

“Son your mother and I have been putting away money for you for many years, even before we adopted you, we planned to have a child. Son we began saving for you. This is what that money, invested properly has amounted to. It’s more than enough to purchase a house or build one. Your mom and I feel that the perfect spot would be here on the farm. That way we can all be close and when your mother and I are gone you can take over.”

“Thanks dad, I know already that you won’t change your mind about giving this so I will graciously accept it and say thank you from both of us.”

Lana stood by her husband shaking her head yes. Building on the farm would be perfect. That way the family could always be close and grandma and grandpa would always be nearby.

Chloe hugged and her friends and wished them well and said she would see them after the honeymoon. Then she was back in her yellow VW and was heading back home, chuckling about how everything had worked out.

The newlyweds headed to the loft. Looking out the window at the stars in the sky, Lana said to Clark… “You know, it wasn’t too long ago that a certain someone took down that famous telescope. Why don’t we put it back where it belongs?”

“You are absolutely right my dear, let’s put it back where it belongs. It is a symbol of our love one for another!”

After the telescope was standing again, right where it had always been, Lana looked at Clark and said, “now that’s much better.”

Picking her up and twirling her around he said, “it’s all better, all of my bad decisions and choices have been taken care of all the harm I caused has been reversed. My dear miracles do happen.”

Kissing Clark, she wrapped her legs around his waist. Looking into his eyes with love showing from her own, “she asked, well Mr. Kent do I get that honeymoon or what?”

Smiling back at her with love shining from his own, he replied, “I will race you to the house, we can pack and be on our way.”

Smiling, Lana said, Clark, “we have one thing to do before we go.”

Looking at the love in her eyes, he said, “yes, I know, but only if you promise not to make too much noise…remember, my parents are at home.”


I am sorry that it’s taken so long to get an update done…work has been brutal.
I will try to post the last update soon. Thanks everyone for hanging in there!!!

[*#~ ClAnAfAn99210~#*]

one thing to do ,eh? you ure its only one thing? w/e gr8 update

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Originally posted by *#~ ClAnAfAn99210~#*
one thing to do ,eh? you ure its only one thing? w/e gr8 update

Thanks!!!!
I will try to update soon!!! :)

[happycamper]

Originally posted by escout
Smiling, Lana said, Clark, “we have one thing to do before we go.”

Looking at the love in her eyes, he said, “yes, I know, but only if you promise not to make too much noise…remember, my parents are at home.”
Well it seems like Clark thinks very highly of his abilities; I just hope he's not assuming too much...:lol:

It's good to see such happy Clana!


:D :D

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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 39


The honeymoon was wonderful! Some of the money that Jonathan and Martha had saved and invested allowed the newlyweds to stay in a fashionable resort on the ocean. Clark had never seen Lana so happy. She was like a child in a toy store who had been given the task of gathering as many toys as she possibly could in a one hour shopping spree. All expenses paid of course!

Lana was finally really happy. Her dreams had all come true. Clark had finally revealed his secret to her, there were no more lies, she now had the love of her life by her side forever and she had a new Heritage. She was a full fledged member of The House of El. this new heritage had given her powers similar to Clark. Could anyone ask for more?

All of the emptiness and hurt that had once plagued her life had gone. The pain of losing her parents, Clark, Henry Small deserting her and everything else were now forgotten. She was with Clark and all was well! Lana had always known him to be special, but she never realized completely, just how charming he was, when he was not trying to hide his secret.

She also saw Clark from a completely different perspective. The weight of the world was finally gone from his shoulders. The sadness in his eyes was gone. He was the old Clark that she had come to know and love! Yes, that weight was gone completely...Never to return. All the fear, the worries, the guilt and insecurity were gone. Her Clark was a new man. Not that she didn't love the old Clark, but this new Clark...well he was something else. Charming, debonair, happy full of excitement and fun...Yes this clark was a SUPERMAN!

Lana was grateful that she was still able to wear a bikini. She had not begun to show yet. They enjoyed the ocean, laid out on the beach and saw all The French Rivera had to offer. Clark marvelled at how Lana had mastered the french language. They laughed whenever he tried to ask for help or directions. But wherever they went heads turned as people saw this beautiful couple and saw the love one for another on their faces and in their eyes. If they only knew what this couple had suffered, if they only has a clue about the price both had paid to have that love.

A love like theirs was a once in a million years type of love! Lana gave herself completely to her husband. Clark had done the same. They realized that love was worth fighting for, no matter what it cost either of them...It was worth the fight!

As the newlywed were flying back to Smallville, Lana asked Clark, "what shall we do first? Make plans for the house or school?"

"The first thing we need to do is find you a Gynecologist young lady. Then we can do the other things, but first things first! I want our child to have a be perfect. The way to ensure that will be to have early and regular check ups!"

"But what about my abilities," Lana said with a chuckle, "how are they going to draw blood from me?"

"Don't worry, I have already spoken to Chloe and she found a doctor who's speciality is delivering the babies of superheros. There won't be any problem at all. putting her arms around Clark she hugged, kissed him and said I love you!"

Clark replied, "I love you!"

Arriving home the newlyweds were met by a welcoming home party. Jonathan and Martha, Chloe, Pete, Nell and believe it or not...even Henry Small.

"Hi sweetheart, I love you and I have missed not having you be a part of my life. Can you forgive a foolish old man for not allowing his daughter to be a part of his life. Lana, I don't know to make it up to you, but can you forgive me, Henry asked appearing a little worried?"

"Dad, I forgave you a long time ago! I knew the pressure you were under and finding out that you have a daughter all of a sudden only added to that stress. I realized that I had to back off, find out who I really was and wait for the pieces of my life, to come together."

"Dad it's so good to see you again and yes, I love you too, Lana gave her dad a hug, that showed him that he really was forgiven!"

"Lana I heard the news...I am going to be a grandfather. That is the best news I have heard in a long time. Second only to the news of you and Clark. I couldn't" have asked for a better son-in-law! I am so happy for both of you!"

"Dad, there is something you need to know about Clark, myself and the baby, she said appearing a bit nervous herself now."

"Don't worry about that Lana, Martha said; Jonathan took the liberty of filling him in...It was Clark's idea. It's part of his no more secrets, no more lies policy."

"So you know about it all dad?"

"Yes I do Lana and I think it's wonderful!"

Lana smiled and thought to herself,{i]It just gets better and better. Now I know what Clark must have felt all those years...Wondering how people would react to his secret. yes, now I know![/i]

"Come on everyone a toast to the newlyweds," Jonathan shouted!

"Pete ran over to Clark, hugged him and shouted..."That's my boy! Clark it's about time you married her. I thought I was going to have to come back here with a green K. hammer and knock some sense into you."

"Pete I finally realized that my life without Lana was not any life at all. I realized that the only way to really protect her from my secret was to tell her my secret. After that everything fell right into place. I only wish I hadn't waited so long! Man, Pete, it's good to see you!"

Everyone had a great time. Clark and Lana were glowing. They shared every detail of there honeymoon.When everyone was gone and the house cleaned up. Lana walked over to her man, put her arms around him and said, " Life wouldn't have been worth living, if I couldn't spend it with you sweetheart. It is true, we all have a love of our lives. When we find that person the key is to recognize it and never let them go. No matter what the cost, fight for then!"

Looking into her eyes, he replied, "I agree sweetheart no matter what the cost, fight for them! There just is no settling for anyone else. Thanks for not giving up on me completely my love. Now let's get some rest and remember no screaming...my parents are in the next room.

"Ooh I can't wait until we get our own house. then I can scream as loud as I want, she said laughing".

Off to bed they went, both realizing that no one in this whole world was more fortunate then they!

More to come later.

I hope you are enjoying this. This the way I feel it all should have happened and it did in my Alternate Universe!

[Nemu]

it is refreshing to see everyone soo happy...

Specially Clana...

PPMS!!!

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Originally posted by Nemu
it is refreshing to see everyone soo happy...

Specially Clana...

PPMS!!!

Thanks Nemu!!!
Your replies are so very much appreciated!

This is how I see it happening...not the way it's occurring on the show.

thanks again!!!:)

Dealing with the Guilt.

Chapter 40


The days went by quickly! Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months. Their house went up quickly. Although it was fairly close to Martha and Jonathan's, there was enough distance to allow Lana to moan, groan, scream without worry of Clark's parents overhearing anything.

The baby was born in January. Lana's Gynecologist was wonderful...she was well versed in delivering babies for superheros. On hand for the delivery were Clark of course, Martha, Jonathan, Nell, Henry Small, Pete and Chloe. The waiting room was full.

Clark was so excited, his child was about to be born. Although he was nervous, he didn't let it show. Lana was hoping for a boy, she wanted to name him Clark, but Clark wanted a girl. He wanted to name her after his beautiful wife.

The labor was longer than Lana wanted. It took about 26 hours and out she came...their beautiful little girl. They were both estatic!

After it was over, Clark leaned over and kissed his sweet wife and then leaned over and placed a kiss on the forehead of his brand new daughter. He couldn't believe how much she looked like Lana. Olive skin, a big crop of brown-reddish hair and the cute little nose.

"Lana," Clark exclaimed, "she is so beautiful!"

"She is beautiful Clark," Lana said..."She is a child born out of the love of two people, whose love has survived the test of time. So from a beautiful love, comes a beautiful child! Isn't it wonderful!"

'Yes my sweet it is wonderful! Have you thought about a name?"

"Yes Clark, I know that if we had a girl that you wanted to name her after me, but I would like to ask a big favor of you?"

'Lana, whatever you want sweetheart, it's done!"

"Can we name this beautiful little darling, Laura... after my mom? She will never get to see her and she was so special to me. I would like to honor her by naming our daughter after her, please Clark, it's so important!'

"Laura it is Lana! It's a beautiful name for a beautiful baby!"

"After she is ready, I would like to take her to the window of the nursery and show our little bundle of joy to the grandparents."

The nurses had been instructed by Dr. Harper to give Clark and Lana time alone, for at least twenty minutes. The baby was in perfect health and had apgar scores were perfect...So they did let the new mother and father have time alone, with their new child. Laura was snuggle up on mom's chest looking around.

Suddenly that special blue light appeared in the birthing room. Out of the blue light stepped Lara, Jor-el and Laura...Lana's mother. Lana could have jumped for joy, had she not just had a baby!
"Mother...Is that you!"

"Yes my dear daughter it is I. I have missed you so much Lana. I love you so! I am so sorry that I wasn't there to help you grow up. I wish I could have been with you for the pregnancy and delivery. All I can say is that I am so happy to be here now! I love you so much my dear Lana!"

"Mother," Lana replied..."I love you and I have missed you so much!!! I am so glad you are here. Here, hold you new granddaughter!"

"Lana she is just as beautiful as you are. My dear you have become such a beautiful young woman! Tell me, what is her name my dear?"

"It's Laura mom, we named her in honor of you!"

"I am honored my dear! Thank you for remembering me!'

As they visited, Clark waited with Lara and Jor-el...they were all so proud! With all that was going on Lana had quickly forgotten the pain of childbirth. The visitors momentarily disappeared as the nurse came to check on Lana and the baby. Then Laura began to cry indicating that she was hungry.

After the nurses had retreated back to the nurses station, Laura reappeared and guided her daughter on the art of breast feeding. Lana caught on quickly and very soon, Laura was resting in dreamland.
Clark put her in her nursery bed and took her to the nursery while Laura and Lana visited. They had a lot to talk about.

The crowd in the waiting room went wild when Clark rolled the baby into the nursery! "She is so beautiful," they all said!


More coming soon!

Some of you might say, "Laura, Lana's mother...What the heck?"
Hey, it's all fantasy...so why not give Lana closure in regard to her mom.
I like my Alternate Universe...it's such a happy place!~

I hope you are enjoying this as much as I am!!!!!

[happycamper]

Naughty, putting in two updates just after I had commented. :)

But you're right! Your universe really is a happy place...:lol:

I just keep reading these references to screaming, but I can't quite figure out what it is to which you are referring. ;)


:D :D

[Nemu]

i agree with hc... it is your universe...

very nice!!

PPMS!!!

[Hahaveryfunny]

Love this story! Keep up the good work! PPMS!

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Dealing with the Guilt
Chapter 41


Clark was being very careful as he held Laura up for everyone to see. Martha and Jonathan laughed as the watched him hold her. There he was the young man who once tossed Jonathan’s tractor several miles down the road a few years before. Jonathan remembered that it just missed hitting Perry White.

It was a little humorous to see Clark, the soon to be Man of Steel holding his own daughter so carefully and gently. He was almost afraid of dropping her.

The family members and friends who were standing outside of the nursery cheered as he turned little Laura around so they could see her face. Her resemblance to Lana was so striking that it was amazing. One thing they all noticed was the thick black curly hair on Laura’s head. There was no doubt she was definitely Clark’s daughter.

During the time that they remained in the hospital, Lana and Laura had many visitors, but one person remained as long as visiting hours permitted and that was Clark. He loved holding Laura. He talked to her all the time. He was so happy to be with his wife and daughter.

Lana had always known that Clark would make an excellent father, but even she was amazed at his natural fatherly way. It seemed that Laura was actually smiling at him as he talked with her. This new role he knew, he was definitely going to enjoy.

Time passed very quickly and it was soon time for Clark to take his family home. Lana watched him get everything situated in the truck. Laura was awake for the ride home and he talked to her the whole trip home. Lana tried to get a word in here and there, but there he was the shy Clark Kent just talking away telling little Laura about everything that came to mind. Lana just marvelled at his natural fathering abilities.

When they reached the farm, they found quite a few friends waiting to welcome them home and to greet the new arrival. Martha and Jonathan were there as well. They noticed how proud and happy their son was. Things had changed and he was completely different! That sadness in his eyes was gone. No longer did he carry the weight of the world on his shoulders. Clark was finally really happy.

His parents were not the only ones to see this change, Lana who always knew just how special Clark was saw a complete change in him as well. She noted this change and was happy to see it. She thought to herself, what a wonderful man! How did I get so lucky to be the one in this world that he loved more than anyone else.

At that very moment he turned to his wife, smiled and said, “it’s because you are very special and now we have a very special daughter! Lana, you also need to know that in spite of all that I am and can do, I am completely lost without your love. I have always known that, but it became very clear to me the day I lost you and reversed time. I knew that I couldn’t go on without you, even if it meant seeing you with someone else. But I thank God that everything has worked out the way it did!”

“I love you more than life itself! Thank you for staying with me and for marrying me.”

“Clark, we better go inside, before you make me cry, I love you, sweetheart more than you or anyone could ever imagine!” She kissed him and they went inside carrying Laura. Everyone was waiting for them and they all wanted a turn holding Laura.

Once inside the new parents were completely surprized. Their parents and friends had performed a radical makeover of the house and the nursery. There were balloons and flowers and a big banner that said welcome home Lana, Clark and Laura. The nursery was even decorated with smiles and clowns painted on the nursery walls. Now there really were tears in Lana’s eyes. She was overwhelmed by everyones generosity. Clark watched as Laura made the rounds to see all the family and friends. Of course the baby finally ended up with Grandma Kent, who was having a wonderful time with her granddaughter. Jonathan sat back watching Martha smiling at how much fun she was having with Laura. He was happy to see the smiles on his wife’s face and see the happiness she was experiencing radiating from her. He remembered the sad times she had seen and was happy that all that was passed. He also was happy that she no longer had the pain of seeing Clark lonely, empty. Yes, life had taken a marvelous turn for all the Kents! He was especially happy to be there to see it all.

Finally after everyone had gone home, Clark and Lana had put little Laura to bed. Clark held Lana in his arms and said, “I love you Mrs. Kent!”

She looked into his eyes and responded, “I love you too my dear.” Promise me that you always will love me Clark. I don’t ever want to spend a day without you.”

“I promise to always be here for you my dear.” They continued to watch Laura sleep and realized that for them life was worth everything that they had experienced. They realized that the good times and the bad brought them to where they are today. Yes, looking back over the years each experience molded, shaped and allowed them to be what they were today.

As Laura grew, it was obvious that she took after both of her parents. She was every bit as beautiful as her mother, but she was every bit as feisty as Clark. She loved to sneak up on the dogs or horses and spoof them. She was also a tremendous help to both of her parents. She was becoming a very bright student as well and Clark and Lana were both very proud of her. As Laura grew into a beautiful young girl, Lana began to notice that she like her father had abilities. She could already lift the couch and had her father’s incredible speed.

Lana and Clark had to explain to her why she was able to do these miraculous things and why no one else could know about them.

More to come.

[happycamper]

:lol: happy :lol:

The only thing in this update that had the slightest hint of unhappiness was the fact that Laura had to keep her own secrets. I guess some things never change.


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Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 42

Even at her young age, Laura understood the importance of keeping her abilities a secret. As Clark explained everything in detail to her, even his fears, worries and frustrations he had experienced she knew that what he told her was something that would help her realize the importance of having to hide her powers and keep all her abilities secret.

When he finished explaining everything, he and Laura left the Loft and returned to the house. It was now time for lunch and Lana had prepared a nice meal. As she served Laura and Clark, Lana with a smile on her face asked Laura if she understood why her abilities had to remain a secret. She nodded to Lana and said, “Yes.”

Then she gave her daughter a hug and said, “since we are discussing secrets, I’ve got one for you young lady.” Clark looked over at Lana wondering what secret she was just about to tell.

She smiled at Laura and then at Clark. “Well, I guess it’s time to tell both of you. Laura, you will soon be able to share your secret with another person.”

“Who mom,” she asked with a smile on her face? It would be fun to share who I am and what I can do with someone.”

“Laura you will be able to share your secret very soon with your baby brother!”

Clark nearly fell out of his seat. “What did you say my dear. What is this about a baby brother?”

Laura laughed at her dad and said to her mom, “but I don’t have a baby brother, mom.”

“Not yet sweetheart, but in seven months you will!” Upon hearing this that famous Clark Kent grin began to spread across Clark’s face. He super sped over to Lana and picked her up and began dancing around with her in his arms.

“Whoa Clark take it easy, remember, I’m pregnant.” “How long have you known, he asked?”

“Well,” she responded, “I suspected it for the last four weeks but Dr. Harper confirmed it with a test Last week. She also did an ultrasound…It’s a boy! It’s funny that Kryptonian children seem to mature rather quickly!”

Clark hugged and kissed his wife. “He said with you things keep getting better and better sweetheart. I love you he said over and over again!”

Later that evening Laura was visiting her grandparents. Clark and Lana were both in the loft looking out the window watching the sun set. “Do you remember the first time we watched the sun go down together?”

“I do remember that day my dear. That was the day you were desperately trying to work up the courage to ask me to go out with you. You wanted to take me riding. Clark, but I ended up asking you to go riding with me.”

“I remember Clark replied and thank you for asking! Lana, I want to thank you for so many things. If it wasn’t for you, I don’t know where I would be or know what I would be doing. Thank you for helping me to feel human. Thank you for accepting me as I am.”

Lana looked into his dark green-blue eyes and replied, “Clark you are the most amazing man I have ever met. You are kind, humble, selfless and caring. My dear you have saved countless lives without taking any credit for it. Most of all Clark, you have taken a broken, lonely girl and made her the happiest person on this planet, because of your love for her. I am the one that needs to be thanking you! May we have many more sunsets like this together!

More coming….Today!

Dealing with the Guilt

Chapter 43


Epilogue

Ten years have passed since Lana and Clark stood together in the loft watching that sunset together. Many changes have occurred since that wonderful day. Clark completed his training and is now The Superman we all have come to know and love. Most of the time superman works alone, but from time to time he has been seen working with one of several assistants. At times his assistant is a grown woman. But on other occasions he has been seen with one to four children working with him. This has led to the rumor of a family of super beings living somewhere on this earth. Whenever anyone has asked about this while interviewing Superman, his reply is “that anything is possible or well it wouldn’t surprise me. I sometimes need a little extra help in emergencies; you know I am not as young as I used to be he has said with a smile.”

The Kent family has grown. There are several new members: Jonathan Jor-el, Martha and Clark jr. Martha and Laura resemble their mother, but Jonathan Jor-el and Clark jr. both bear a striking resemblance to their father. They both have his dark blue-green eyes, dark curly hair and his famous smile. Each child has the abilities of their parents. They have been seen flying to and from vacations from time to time.

All the kids were waiting for the day they could don costumes and fight crime the way their parent have done for years.

One day as they were all flying home from a family vacation, Clark watching the kids playing with one another while flying and then after hearing Lana scold little Clark for teasing his sister Martha, he realized just how lucky he has been. There was a time he had accepted the title BDA and he not only deserved the title, but had rightfully earned it. But with Lana by his side he was no longer lost and alone. He was complete. She had taught him to triumph no matter what the circumstances. She had made a winner out of him.

Then there were the kids. The four of them brought happiness and joy to their parent’s hearts. They didn’t grow up with the fears and insecurities with badgered Clark most of his life. He was glad of that fact. You might say that the kids were the icing on the cake. They couldn’t wait to be a part of the family business. Yes they were well aware of their special heritage and were very proud of who they were.


You see they represented the best of both worlds. They would always be The Kent children, but they were also the last surviving members of the House of El. They were the only surviving descendents of The Late Planet Krypton.

Best of all with all that they had learned, from their parents, grandparents and friends of their parents, they knew that they would never have: To Deal with the Guilt!

The End.

I would like to thank everyone who has read my story, but especially to all thoughs who replied.
Special thanks to: Emo-girl, Snowman, Nemu, Becca, Tiffy, TJab1426, Black Echo, Nimrod, Happy Camper, Clanafan and everyone who has left a reply or word of encouragement.

Thank you again!
Merry Christmas everyone, Merry Christmas!!!!!
:)

[Nemu]

that was a very good ending escout...

Good work!!!

and merry christmas to you!

[happycamper]

A very happy ending, and very nicely timed, too!

Thanks for a great story!

Merry x-mas!!


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[maitriniazngurl]

Great ending!

Just b4 Christmas! Btw, MERRY CHRISTMAS!! I just went back to catch up! Realy nice ending!

[Nemu]

you know this was a never ending story... I was re-reading and i think you started to say that the end was coming like 10 chapters before the real last chapter... lol

oh and im happy cause i just saw that i became a Board Master 36 posts ago...lol

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Congratulations on becoming Board Master!!!!! AWESOME!!!!


Thanks Nemu!!!! I really wanted to go on, with Dealing with the Guilt, but you wonder. Am I pushing it? Are folks gretting tird of it. Back then I didn't get too many replies. So I couldn't tell if folks liked it or not.

I may have to do a Sequel?

Thanks again, my friend!!!
Your comments through out it all really helped me and still do ...to continue!!!!! Enjoy the rest of the week, my friend!!!!! :)

[Nemu]

Nah the story is pretty well complete as it is Joe...

Better to concentrate on your 2 active stories ;)

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Originally posted by Nemu
Nah the story is pretty well complete as it is Joe...

Better to concentrate on your 2 active stories ;)



Okay!!!:)